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| September 19, 2002 1:17 PM Step Into My Shoes Step into my shoes Feel sad and sit in your corner Cry your eyes out Yearn for that old familiar sting While the silver angel causes questions Watch yourself bleed and Hate yourself for what you do Take a step into my shoes Step into my shoes Hear whispers and lies Lay in bed and wish you would die Lean over the side Be mad for metal Love purples and blues Take a step into my shoes October 6, 2002 7:11 PM What If What if I were somebody else? What if I smiled more? What if I cried less often? Would you love me more? What if I never felt pain - And all I knew was joy? What if I were always sane? What if tears never fell from these eyes? What if all I said was a lie? What if I never had a bruise? Never got a scar I'd be prettier, wouldn't I? I'm not sorry to say that This is me And by saying that I set myself free Maybe tomorrow I'll change But not today. October 13, 2002 12:48 AM Please don't tell me it's over Did I cry one too many tears? Please don't pacify me with your shallow words Please tell me that kiss meant as much to you As it did to me I wonder - Does my touch still warm your soul? Does my stare strip you down and make you bare? When you look at me Your eyes, they pass right into the deepest part of me No one has seen this deep It's only you I don't want fancy things I want the happiness your smile brings Those 3 small words I love you. October 14, 2002 9:15 PM Have you ever cried to soften their hard soul? Have you ever told yourself you were through No longer did they need you Have you ever imagined them next to you? Have you ever remembered the small things The beat of their heart The warmth of their touch The softness of their breath Don't tell me you don't know what love is We've danced around it's fire of thorns for so long You have my heart It's given unto you All I needed Is to hear, "I love you, too" October 17, 2002 1:58 AM I blocked him out My one true love God's perfect creation My gift from above I remember that night You held me tight I never felt so at home In your arms Your touch was so soft Sent shivers down my spine Everyday I thanked the Lord he's mine My dreams extended far beyond your knowledge, ***** - Your jokes about us starting a life together 3 kids, a house I'd sing and so far it seemed like the perfect life, right? I want to be one of the lucky people To find someone who makes me smile on the inside And thank you God - For letting me find him That angelic face The laugh - Only laugh That could put a smile on my face When it felt so out of place I found him! I thought to myself Was I wrong? I thought we were happy Were we happy? My life fell apart It just shattered one day Left me sitting in the midst of it Like broken glass Tears couldn't fall I turned hard I put on a mask I pushed him away That one for me! How crazy and stupid could I be? I was alone with myself For the longest time No longer did my sun shine No tears to cry from these cold eyes Just restlessness and confusion Shattered my life Then one shallow day I began to cry My heart softened My cold shell died All the tears I'd saved in me Came out in a flow And now, I could see I didn't expect an answer when I called In fact, I didn't plan on making it that far But I did And my fingers numbly dialed HIS number And through my tears I began to wonder What he would say If he would shut me out Then I heard his voice And all the doubt Pain Hurt Everything I'd felt all those months They just Disappeared And that's when I realized God, all this pain If I'd just... Come to him And opened myself... Oh but that's me... Too proud Too stubborn for my own good Well no more That door's been shut And now I sit here Thinking of how everything I felt... It's a million times stronger and I love him God I love him And he tells me He doesn't know He's unsure What is love anyways? Love is the small things A note to say you care A kiss A warm embrace A tear And love is the big things Knowing I'd die for you Knowing this is your one true love Knowing you wouldn't be complete without them in your life Just knowing - You love them It's all this and more Wrapped up and it's handed to you once - Only once in your life - And you have to recognize it Some do Some - never will But this is my package of love I'm giving it to you And if you reject it I'll take it with the most strength I can But I will thank God for letting me experience true love Because honestly There is nothing greater. |
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