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| 17 Oct 2000 I've been really bad with buying stuff lately. I've started Christmas shopping (an excuse I made up to justify all the toy purchases) but hey, I figure I'll be happy about it come the shopping rush. I found the cutest jack-in-the box that Mara just HAS to have. I will not deprive my child of the essentials. I also found Celia a remote control dog that is supposed to be easy to operate. She has always wanted one of those. I looked for Nathan but I have no idea what to get him. All he does is work and sleep and hang out with the kids. I bought a bunch of stuff last Christmas that has not been touched since December, one being an electronic dart board. I guess he's just waiting on the game room we may never have. Is it just me, or is buying a gift for a guy really so difficult? The best presents he says he ever got were a battery-operated screwdriver from the MD family, a flannel jacket from my mom, a huge Marilyn Monroe picture from his friend (which still graces our living room wall, but not for long) and loon pj's from his family. That leaves me nothing. Enough with shopping, I am so horrible. Today: got groceries, checked mail (nothing there, I was ticked), and took about an hour trying to get the girls inside with the bags. Mara is strapped to me in her carrier, my right arm and shoulder are numb and my hand is in pain. I told Celia not to ride in the cart since there was rust all over it, she threw a fit. Told her FINE, GET IN THE CART, she threw a fit, she wanted to walk. I don't know what is going on inside her head sometimes. Anyway, we finally got in and ate and things have been just fine since then. The girls were in bed by 7:45, which I am loving to death. I always feel so bad for having snapped at Celia by the end of the day. Last night I woke her up at 1AM when I went to bed to tell her I loved her and gave her a hug. She said "Love you too, Mom" and went back to sleep. Tonight I'm waking her back up to tell her that Daddy loves and misses her. |
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| 18 Oct 2000 Mara is so demanding lately! Oh, don't even leave her sight or she'll be ticked. Celia was playing with her Play-Doh in the livingroom and Mara was in the swing. Mara kept yelling at me to come back out of the laundry room. She did it for so long that finally Celia yells, "Mara! Quiet! Celia trying play Play-doh!" So I came in and plopped Mara in her walker (where I usually feed her). The girl has got some appetite. I would get a spoonful of food and she would ram her head into it because I was too slow getting it there myself. I am so proud of myself, though. I was on a roll cleaning the house and I straightened out my nightmare of a bedroom and bagged a ton of clothes to give away. All the same stuff I told Nathan I would NOT get rid of a few months ago. So now I don't hate having to go in there anymore. I still have laundry to do; Celia is in my bed watching tv with no sound because Mara's asleep. I haven't heard from Nathan in a couple of days. He's working his butt off with a cold. He's now the LPO of the power plants shop, which he didn't seem too thrilled about, but I'm still happy for him. He also has his wings and we're hoping he gets jr Sailor of the Year this year. Will keep you posted. Well, off to Laundry Mountain. |
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| 23 Oct 2000 I know! It's been so long! Well, I just hit a lazy spot one night, and after that I figured the entries would be too boring to read. Last night, I couldn't even log on. We've been up to the usual lately. Nathan and I have been 'arguing' via email lately. First, I was mad that I hadn't heard from him in four days. Turns out he was typing our email address in wrong. OK fine. But yesterday morning I got a call from a guy in his squadron who is not on the boat. It was 9 am and he told me that I could go to the squadron and call Nathan on their phone there. Well, when he called I was about to take my nap. Celia got up at 2am the night before and kept me awake just because. So needless to say, I didn't get much sleep. When he called I could barely keep my eyes open and I had just put Mara to bed. So I told him it wasn't the best time, but I would call him when we were ready to head over there. So I took my nap. When I got up I checked my email and Nathan was ticked. He was WAITING for my call and he was apparently getting tired of sitting around. Well, I had no idea he was waiting for me. I emailed him and just was so mad that he would expect me to be ready right away, with two kids, at the last minute, and be there to call when HE wanted. Well of course I wanted to talk to him, but DANG! So I told him that I would get ready and go. When I called the squadron, the guys were already gone. It was 12:30. I had no idea they wouldn't be there. So no one was there to make the call for me. So I emailed Nathan back and told him what happened and that I had to go to the store anyway and I would email him when I got back. So I get back. He emailed me in ALL CAPS LIKE THIS BECAUSE I GUESS THAT MEANS HE'S YELLING AT ME: "WELL DONT BOTHER TO CALL. I'M LEAVING THE SHOP NOW AND CHANCES ARE I WON'T COME BACK.....NATHAN" OH, now I was ticked. I have a sty developing in my right eye, my face hurts when I blink, Celia is barking commands at me, Mara is hungry, and now I'm getting the guilt trip. So I went off on him. But of course, later on last night I felt horrible and apologized, like I always do, for being so mean about it. I didn't hear from him after that because their computers are down now. Tomorrow I'm starting to see a counselor. Just someone to vent to I guess. And not about Nathan, but about how much it bites living here with two kids, no fun, blah blah blah. I'm actually in an ok mood today, it just doesn't sound that way. |
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| 24 Oct 2000 Wow, two days in a row. I got up early this morning and got the girls ready to go to a friend's so I could see the counselor this morning. I won't go into detail of course, but it was exactly what I expected. I don't really feel like I accomplished anything. She wants me to come back next Friday, so I'll be going again. It was ok I guess. I mean, I really shouldn't expect too much from one day with the counselor. I begged and begged her for drugs but she wouldn't budge. Ok, joking. JOKING! Not that I would refuse it if it was offered! :) Anyhow because of that I skipped my nap. If you know me at all, I am a GROUCH without one. But I did alright. The girls and I took a trip to the mini mart for hamster food and milk. We checked mail and Celia got birthday presents from Gma and Gpa Ersbo, Uncle Jon and Mike, Auntie Naomi, Sarah, and Norma, and Cousins Hailee and Levi. You can tell by the list of people that she was once again spoiled out of her mind. This girl is going to think that when you have a birthday you get a present for every day of the week. We played at the park for a while. She ran around with Chris and his son, Luke, who are friends of ours. She was having a ball. It's been so long since Dad has chased her around like that. She slid down the slide and made me clap for her each time; then she bowed twice and said, "Thank yaw, Thank yaw." I had to laugh. Mara was giving me kisses. My right ear was full of so much drool that I could barely hear. She did the same thing last night and I had to answer the phone that way. Drool everywhere. Funny thing, drool. Well, tomorrow I really have no plans at all, but I guess that means I have to make some. |
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| 29 Oct 2000 Nathan and I are closer to making a date for my move. He may have to leave for the boat again sometime in early spring. I'll be moving before then. Right now, that's all I know. I haven't made any entries lately because I found so many good reasons not to. I have been so extremely tired lately. I think it's doing more things and not being used to it. Friday night I went out with Shelby and a couple other women. It had been quite a while since I drank and it showed. The bartender told me to be careful because the vodka she gave me was 100 proof. It didn't bother me at the time, but I barely drank anything that night and I was so sick. I left my proof in the parking lot coming home. It was great. I felt perfect afterwards, but I never did that in front of people and it was so embarrassing. But who cares anyway. Oh, Dad, if you're reading this, it was all made up. Anyway, went over to Shelby's tonight and Mara got on all fours and started crawling! It was great! She took pictures. If you get emails from me, you'll be getting some. Just Warning you! Picture-happy mother over here. Well, have so many things to do. Till tomorrow! |