Only For Sex

What's wrong with me?
When he touched me
there was no feeling
only desire
selfish pure need
Attraction, what's that?
I felt none on my part.
Only the need to know he wanted me
that was enough.

No thought of consequences
Only think for myself
no guilt then,
but guilt now.

Empty when I reached for him
Empty when he left me
Empty when he was with me.

Am I capable of that bond,
that love?
Now that I know
I can perform
without desire for one
without attraction
without love
only for sex.

Ice by Sarah McLachlan

The ice is thin com on dive in underneath my lucid skin the cold is lost, forgotten.  Hours pass days pass time stands still light gets dark and darkness fills my secret heart forbidden...I think you worried for me this the subtle ways that I'd give in but I know you liked the show.  tied down to this bed of shame you tried to move around the pain but oh your soul is anchored.  The only comfort is the moving of the river You enter into me a life upon your lips.  offer what you can I'll take all that I can get only a fool's here ... I don't like your tragic sighs as if your god has passed you by, well hey fool that's your deception  Your angels speak with jilted tongue the serpent's tale has come undone you have no strength to squander.  The only comfort is the moving of the river you enter into me a lie upon your lips offer what you can I'll take all that I can get only a fool's here to stay. only a fool's here to stay. only a fool's here...