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| tuesday, april 22, 2003 - 7:14 p.m. ok, is the page better now? well, it still might be "jarring" but at least it's more readable. i'm probably too lazy to change the other pages though. tough luck, punk! sigh. i have my bio tommorrow. wish me luck! it'll be hard, but hopefully i'll do well. i can't believe the multiple choice are even harder than mrs. sano's mc! anyways, besides all this school craziness, life is good. God is good. and you know what? i'm happy. sure, life has it's ups and downs, dramas, bursts of anger, ecstacies and such, but overall, i'm content. some of you may not believe it, but i am. which leads me to some questions: why are people so skeptical about me? do they find me really self-absorbed? do i complain too much, or am i too bitter at times? am i a good person? am i too naive? would the world be really that better off if there were one cynical person out there? why is it so hard to believe that there's a shred of goodness in every one? ok, i know some of these questions are kinda unrelated, but my mind's a jumble of thoughts (as per usual!) i'm just curious about what others think of the world, themselves, and even me (hrm, maybe i really AM quite self-absorbed...) anyway, i'm just askin' this: what do YOU think of me? (p.s. by the way, sign my guestbook!) monday, april 21, 2003 - 9:56 p.m. well, i think i've lost that scholarship. it wasn't that much money, but hey, every little bit helped, and now i'm probably not going to get it renewed. man, i really hate finals! yeah, so i just had my chem and i'm thinking i didn't do that well. of course, there's no point crying over spilt milk. i'm mad and disappointed about the exam, but (like all the others ones), i'm starting not to care as much since they're done now (thank God). so, what am i doing right now? i'm supposed to be studying for bio, but i'm writing this up instead and also chatting with keith. actually, it's kinda stupid. he's on grace's computer right now and we're messaging each other on icq... kinda counterproductive... heh. we're trading insults back and forth... dumb pretentious jerkface... ;p keith responds: "oooh! oooh! ooh! ... i have no clever response... wait! you're misquoting me! ... jackass..." yeah... real mature keith, he really has mastered the art of the comeback , hasn't he? "ah, but i am merely acknowledging the apparent dichtomy that exists within us all... i, unlike you, have come to terms with the yin and the yang, the good and the bad, the beautiful and the ugly, the pure and the unpure..." right... anybody else thinks that he's just full of it? i'm not sure how his gf - or his parents, for that matter - put up with him sometimes! ; ) but i swear, never EVER get into an argument with him! and i'm not even talking about the actually serious kind either, never ever get into a debate with him over any seemingly small and inane topic EVER. trust me. it'll be the most infuriating thing you've ever experienced. he's so maddeningly logical (in a theoretical sense, not in practicalility) that you feel like banging your head against a wall! heh. i'm just kidding (ok, not about the arguing thing). keith, you know i love ya (in a totally friendly, PLATONIC way... ONLY in a platonic way... you're too much of a "princess" for me!). hrm. methinks that i am getting really sentimental right now because it's the end of the school year (and i've been thinking about all the cool people that i've met since i've come here). suze (you don't mind if i call you suze, right? after hearing tina call you that, it just rolls of the tongue so easily), YOU are the NICEST person ever! called it! (plus, she sent me the funniest forward ever .) sniff. i was just thinking, simon's not going to be here next year! he's going to mac for THE arts and science program ("our students are very well-rounded..." dumb mac uni fair person... i'll show you well-rounded... in the form of a fist!) ahem. anyway, i'm going to miss simon lots and lots. david better not corrupt him at mac (if they ever meet). you better come visit us, you hear? because if you don't, the babies from the ziggurat of doom might get me!!! and who else am i going to go on snow safaris and slide down summerhill with garbage bags with? huh? or windjumping? or just plain hanging out with? WAAAAAH!!!!!! you can't go! for those of you who haven't been introduced, simon is the sweetest guy ever! (ok, i've been using the superlative 'ever' a lot, but i totally mean it!) seriously, he's even possibly nicer than dee! (sorry, derrick!) so if any of you meet him in the future, you better treat him well, or else i (and several other people, i'm sure) will come after you with a big pointy stick. or a sack full of snakes. or an obedient swarm of locusts. (you get the point) and while i'm on the topic, here are some other people i'm fond of: grace (my roomie/babushka) - "goulash? perogies? cabbage rolls? i cook now?" mei (my bestest friend in the whole wide world) - dude! you are SO obsessed with gable! it's like you like him or something! sheesh! and what's with that thing with jet li? he's like eighty years old! allison (my other best friend) - darling, i'm so HAPPY for you! he better treat you well or else (you know the drill...) jenne - i miss you!!! come home soon!!! we must watch that movie with 'tiger' and the imposter general again! benita (another dear member of tacB) - what's going on? i haven't talked with you in ages! how are you doing? david (boy "genius") - well, i suppose you should be mentioned too jeanie - wednesday after bio, we're partying it up, ok? erin - i can't believe you're done exams! you suck! anyway, we have to meet up in the next two weeks! it's been ages! ketan - alright, you owe me dinner... (this will NOT be another scavenger hunt, so help me!) eebs - how is my cosmic match doing? still in the p.o. club, right? i better not hear anymore boys answering your phone (or else i'll be jealous!) ian - you know, i forgot about how much fun it is to hang out with you guys! this year, we're number one.... marco - face it, you're SO going to miss me and grace this summer! jess - *muah* such a cutie! victoria - an absolute sweetheart! jon - i'm very, very proud of you! mommy, daddy - i misssssss youuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!! adrienne, bethany, kirby - i want a hug as soon as i get back! simon in oz - to my dear cousin, i'm so sorry for not writing you back!!! because i'm so sorry, i'm going to send you an actual letter by snail mail instead of email... sorry once again! and so many more people.....i heart you! wow. i think that i've wasted so much time now. maybe a-studying i shall go now... - tiff p.s. symphonie fantastique (berlioz) is so good! mmm... opium induced nightmares... none that boring classical period stuff! it's all about the baroque, romantic, impressionist, and modern stuff! |