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MY REASONS TO LOSE 200LBS
1. To have energy to play with my children.
2. To be able to walk from the car to a store and be able to walk for longer than 10mins without needing the cart to lean on for assistance because of back pain.
3. To be able to Stand.
4. To be able to get up from the couch without it taking assitance or being a 3 or 4 step process.
5. To not dread walking from the house to the car- Hell to not dread walking.
6. To be able to stand long enough to be able to unload then reload the dishwasher.
7. To be able to shower properly.
8. To be able to "wipe" without muscle spasms (ewweee).
9. So I can go from the basement to the upstairs (2flights of stairs) to the bathroom without dying.
10. To not lose another button off of another shirt to my steering wheel.
11.To be able to go food shopping, or any shopping for that matter.
12.To be able to go to church again.
13.To not look pregnant (you'll see when I get more pics posted).
14.To be able to make it through the day and into the night without this constant dread of having a heart attack.
15.To be able to see my feet when I look down...without having to bend over.
16.To have the energy to clean my house.
17.To actually be able to use my rollerblades.
18.To go bike riding.
19.To be able to play racquetball.
20.To be able to sit like a lady.
21.To be able to make more than one trip out to the car to carry things in.
22.To be able to leave my house and not be ashamed to be around people.
23.To go to the beach.
24.To not get stuck behind the table in a booth.
25.To be able to go to my children's school activities.
26.To be able to hike again.
27.To be able to get dressed without feeling like I need to take another shower.
28.To be able to ride on a rollercoaster (I'll show my kids yet!).
29.To not be in fear on an elevator.
30.To be able to buy clothes (I have outgrown all of the stores around here).
31.To be able to wear something other than stretch clothes.
32.To be able to wear heels again (haven't worn them in at least 9yrs...used to live in them when I was younger, could even run in them)
33.To be able to do yard work (who would look forward to doing chores...lol).
34.To be able to take the trash out (down a flight of stairs, outback, and back up the stairs again).
35.To be able to wear something that is fitted, besides my underwear and socks...(sorry for the visual).
36.To be able to wear cute clothes.
I will add more later, this list is limitless since my barriers will be melting off.



REASONS WHY I AM AFRAID TO LOSE 200LBS
1. To have to face people (mainly men) again (the whole assault issue).
2. Because I might gain it back again.
3. Because I will actually have to care about myself.
4. Because I will have to find ways to deal with my emotions, happiness, sadness, anger, surprise, shame...I had a food for every mood.
5. To not have an excuse not to participate.
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