Dec. 23, 2000, Saturday: I'm a couple of days late writing. I'm sorry to wait, but I've been very busy. Our new girl is really sweet, and work has been better with her there. We're becoming friends and it's really nice. I weighed today. I didn't lose, but I didn't gain either. I feel really good about it, but I'm ready to start seeing the scales come down again. I'm nervous about the holidays this weekend. I'm going to my parents house, and there is always a lot of food. I really want to be strong, but I'll be nervous. It's always so hard. If I don't eat much everyone's like, "Lisa, are you not hungry?" If I overeat, then I feel self-concious. I've decided that I am just going to try to eat a small healthy meal and not over-focus on it. I love Christmas, but all this running around eating on the go, cookies, cakes, drinks, etc. is enough to drive me freaking nuts. Next year I'm going to Hawaii in my thong bikini in my new gorgeous thin self and not deal with any of it. You know it sounds good to you too -- don't lie. Let's all run off to the beach together!
Dec. 14, 2000, Thursday: It's hard for me to write today. I haven't written in the past 2 weeks because I'm totally depressed. I know the whole point of online journaling is to express my feelings, so here I am. I figured I can't just write about the good, because what would be the point? I'm going to just write about everything and be brutally honest. Well, the past 2 weeks have been poop. I've gained weight -- back up to 240. I'm miserable. I guess I tell you the whole story. One of our co-workers quit out of the blue, and that left us in total dire straits. I've worked 65-75 hours the past couple of weeks, and I'm just miserable. I'm overworked and overstressed. Each day I'm running out for fast food at night and eating crap all day. It's hard to explain, but maybe some of you will get it. The past couple of weeks have been so miserable that having junky bad food around has been the only thing to excite me and make me happy. It's like if I know I'm getting a buger fires and soft drink at 7 pm, then I can hang in with the long hours. I know that's so pathetic, but it is honestly how I feel. Now, I'm just tired, overworked, overstressed and overweight. I carrying around extra pounds I didn't even have a few weeks ago. I was getting really proud of myself, now I'm discouraged. They hired a new girl today. She's like 5'10" and 81 pounds. Blonde and gorgeous and young. YIPEE! Work just keeps getting better. She seems ok, and yes I am a bit jealous of her looks. She starts Monday. At least I'll be able to lighten my work load up some this week (unless the new girl happens to be innocently struck down by a fatal staple wound). Ok. I'm totally jealous. I'll get over it. You know, talking about this really has made me feel better. Maybe there's something to this journaling thing.
Nov. 28, 2000, Tuesday: I lost 1 pound this week, and I think that's pretty good considering it was Thanksgiving week. I did good over the holdiay, especially the acutal Thanksgiving day. I did not eat to where I felt sick, like I usually do every year. I'm feeling good about myself. I like looking at my during pics, because I see a difference in the pics that I don't see in my everyday self. It's very motivational, and I'm ready to lose 10 pounds just so I can take more! Normally I don't like taking picutres (I bet a lot of yall can relate), but these are very motivational. I'm adding some links to my link page -- other weight loss sites that have really inspired me to start this one. Check them out. They're doing well, and so am I.
Nov 21 2000, Tuesday: I stepped on the scale today and lost three more pounds! I'm down 25 pounds and I'm really proud of myself. I ate well this week, and I've brought in a little exercise. I had a slow start on my web site because it took longer to start up than I thought. I've got some new pics, though, and it's looking pretty good. I wanted to write today because this Thursday is Thanksgiving, so I may not have time to write. I'm finally starting my site and I'm going strong. Please check back every thursday night for updates, and check my home page for picture updates. This week has been easier than I thought with my getting back on track. This 25 pounds down really is motivating -- I'm close to 30, and I'm really excited. Wish me luck!
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