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in my perfect world
one I can't
yet see
I'm never
alone
my heart is
never lonely
I see my
perfect world
reflecting in
your eyes
someday I'll
make it real
instead of
always living these lies
in my perfect
world
you see me as
being me
you see my
beauty and strength
my heart
opens, for you find the key
in my perfect
world
your touch is
like velvet
my lips meet
yours so sweetly
our fate
together is set
but there is
no perfect world
and I'm
afraid you'll never see
all that I
offer standing before you
all that I am
and could be
I live with regrets
every day of my life
sometimes I just wish
I would use the knife
and end it all
end all my suffering
all of this pain
I'm afraid of losing it
of going insane
and taking that fall
I see you there
sitting next to her
and my heart grows cold
will I ever love again
are my chances too small
I don't hate the idea
that you two are in love
I simply wish for it too
on the snow white wings of a dove
but love will never call
am I destined
to live life alone
will my heart always remain
this barren frozen stone
searching down an endless hall
I see what I want
but am too scared to go after it
and then it's too late
for another fish has bit
beauty just stands too tall
What more could life ask of me?
I've done all I'm told.
I help others at every chance.
Yet, still, there is no one to hold.
I see all around me
the benefits of life's graces.
Though I have none of my own,
not any small traces.
All the gifts of life -
love, happiness and joy -
seem to pass me by at every chance.
For I am destiny's toy.
I make others happy.
I help get them what they need.
Then I leave to go home alone
after I've planted the seed.
The seeds grow into love -
where true happiness lies.
And I sit in the stands,
just a sparrow waiting to fly -
fly far away from here.
Away from my life full of grey.
So now I sit here and watch.
And wait for my day.
Dusk arrives
I sit and wait
Maybe he is just
running late
My mother comes in
to talk for awhile
She says that I
am in denial
Everyone leaves
Still I sit
He'll be here I know
I'll just wait a bit
I start to think
maybe they're right
he isn't coming
he's vanished from sight
This had been it
the ultimate test
"I suppose he failed"
I say to my wedding dress
tattered, torn
wounded deeply
bruises left
wounds seeping
you didn't know
you didn't look
you didn't see
how much it took
for me to be quiet
and hold it all inside
to not let you know
or to see my cry
you liked her so much
and she liked you
she looked past me
and saw clear and true
right into your heart
and yours saw to hers
even though I died
every time you kissed
I see your love
grow stronger everyday
and I wish that I
could make her obey
could make her mine
could make her hold
the key to my heart
which now grows cold
for you are now hers
and she is now yours
so I must now mend
my heart of its sores
for she loves me not
she loves you alone
which means that I
must now go home
with my Heart of Stone
I wish
with all my might
that you would grant
my wish this night
My wish
is true and straight
so please
don't hesitate
A wish
of love is what I ask
so that in ecstasy
I may bask
I try so hard
to make things perfect
I work so hard
so that I can be
all that I am
and yet
no one notices
My work goes
unnoticed
my effort goes
unrewarded
when will it be
my turn to have the luck
when will I be anything
besides a sitting duck
it came into my life
and was gone just as fast
I should have learned by now
that good things never last
Tick Tock Tick Tock
the hours
count away
Tick Tock
Tick Tock
seconds seem
like days
Drip Drop
Drip Drop
the only
sound I hear
Drip Drop
Drip Drop
no one comes
near
Silence
Surrounds
Love Abandons
We are left
Alone
Stranded for
Eternity
I see in my dreams
a person soft as cream
Who takes me away
Far away to stay
Far away to a place
No tears to be cried
Where rock becomes lace
And where no one lies
Free from the deception
A welcoming reception
will await my arrival
and ensure my survival
I will never understand
Why people need to lie
Why they cannot tell the truth
They look you straight in the eye
and tell their awesome tales
to keep you under their thumb
and make sure you never leave
until your heart grows numb
You think that you are shit
that you can never do better
They fill your ears with lies like this
You believe them down to the letter
For they tell you this is love
and you want to believe them so
You want to feel love's graces
So you listen to the lies that are told
round and round
the spinning room
faster faster
there I go - ZOOM!
"drink another"
scream the talking heads
"hell yeah"
I think I said
spinning faster
I try to leap
but land on my ass
say "ouch," then fall asleep
If life were a game I would come in last
Life sweeps in and scoops you away so fast
You never know what hit you until it's too late
And that, my friend, is what wise men call fate
If life were a game I guess I lost my turn
While other players move ahead, I sit and burn
I'm stuck in a hole, threatening to bury me deep
Life truly is a game, you move ahead, then two steps back
Never ready, never truly prepared for the oncoming attack
The closest of friends
is what you were to me
I loved you always
that was plain to see
I made a mistake
and fell in love
you didn't push me away
you didn't shove
But then you stabbed
you ripped out my heart
and shattered it to pieces
ripped it apart
All because you thought
you had something to prove
so now you've gained a lover
but a true friend forever you'll lose
the taste of your kiss
remains on my lips
never will you know
just how far I did go
into your soul
I saw the real you
I felt it pure and true
I fit you like a glove
and felt perfect as a dove
then - I fell in love
you stay by my side each and every night
the light in your eyes always shines so bright
whenever we part you tenderly kiss my cheek
after all these years my knees still go weak
so far away from what I remember in my dreams
yet so close to what I needed it now seems
and as you walk away I sigh the lover's sigh
knowing that you will soon be back by my side