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| Rhymie Sweet I wrote you a poem when I was just a girl It was all rhymie sweet and sunshiny days Wishing you a Happy Birthday In my special little girl way These days aren't so sweetly filled Rhymes don't flow with words like Cancer, Tumor, and what a Biopsy will show And your eyes look to me expectantly Like mine to you so long ago You want me to say, "It's ok. Everything will be fine" The irony isn't lost on me Everything inside me screams You will be ok But there's a scared little girl in each of us Frantically searching for the light of day And faith? Faith can be heard in distant footsteps Echoing down a darkened hall I'll hold your hand You hold mine We can look into each other's eyes It's not so scary that way Together We can try to remember something From a rhymie sweet day 2/15/02 MyGirlThrill |
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| Anger Walking away today Cool breeze stings my face The anger sets in It's not fair that it's you lying there Scared Kindness pours from your every move Every thought Every word You softly ask, "Is there hope?" As if you haven't the right to ask at all I want to wrap you in blankets of love Shield you from the days to come Tears brim then flow As memories of what we had and what we have Collide Somewhere in between I stake my anger I don't want this lesson Not yet "Please stay" As if I haven't the right to ask Let's give it another 25 years or so But the storm clouds obscure my view Leaving me cold, angry, and scared Like you 3/6/02 MyGirlThrill |
| We Know What To Do Give us your pain The three of us Born to you Will know what to do We learned from you Lessons on sacrifice How to love, hope, and pray What to do when there are no words to say Give us your pain What's been inflicted on you We can turn it into something good The way you taught us to But don't ask us to go away To leave you alone You never showed us how to stop With you there was always a way So when the last whisps of hope are gone We will still be trying Still willing you on Give us your pain, Mom We know what to do We'll stand side by side Linked arm and arm The three of us And you 3/17/02 MyGirlThrill |
| Did I See You? Black bird calling atop a tall pine tree Mourners gather together to view Did I see you Circle slowly above me Gliding Beyond the sorrow The pain Your remains Black bird free fall flight Soaring high then out of sight Did I see you Slow just a bit for us to glance Your happy trail Circle dance You can fly By me anytime Black bird's calling I'll come running day or night To take a flight My heart, and you Circling, circling, high above Soothing sorrow out of love 4/6/02 MyGirlThrill |
| Room 9 I don't know if I need to explain The pain; Excruciating Like you could never imagine Maybe you know Like you never want to feel ever again Trapped A living nightmare Closing my eyes brings the horror Vivid pictures of that night Hospital corridors cold; Empty The bed in room 9 She was still in it; room silent Machines switched off like her We filed in with our kisses With our love So cold; already gone I looked around for her Expectantly A touch; A rush of love It was her I was exuberant for a moment The pain remains Subdued At times intense We battle my pain, and I A good day A bad year A good moment Bitter tears She lifts me up And I fall Up again Touch and go Like that night In room 9 3/10/04 MyGirlThrill |