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| ~*~ Essentials ~*~ Pen name: Shukujo Kurai Also known as: Bunny >_<;;; Age: Doesn't matter anyway B-day: October 29 Occupation: Student ~*~ Silly Stuff ~*~ Hobbies: Sleeping, reading, and writing Favorite season: Autumn Favorite Sport to watch: Hockey Favorite Magazines: Discover Favorite Toothpaste: anything Colgate Favorite BubbleGum: mint-flavored? Favorite Candy: I really don't like candy... Favorite Store(s): I HATE shopping! Favorite Thing to Wear to School: clothes Favorite Word: 'Hn.' or 'Aa.' Thing You Say Way Too Much: see above Favorite ice-cream Flavor: vanilla Favorite Soda: ew....Sprite, I guess Favorite drink other than soda: Green tea, coffee, juices, carrot-berry juice, regular tea........*babbles on and on* Last Book you Read by Choice: Profiling Violent Crimes Where is your computer: on my desk Silliest Thing You've Said: most of the things I say are just really stupid... Favorite Smiley Face: �_�; or ^.^;;; Last thing you said: "Hn." When told to 'have a good day tomorrow'. ~*~ Web Life ~*~ Site: Bright Eyes Date started: Um...2000? HTML?: *sighs* No... Fic Projects: x_X; What It Would Be Like, Remember Me, Meet Me Again, If Only, Beautiful, Chosen, Untitled Weiss Fic #'s 1 and 2. ~*~ Friends and Their Sites ~*~ Marie (Makoto-chan/Sango) Duo-kun MD (Komadori-chan MD) |
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| 01.02.03 19:11 Arg... It's been so long...I'm sorry everyone. u_u; I'm a bad little webmistress. I'm not sure if I like this layout...The gif is too tall and the placements are all funny...u_u;;; I like the gif itself though...*drools* I love Ran-kun. I'd probably stalk him if he were human. >_< ...You know, the only layout that I've liked so far was November's layout...and it was Ran too! XD Ran's my fav character....I would make more gifs of Youji, but in group pics I have, he's always overlapped by someone. (Usually Omi) The Ran gif was from a pic of he and Youji. Youji, of course, being overlapped by Ran...u_u;;; I need more piccies. Well, I rang in the new year by being told that it was five after midnight while watching a movie and drawing. Yea....*waves flag unenthusiastically* Oh, XD....I was in Books-a-Million over break and this old guy (he looked like he was older than my dad by about 10 years...) kept watching me. He finally came up to me and ended up handing me this business card that looked like our state license plate, but it read POETIC on it....It was his poetic license...XD He kept talking to me about photography and poetry...to top it off, he kept trying to get me to have coffee with him. I told him that I was looking for my mom, but he didn't seem to care. u_u;;; Mom finally came and rescued me. It was still funny though... Warg... Oh yeah...if a friend of mine isn't married by age thirty, I get to marry him. *sweatdrop* S'probably the only way I'll ever get married. u_u;;; I'm gonna be an old maid. Um...I got chapter four of "What It Would Be Like" done. (I want to get MD's editing opinions on it before I post it though.) I'm working on chapter 5 now. I've got chapter two of this untitled Weiss fic going...it's really long. u_u I need to post chapter one. >_<;;; Hm...I guess I'll go update the quizzes...or something. 19:45 ~Kurai |
| 01.06.03 07:55 I am not a happy camper. We don't have school today on account of the snow. It's not even sticking to the roads! >_< At least no one's crashed into my yard yet. That stupid superintendant won't call off school when there's a visible layer of ice on the road, but she'll call it off for NO FREAKIN' REASON! *RAGE* So now I'll probably have to go on the 17th. I'm off the 15th and 16th for exams and I WOULD have had the 17th off too...then the weekend and then the 20th for Martin Luther King Day...But NOOOOOO! >_< I hate my life.... I've been working more on the untitled Wei� fic...(I really need to get MD to help me name it...u_u;;;) It's consuming me... Arg, I feel sick...X� I'm liking this layout more and more now that I get more entries in. It looked kinda funny...all one-sided and all...*is not making much sense* I really need to change my imood...u_u;;; I need to get a job....*sweatdrop* Mako, you're not alone. Even when you feel the furthest away from Him, He is still by your side. Trust him enough to let go and fall into His hands. (I wouldn't be here today otherwise.) ~.^ Well, I'm gonna go update the quizzes. 08:09 ~Kurai |
| 01.06.03 20:45 Well...maybe it WAS a good thing... It started to snow pretty heavily a few hours after I logged off...maybe the roads were slippery, I dunno. Everyone seemed to have chains on their tires... Plus, I got sick, so everything works out...except for that whole go to school for two days, off two days, go one day, off three...yeah....�_�; I went outside in 24�F weather (12�F wind chill!) and took pictures. >_<; I was bored...It took twenty minutes for me to be able to feel my fingers again. ^.^;; I couldn't find any gloves. Anyway, I've uploaded chapter 4 of What It Would Be Like. I've finally named that infernal untitled Wei� fic and I've got both chapters up. (It's still not finished, but that's all I have done at the moment...) It's name is "Chosen"...*sweatdrop* Oh, I've added more banners to the Link BE section... Well...I'm bored now... 20:55 ~Kurai |
| 01.07.03 11:56 And we're off again. That'd be okay if I didn't get so bored. Although I really didn't want to wake up this morning. I did, though....5:00...didn't fall back asleep until 6:45. 'Course we didn't find out about school until about 5:35. Idiotic woman... Arg...I have to have my widsom teeth taken out on the 16th of this month. I'm gonna be hurting on the 17th...u_u;; Infernal superintendant. Gah...chapter five of What It Would Be Like is mildly traumatic...x_X I sent it to MD-neechan and Duo-kun, though. Neither of them got to read it last night, but that's okay. The more I read over it, the less disturbing it is. *sweatdrop* >_0 *sighs* Two of my great-uncles are in hospitals. One for black lung and the other for a broken hip/heart attacks. The latter has internal bleeding and the former has stopped responding to external stimuli. This has been a happy day so far! *twitch* Arg...I'm running out of mildly pleasant things to talk about. 12:07 ~Kurai |
| 01.07.03 15:18 Yea! I updated the Wei� Kreuz page! Now there are three! <3 Go look! I've been listening to the Inu-Yasha Movie Soundtrack that J-kun got me for Christmas. The case is all in Japanese so I had to go to Sengoku Jidai to find out the track names. (For some reason, not knowing the track names really bothers me.) It's quite pretty, actually. Wada Kaoru really put a lot of work into this... Anyway... 15:43 ~Kurai |
| 01.08.03 19:51 I'm listening to Gov. Wise's speech to the senate/legislature. I may not agree with everything that he believes in, but it makes me almost pleased to see the man so passionate about what he does (or what his underlings do, whichever). For some reason, it doesn't matter whether or not he's acting. It's the fact that he's putting the effort into it, unlike our senator (or whomever he is) behind the governor. Bob Kiss looks decidedly bored. He's advocating e-mail at the moment. He's raising our cigarette tax to 55 cents per pack from 17 cents per pack. *cheers* (I really hate cigarettes) He's better than our last governor. o.O That man was so corrupt. u_u; He proposed the plan for the medical malpractice crisis that's going on in our state. He refuses to cut from our education fund. The Promise Scholarship (and some other one) shall not be cut or changed. He mentioned the crisis now facing our state troopers. (70% of them were in the Army Reserves and are now being shipped off to war. u_u) He mentioned lessening/dissolving the political barriers preventing our state's citizens from adopting children from other countries and bringing them into our state. I've noticed that no one around here has ever even contemplated adopting from other countries. Idiotic narrow-minded people. >_< Ever since I was fourteen, even with my extreme dislike of children, I have encouraged all those people I knew that were considering adoption to try looking in other countries...and I was severely dissapointed in our values by learning that no one wants a child that doesn't look like they do. WHAT is the big deal?! They have (or did have, depending on the previous trauma inflicted upon the specific child) two eyes, two ears, a nose, and a mouth just like Americans. They all have (same senario as above) two arms, two legs, ten fingers, ten toes, and all the internal organs that we do. The only difference is skin tone and the shape of the facial features. Good heavens, people, grow up. u_u; Sorry...that's a topic that really grates on my nerves. *sighs* I'll never understand people... All that child needs and wants is for someone, probably ANYONE to love them. How can you deny a child that? They have experienced more hardships by the time they learn to talk than most Americans will ever face in their lifetimes. How can you deny a child protection from the world's evils? Is it possible for someone to be so cold, so insensitive? Yes. And they walk our streets searching for medical miracles to get them pregnant. HOW can someone be so selfish? I'd like to hear from everyone about this. E-mail me. Ehg...I need to go before I work myself up into a frenzy...u_u; 20:15 ~Kurai |
| 01.10.03 14:57 I think it was a mistake to speak my mind last entry. I'll probably take it down asap. I'm not good at vocalizing my feelings, obviously. I'm really tired of caring. I'm sick of it getting me nowhere else but down. No one listens anyway, so why bother? I hate politics and I hate people. And everyone wonders why I never leave the house. I barely even leave my room. I was so infuriated yesterday that I didn't even write. I guess I shouldn't let things get to me so easily, but they do. Uck...I don't even want to keep writing. People will read this and act all concerned, asking if I'm okay and if I've taken my medication. I wish everyone would just leave me alone. I quit. 15:06 ~Kurai |
| 01.13.03 14:59 *sigh* Remember my uncle, the one that wasn't responding to external stimuli? Well, he died late this morning. I went to the hospital on Saturday to visit him. Surprisingly, he remembered who I was and even my name (which is rare for NORMAL people). My mom's really upset. I suspect it's because she chose to work all weekend instead of going to visit him. Guilt. Plain and simple. My grandma's driving to Amigo (where my uncle lived) to tell Emma (his late wife's sister who stayed with him) what had happened. (Unfortunately, Emma's not all there.) My grandma was really close to Cleo (my now-late great-uncle and her brother). The sad thing is, I'm not really bothered by it. I knew it was going to happen soon when I saw him on Saturday. He'd given up because no one was coming to see him. That's why I don't get attached to people. It hurts less when something happens to them. I knew something was wrong when my grandpa tried to hug me when I got home from school. u_u;;;; Maybe I'll write later. 15:08 ~Kurai |
| 01.13.03 19:15 Legal crap sucks...>_< A friend of my uncle's and Emma get EVERYTHING. They weren't even THERE throughout all this! Geez, I hate people. *rage* They're so...secular. First thing they wanted to know about was his will. How selfish can you be? u_u; Here I go about selfishness again. I guess I really can't talk about selfishness without being a hypocrite. Although, I'm not selfish when it comes to money. I'm selfish with other people's attention. I get jealous easily, which is another reason why I don't get attached to other people. I really need to stop using this page as a place to complain. u_u; But this really is my diary and that's what I'd do in it, were it a book. That reminds me. My mom got me some really pretty journals for Christmas. The spines are Japanese silk. One's blue and the other one's green. (The green one is really pretty...*_*) My grandparents are fighting over pizza now. u_u; *stomach grumbles* Wish they'd just order it and get it delivered since none of us want to drive at the moment. (Even grandpa doesn't! His truck won't start and he keeps making up excuses not to go. I think it's because he doesn't want to wreck Nana's car.) Whew...they're finally getting it delivered. ^.^ Watch them miss the house... I really want to give my grandma the porcelain angel that I got her for Valentine's Day. I think it'd be nicer now. I can always get her something else for V-Day. Arg...the other uncle keeps having heart attacks. >_< The doctors confirmed the one eight days ago. I don't think my grandma can stand to lose another brother. Right now, she has three out of six left. Nana has to write the obituary! o.O Shouldn't someone else do that? She and Uncle John are making the funeral arrangements already...(once again, my many appointments interfere with things...) I should go...but I really don't want to. It feels nice to talk about things, even if it is depressing to everyone else. Oh well. 19:38 ~Kurai |
| 01.16.03 22:03 x_X Ow....my jaws hurt from their taking my wisdom teeth out. u_u; I'm such a wuss. What really sucks is where my throat's raw from their letting everything drain down it. >_< They gave me nitrous oxide, an IV of some anesthetic, AND novocaine. That was at about 10:30 this morning and I'm just NOW starting to be able to feel my chin. �_�; Anyway, my uncle's wake was yesterday (I had to miss the funeral today...). I just can't get over the fact that they had gotten his will changed. That's just rude. (and illegal, I think) But Nana doesn't want to contest it and neither does Uncle John. Neither of them are happy about it, but I guess they just don't want to stir up any resentment. u_u; My cousins Kevin and Tim came in. Kevin's a riot. XD He's got such a great sense of humor. He got a kick out of my face being swollen like a chipmunk's. Gee, thanks, Kev. �_�; I might be going up to my sister's this weekend...if my jaw lets me. (The anesthetic made me sick about 6 hours later. >_<) Well, I'm gonna go work on other sections of the site. 22:13 ~Kurai |
| 01.23.03 16:31 Boredom... We were off from school today because it's only 4� F. The wind chill is supposed to be -25� F tonight. ^.^;;; Fun! We were off Monday for Martin Luther King Jr. Day, Tuesday I didn't have to go because of exams, Wednesday I went, and today we're off because it's bloody cold. My new classes suck, to be brutally honest about it. My first block is Psychology and the teacher is definitely bipolar. She was extremely cheerful the entire time except for nearly kicking Kyle out because he was whispering to someone. She's the kind of person that likes to get 5 inches from you when she's talking to you. Sorry, but my space bubble has a 12-inch radius from the surface of my body. There are two teacher's aides for my second block and I'm one of them. It's too crowded in there. My third block is Biology. The teacher talks softly and he sat me in the back of the room with all the potheads. (Well, that's about half the of room, but you know what I mean.) We took a math quiz, got our textbooks, and did an SI unit lab all on the first day. AND we have a safety quiz tomorrow. >_<; Fourth block is office aide and I have that with Jenn. We have to do dishes, make coffee, and water plants. *sweatdrops* That's all because we're fourth block, mind you. Other aides just have the regular duties of gathering absence lists and fetching people for the administration. *sigh* I'm a gopher. I'm going through extreme writer's block on WIWBL and Chosen. x_X I need to cleanse my mind or some hippy-thing like that. Well, I have other things to do on the site. 16:46 ~Kurai |
| 01.27.03 14:14 January's so long... I know it's because we're always off because of snowdays...Of course, I'm not minding it. I'm just waiting for myself to get motivated enough to learn REAL html. This site is so bland and...icky. u_u; Don't get me wrong, I like simple. Really, I do. But there's a fine line between simple and disgustingly boring. MD-san offered to teach me html a while back, but I refused. I don't want to bother her. Lately I've been on one of my 'I-think-I-bother-everyone' kicks. So I've stopped IMing everyone, I've practically stopped going on AIM, I have stopped going on Yahoo IM. I guess it's my premise that if someone wants to talk to me that badly, they have my email. (I mean, come on, it's all over this site...) Whatever happened to the days of my friends tracking me down, calling me, paging me, trying to get me to go places with them? Only one person does that now and it's actually kind of annoying. Mom keeps trying to make me get my driver's license, like I'm actually going to go anywhere even if I had the stupid thing. On the bright side, I did get to see my sister this weekend. She called Saturday at noon and said, 'Come to the mall with me'. Well, it's not that easy. The 'mall' in question is an hour away. But we talked my mom into it and we all had dinner at Chicago's Bar and Grill. (Never order medium-rare without specifying that you do not wish for your food to be drowning in its own blood.) Other than that, it was good. *sweatdrop* I'm still stuck on where to go with my fics. ANY help would be much appreciated. *hinthint* Not that I'll get any. I think only three people read this. My therapist, Mako, and J-kun. u_u; *sighs* My grandma came in and started berating me about my black clothing and the decided lack of light in my room. Look, I don't like color and I don't like the light. Does this make me the devil? I guess so. *plugs ears* I try my best to stay out of their way and not be a burden to them, but it seems that no matter what I do, I do it completely wrong. Ghott, I'm such a screw-up. *unplugs ears to listen to the complaining* I really need to do something to keep myself from thinking. I guess I'll go TRY to learn html. Maybe I'll finally make a pretty site like Duo-kun or MD-san's.... *sighs longingly* 14:44 ~Kurai |
| 01.31.03 14:28 Last Entry Yeah...it's time for this layout to go...*sniffles* I love my Ran layouts... *huggles said layouts* I don't want to get rid of them! T_T So...From the feedback I've actually gotten, the site looks pretty crappy, eh? *sighs* Why do I even bother? I've actually been contemplating not updating the site anymore. That'd be nice... Why did I even start this stupid thing? Feedback's welcome. 14:32 ~Shukujo Kurai |