pushed too many times
created too many rhymes
dont you know what youre doing
cant you see what youre ruining
lies lies lie
in your soul
my mind cries
in this hole
pain slinks down
plants its roots in the ground
missing pieces never found
but you dont look around
no longer trust worthy
everyday was a perfect day
then the rain came
the rain brought clouds
and i could only look down
because my sun was gone
and it has been so long
since ive seen a perfect day
the rain falls down
and my life has been drowned
feelings of suicide
over-ride my thought
then slowly subside
because i faught
feeling what they would feel
if i didnt fight
couldnt believe it was real
just didnt feel right
now all i can do is cry
because death i couldnt dare
for my reason would be a lie
now i know that they would care
one flower
one stem
so many petals
but you just pluck them
killing the flower
with your troubles
the petals wont help you
but the flowers pain doubles
pull it apart one by one
and it the end
you throw it to the gorund
after you crumble the stem
beauty destroyed
i am so confused
i dont know what to do
i wanted to do something
but i got scared
then i regretting everything
its not fair
with no escape
i site here alone
thoughts of death
i wanna go home
dressed in all black
i sit in a corner
crying this night away
far up in this hide away
i dont know what to do
i sit still and watch
as the ashes take flight
you all laugh by the fire
i stay away from the light
i need something to break
im at the compasity of what i can take
now it needs to all come out
or esle sanity i can doubt
no more breaking my own thoughts
time to satisfy my wants
broke my dreams
next would be reality
now tell me your thoughts
ill snap them in two
tell me you dreams
ill break them for you
how does it feel to lose
what you have left
of life and sanity
broken is worse then theft
you call it suicide
i call it murder
there had to be something there
something that hurt her
casue i know the feeling
the one that wont go away
angers through the ceiling
because you hurt me
now she dies here
you just cry there
why arent you in jail
locked away with no bail
you killed her
and you know it
you killed her
and you cant fix it
so you blame yourself
but not for the murder
why did you hurt me!
i mean her...
so many problems
they swarmed through her head
she wanted help
but also to be dead
picked up a knife
sliced a couple times
not deep enough
just left scar lines
she got her help
and others found out
they wanted it too
so what do you think they do
they cut up there wrists
but not for the death
it became like a trend
began cut-fest
red lines
dont fade away
purple circles
new everyday
attemps to escape
with no luck
you find me
i just yell fuck
screams of help
o please help
you dont hear
my eyes swell up
i cant say why
but try to understand
if you dont youll see
blood drip down my hand
youve never looked inside of me
youve never even tried to see
past the darkness i contain
through the rain
now you feel the same
now
how did it come to this
how could you let me cut my wrist
now
you feel the same pain
the same rain
the same shame
now
i see light shinning all around
im not moving when i look down
my hearts racing way too fast
i see my memories of the past
what the hell is going on here
why do i feel that i should fear
pain is growing near my hand
but i dont understand
i hear voices say 'help she cut her wrist'
i thought i dreamt that... oh shit
you are my high
you are my low
i want you to stay
i wish you would go
you bring me up
you let me down
you depress me so much
you crash me to the ground
you dont even know
how much you hurt me
if i told you
you still wouldnt see
when you just laugh
it kills me inside
soon enough
ill completely die