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| Dealing with DOPEY |
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| Genevieve was born, and I soon realised that rather than finding a friend, support and companion, I found and had tied myself to someone else to carry. It was very lonely being the only adult I knew. The unveiling of Dopey was a gradual process, and I learned some very important lessons 1. Wait before I act 2. Sometimes you get what you want BUT you pay a terrible price for it 3. Nothing is ever what it seems - so wait until people unfold BEFORE acting 4. Good sex is NOT enough to build a life on 5. We never escape from where we come from Dopey and I had nothing in common. Our backgrounds were alarmingly different, and the attitude and behaviour of our parents very different...mine gave everything for their children, his sought their own pleasure often at the expense of the children....mine worked and built and saved and his squandered on momentary pleasures....his had expectations, mine still keep trying to give. WHY did I marry Dopey?? * tired of being alone * I was pregnant While I was pregnant with Gen I realised that in order to keep the family afloat we needed extra income so I went out and got a job, to put food on the table. I did not mind working hard for a few years investing in building something - for we had nothing. I was willing to sacrifice personally - after all, had I not been sacrificing all my adult life so far? Hope died slowly as Dopey spent quite as fast as we both made and I realised the majority of the burden fell on my shoulders. I contributed 87.2 % of all outgoings and he contributed 12.8% and THEN took from what I was bringing in. I don't mind working but I will not kill myself to support another's addictions... and another's Mother's Addictions. There is soemthing obscene about the image of me pregnant, workxing till I am "crying" tired while he drinks at the Pub. |
| Tracking and defining ME |