The touch of your skin
brought me joy
your kiss spelled love
with you I glimpsed eternity
For a time I was whole
You are the air I breathe
each dream I explore at night
daylight life
night wanderings
You shake me to the depths of my being
You echo in my heart
like the memory
of hope made whole.
I am supported by mirrors, reflecting spirit that bravely fights that which I cannot see, but oh how I feel....
Pillows piled
bedclotehs mounded and moulded
around me...
electric blanket turned up high..
tears I cannot stop
Empty days
empty nights face me
knowing I must endure
first tonight...
every night.
What will I do if you decide you don't need me? How will I survive? My body alone is linked to how I feel....
My life's light is absent. All joy is gone. No joy. No hope. The emptiness is appalling.
Here I tremble into darkness
so deep, so viscous
my heart aches..
the darkness clings and cleaves to me
and I yield
Falling under darkness
willingly I go
emptiness my companion -
what is real??
I trully believed you were my peace
My refuge in this world
where so much besets me
the place of love and safety I had craved
as long ago as I can remember hoping
and dreaming
yet it was only in my mind
and now
it hurts so very much.
