take it back
the words which cut me
take it back
darkness i dont want to see
fade completely away
not even blurry
no time to say
that im sorry
but i am
for what i must do
sorry
for ever meeting you
im so sorry
im going to leave you here
im fucking sorry
my dear
but i cant live this way
not since that day
when i thought i lost you
so what could i do
now that you scratch at my brain
ill go insane
im so sorry
but this has to be done
before youve won
and lose what i have left
of the sun
im sorry for what i must do
but fuck you
i dont care what i said before
that has all been shatered
i just dont care any more
its not like anything mattered
its all turned to shit
a thick black circle surrounds me
in the middle i sit
death is all i can see
why did you ignore
the silence that leaks
you just cant take anymore
well ive been flooded for weeks
so dont give your life to me
cause im in too far
i dont want this to be
the way you are
ive got secrets i keep
and you just hand yours out
i hide things so deep
it makes me shout
i want to go home
but im already here, damn
i want to be alone
but i already am
i can see you
the things you do
and i want to
touch you
you laugh with me
i want to be
here forever
but you will never
see
im right here in front of you
im right here in front of you
im right here in front on you
ill fucking kill you
always looking
always telling
always killing
me
why cant you fucking see
me
i always sit and watch you
you just talk to me
i always think about you
you just smile at me
i can see through you
but you never look in me
cant see what i can be
why am i never seen
im right here in front of you
im right here in front of you
im right here in front of you
i want to show you
me
see
im right here
my sights clear
but yours is covered in shit
what am i saying
just fucking forget it...
i can see the way you are
and i dont like it so far
i see everything i hate
in my head, death is your fate
i dont want to let you go
but everyone does know
with you around
we all will drowned
in the lies you spread
wish you were dead
but i wont let you go
and i wont let you know
you are the image of hatred
you are the one that i do dread
wish the solution was right here
but for now it is unclear
maybe i will let you know
when its your time to go
there are things i just cant say
but let me try
go away
there are feelings i just cant tell you
but let me try
i hate you
now that you know
go away from here
before i kill you my dear
i tried to stay inside
but there are things i just cant hide
i passionatly hate you
can you imagint it i hate you
cant run from it i hate you
you kill me on the inside
you shall die
this time i wont cry
now you know why
i hate you
when you think the world has faded away
it just all in your head
you get more fucked uo everyday
they fuck with your head
they dont want to see you
they dont want to be you
they dont want to need you
so they fuck with your head
makes you wish you were dead
only to them you are
in truth your not that far
just dont slip off the bar
when theyve gone too far
ill be right here for you
i see something sitting there
its calling to me
"take me in, feel me"
what can it be
i touch it lightly
dont want to break it
"take me in, feel me"
it tells me i can exit
from this dark place
i run to the blissful door
as it slams in my face
i fall to the floor
i scream in pain
ive landed on myself
not again please not again
things fall from the shelf
shatter my heart, my sould, my bliss
it wasnt real
it always ends like this
nothing will ever heal
it calls again
"take me in, feel me"
i scream in confusion
why cant i have what i see!
beyond the door i see someone
myself, laughing at a fool
me, i slammed the door
how could i be so cruel?
to myself
why does everyone lie
why does everyone hate me
why does it seem like i
have no other way to be
i dont want to be like this
my mind has too much craziness
i cant say what i want to
i cant decide what to do
pitch black is my atmosphere
i cant make it clear
even though i try to
it all comes back to you
im sick and tired
of pretending its alright
when thoughts of death
fill my dreams every night
cant you tell something is wrong
when i say my life is crappy
then suddenly go from being sad
to appear like im so happy
depression is pulling me down
i just feel so fucking worthless
god damnit i want out
living cant be worth this
but i want to make sure you know
that im sorry for our past
i just dont care about things anymore
and im sorry these words are my last
tonights the night im giving up
no more faking, no more crying
ill say it straight out, im killing myself
tonight im finally dying