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| Sleep evades me again as the grey light heralds another dawn maybe now I can sleep the day away, dream away this torment Why does everything remind me of you No matter how strong I wish I could be I know I would instantly fall to my knees to beg you to come back to me I can't get away from the sight of you, you're everywhere I turn catching me unawares - bringing back the pain I see those eyes that used to stare into mine from just inches away those lips that kissed the most secret parts of me those hands that held me oh so close against that body Do you ever think of the softness of my hair entwined around your fingers or the fragrance as it brushed across your face Do you remember the feel of me pressed against your chest my arms bringing you to me Do you ever still hear my heart pounding against yours. June 10, 2000 |
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Here in this room, this space apart from our separate lives we share something, something almost like love and tomorrow is soon enough to discover the truth Don't ask me for I don't know Maybe there is no answer Though this may be all there is and it will all be gone tomorrow tomorrow is soon enough to face the truth I shouldn't love you, I never meant to but I think I do Just let me love you tonite because tomorrow is soon enough to wake up to the truth. |
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| Why do I wait for him though I savour every hard curve of his body Why do I wait for him though I long for his heaviness atop me Why do I wait for him though it excites me to explore every inch of him Why do I wait for him though I love how his eyes narrow and turn smoky grey as he makes love to me |
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Today the sun is hot and bright and there is a breeze stirring the blossoms. I walk through the city and there is a lightness returned to my step. The lawns look greener and the sky a deeper blue. The faces of strangers passing by reflect friendly smiles and I know I'm glowing. All today I could still feel your hands on my skin - the scent of you lingers.. It had been so very long and though I never forgot the feel of you, to be lying with you once again made my heart burst in its bliss. I struggled against sleep last night... I wanted to feel your legs entwined in mine to feel your arm, its comforting weight pinning me to your side.. to be able to kiss your shoulder softly as you dreamed beside me to have my months of waiting and pining over to have my thirst quenched again at last. May 04, 1999 |
| Do I tell you why I'm leaving? You didn't care when I was looking for a reason to stay. Do I go home again? Or do I continue to search for a new direction in my life. Do I give up on commitment, or just wait for a better man. |
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| It's hard to forget about someone when he keeps popping up on t.v. |