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12.16.01
5:32PM
In and Out...ah, one of the best things about California. I am finished with finals!! Yes! Now I just have to sit back and kick everyone out Wednesday, and keep the little darlings from passing out from alcohol poisoning. Great. Saw Kate and Leopold last night, it was really cute. Ok, it wasn't that great, but Hugh Jackman was wonderful in it. So handsome, debonair, and sexy with a good accent on top of that. Yes, I think I am in love.
12.03.01
12:15AM
Another month has passed by, and not soon enough!! I cannot wait to go home for five weeks and sit on my butt! Classes suck, and all my final projects are starting to wear on me. I hate doing them. I hate having all these papers to write. I have two to go, plus my proposal, and then some little stuff for the summit. The toughest one is going to be the 8 page research paper on science fiction writers. Oh well. She's tough, but I can handle her, I hope. Anyways, the count down is on. I get out of her in 16 days!
11.25.01
11:23PM
Ahh... nice to get away from the dorm for the weekend. Had turkey dinner again with my mom and my sister. I miss my family and I can't wait until winter break so I can visit them for longer than a weekend. It's crunch time now... which is nerve-racking but at the same time I'm confident that I'll get it all done... eventually.
So I leave for a weekend and the whole dorm falls apart while I'm gone. I don't know how they survive without me [laugh]. Well at least things are getting worked out and stuff. Hopefully the drama will die down.
My uncle asked me who my next victim was going to be. He actually meant if I had any guy in my life, to which I answered no. He asked me why and I told him that I don't have time... which is true, but at the same time I think that Miranda from Sex and the City put it best when she said, "I don't believe that there's someone out there for everyone" I guess I don't really believe in soul mates, and I don't think that I need to have someone right now. Sure, it's lonely and there's a lot of inner issues that I need to work out about being vulnerable and stuff, but at the same time I don't need anyone like I need my arm, my heart my soul. I'm not an incomplete person without that soulmate. I'm not an incomplete sole. It's not like we're shoes or anything. It's just not like that for me anymore. Which is good I suppose.
11.18.01
11:49PM
Finally Thanksgiving Break, what we have all been waiting for. Ever feel like you're part of a soap opera? Yes, I think we all have felt like that once in awhile. But then, it becomes harder when they're your friends, and you find that you're involved, whether you want to be or not.
So I kind of like this guy, but I'm afraid to say anything or ask him out after the last time I opened myself up. And apparently, I'm not the only one who feels these problems of singledom. I don't want to be hurt.
so i just figured out that I'm ok being single because I want to avoid being vulnerable because that would mean that I would have to open myself up to being hurt.... so by default I don't really KNOW that I'm comfortable being single, I just know that I don't want to be vulnerable... it's really twisted logic which makes my head hurt... psycho-analyzing myself is not fun....
Yeah, thanks to a certain nameless individual, Christal is now afraid to ask a guy out. Sad, but true. But you can't help but feeling a certain way about someone.
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