I cannot erect a shield between us to protect me in case... it is useless.. sometimes I seem to hear the silent, insistent march of each hour, ticking away hope of what I most want in life. these are my lowest ebb.

In the middle of the day while I am doing something totally unconnected I see your eyes lightened... that look on my face and I am totally undone.  I hear your voice, or see a sardonic post and it all comes crashing back and the ticking starts again in my head...

You have changed me so much. I would not ever go back and give up one moment of us .... not ever - regardless of how it may or may not end...

It feels like I have loved you forever ... I didn't know love could be this way...that love makes me feel fragile as if I am crafted from 100 year old glass that can be shattered by the merest touch of the wind.....

If I have to let you go  to make you happy I will do it,  but it will hurt me because you take the better part of me with you. I am crazy in love with you ...over the moon madly crazy in love with you.. and love matters! In the end .. it trully is the only thing that does matter.

ALWAYS