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| September 2, 2002 1:27 AM Peaceful silence Heal my scarred soul With your warm touch Embrace me Find comfort in yourself My favorite form of companionship - Is alone. 1:31 AM The soft breeze embraces me The sun dances across my skin The snowflakes kiss my lips While the rain washes away my sin Thank you Lord You made it perfect In every way. 1:34 AM I wish I could remember every single memory we have I'd keep them all locked up in a box And tie it with a pink ribbon And only take them out on rainy days When I'm lonely I wish I could see your smile RIght now I'd remember to cherish it I wish I could hear you laugh Maybe it would stop my tears I wish 2 years weren't such a long time I miss you I wish I could see you right now I would remember not to take for granted all our times shared I wish you to not change To come back as you I don't want to forget you. September 3, 2002 8:43 PM Kill me. Cut me. Break me. Burn me. Bruise me. Scar up this jagged outside. I'll show you! I'll prove I AM NOT ONE IF THEM. I AM REAL. I'm not fake or shallow. I promise. Hurt me. Please. Red heart Bleed me alive Prove me real Awaken me from my deep slumber That old familiar sting Pull me out of my dull existence Is this really me? Please tell me I'm real Promise me I'm alive I love sharp things They're taken from me But I love them Life can seem like a cruel joke You have to lie your way through Don't I look pretty? With my long sleeves And glossy lips? My face took an hour My smile is practiced I have it down to an art Sometimes I look in the mirror And I don't recognize myself I'm looking for what's inside It's not there. Things fall apart They just do They crush and crumble The world I've always been on top of Is falling apart at my feet One person's greed is another's wish I just want a piece of something real But everything is just breaking Things fall apart They just do. September 15, 2002 6:47 PM Scream in silence. Don't let anyone see you're hurting. Promise with crossed fingers behind your back. I swear I'm happy. Don't you see me smiling? September 16, 2002 10:15 PM A Thousand Little Lies Red blood - the only thing that's true So deceitful Crying lies when I look at you Cold eyes Cry me dry And tell everyone A thousand little lies Silver blade Show me no sympathy Cuts into The deadest part of me Awaken me from my dry Slumber in night And tell the world A thousand little lies Crisp death Darkness creeps Scare away the world When I speak about me Let me live In my corner of doubt And close my eyes For silent cries And tell myself A thousand little lies Touch me soft Run your hands through my hair Tell me you love me And that you'll always be there Cry when I cry And wipe tears from my eyes While you tell me A thousand little lies Metal to flesh Flesh to bone Bruise my wrists They are my own I'm alive and living See me bruise and bleed? And break all these ties When I retell the story With a thousand little lies Look at my scars Do you think they look pretty? Do you now think me crazy? Do you feel any pity? Just turn your head While I push down my sleeves And stare at your shoes Instead of my eyes And I will explain With a thousand little lies 11:10 PM What would you say in my eulogy? Would you speak at my funeral? Cry if I died? Talk about how much you loved me And wonder why I had to leave Cry on stage Shed tears and make others cry What would you say about me? Start writing my eulogy September 19, 2002 12:46 PM So I'm supposed to write to get better? You're making me uncomfortable. I get so uncomfortable when people ((teachers)) talk about depression//psychotherapy - things of that nature. They sit there and talk like they fucking know and they don't and they talk about "causes" and treatments...you have no fucking clue what the hell you are talking about. 1:03 PM Listen, oh God To my story of sins I'm opening my heart For You to come in I've been cold for so long Felt all alone Please hand me a blanket I need to be shown I need a path for my heart Something to travel It has to be right A faithful follow To come back to You When my body turns hollow |
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