// Poetry \\
++DECEPTION++
My perception of you
is lost.
I no longer recognize
who I see,
but behold the monster
both my son and I see.
His confusion breaks my heart.
His pain is my pain,
in this lost hostile world.
As I dry both our tears,
I wonder what his future holds.
++UNTITLED++
As my blood boils with
this insatiable rage,
my hands violently shake.
I try to remember Karma
as my mind drifts to thoughts
of revenge...I fall sobbing
He touched my baby.
Took his innocence and corrupted it.
Plagued with nightmares
baby hardly sleeps.
His little mind can't comprehend
"Why"?
"Why Mommy"? he asks with confusion
in his eyes.
++ERUPTION OF ANGER++
You're on my mind
more than I'd like.
Haunting me like the plague.
I'm filled with unspeakable anger
with not a moments rest.
I hope your life's a nightmare -
Nights filled with horrible dreams..
Looking over your shoulder,
as your conscience bursts at the seams.
I hope your wracked with guilt..
I hope you feel our constant pain..
The feeling of your heart ripped in two
as things will never be the same again.
++NUMB++
Take a deep breath
and go about your day.
Like a robot going through the motions-
Trying desperately to keep it all together.
You feel like your about to erupt..
Cry an ocean of tears.
All for pain caused by ONE.
It almost doesn't seem worth it-
To cry over "him".
The self-less bastard
who calls himself "Father".
The "Father of lies, deceit, & betrayal"
*&^%ing *&^%$.
He thinks he can break me
like many times before.
You've got another thing coming @$$*&^%
I'm strong, resilient, capable.
I am a survivor.
You'll never touch me again.
++Haiku #1++
You will never win
at breaking us or our lives
We are survivors.
++Haiku #2++
You lack strength and love
self-control is your weakness
forever broken.
++Haiku #3++
You manipulate
with fear, money, guilt, control.
Karma comforts me.
++Little Warrior++
I watch my little one sleep
so peaceful and still,
and I'm filled with such
love and awe
He gets his strength from me-
He's a fighter
A Survivor.
My little Warrior
in this insane world.
A little version of me
with such emotions he
doesn't know how to handle.
A confused little warrior
in this insane world-
as I try to bring some sanity back
to him
I will hold his hand
and we will walk this journey together.
Mother and son-
Warrior & Warrior,
to battle the demons that lie ahead.