Remind me again,
Why I'm still alive.
Hah, you don't remember!
Yeah, well,
Neither do I.
Tell me again,
Why you kept me around.
Hah, you don't know!
Yeah, well,
I never heard a sound.
Comfort me again,
While I'm still right here.
Hah, you simply can't!
Yeah, well,
I still hold the tears.
Please me again,
While I still care.
Hah, you're too late!
Yeah, well,
I'm already there.
Remind me again,
Why I had to die.
Oh, so now you now!
Yeah, well,
So did I.
Wasted talents and wasted dreams,
Maybe it was you who failed me.
You ripped me apart when I let you inside,
A victim of my own paranoid mind.
I hate being so far away in my hole.
You're happier without me, I know.
So goodbye again,
No joking around,
I mean to leave,
So say goodbye to me.
Maybe you won't miss me at all.
This problem's so easy to resolve.
Waving my hand while I walked into light,
Waving my hand while swallowed by night.
So goodbye again,
No joking around,
I mean to leave,
So say goodbye for me.
Nothing is the way it seems,
I've lost my grip on reality.
Here I am, fading fast.
Here I am, gone at last.
Will you miss me,
When you know I've left?
And will I regret,
What I've left unsaid?
Maybe I should go,
Maybe I should leave.
And when I'm gone,
Will you grieve?
I'll miss you, I know,
And all you've brought to me.
You said you cared,
But do I believe?
Will you miss me,
When you know I've left?
And will I regret,
What I've left unsaid?
Hullo! Hullo!
I've gone away!
Don't you wish that I had stayed?
Oh, no! Oh, no!
I've really gone!
Don't you hope I won't be long?
Sorry! Sorry!
I'm still not there!
Don't you wish that you still cared?
Yes! Yes!
It's really true!
Don't you hope I'll return to you?
Nope! Nope!
That just can't be!
Don't you wish I'd end the misery?
Goodbye! Goodbye!
I've really left!
Didn't you hope I'd turn from Death?
Too bad! Too bad!
I am truly there!
Don't you wish I'd never dared?
I did! I did!
I'm really dead!
Don't you wish you'd saved me instead?
I never expected that much,
Of myself or of you.
I never built my castle in the clouds.
I never thought this is what I'd do . .
I never suspected the disappointment.
I never suspected that I'd hurt.
I never thought I'd be reduced to this.
I never believed that my needs were first.
So why, then, did I fall so hard?
The ground was miles away!
Why did I even let go?
Why do I have to be the one to pay?
Don't you know it was your fault?
I never wanted to go this far.
Don't you know you gave the push?
Didn't you see the depth of the scars?
You forced me here, to this pit,
Caught in this pain that's solely mine.
What choice did I have?
I can't be alone . . .
(You know that.)
I never thought I'd have the strength to die. . .
There's a sinkhole in my stomach,
And I feel the bottom dropping out.
Something's very wrong here;
Totally fucked, without a doubt.
There's a monster in my body,
And I feel the gnawing inside.
Taking away all purity,
It hurts so much, I wanna die.
There's a demon in my head,
And I hear his chattering,
Filling my head with evil.
What the hell is wrong with me?
There's a gremlin in my hand,
And I feel him gaining control.
Forcing me to do wrong,
To carry the knife I now hold.
There's an angel by my side,
And I can hear it laughing loudly.
So pleased with my corruption,
As I lay, dying slowly . . .