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| I have come to realize how much I truly have changed. I also know that people make many mistakes in their lives but that doesn't change who they become and it only changes who they are for a short time. I had changed from being and innocent little girl to a friendly and caring young adult. From there I went on to become a drug addicted person who treated people badly to get what I wanted.
Now I have made even more changes in my life. I feel better about myself, more now than I ever have in my entire life. My self-confidence is rising more everyday. I feel that I am accomplishing so much in my life. I know that I will continue to make changes and I feel in my heart that things will never go back to the way they were. May God keep us all in peace and love? I wrote this prayer about a year ago, I lost it but I found it as I was checking my e-mail this morning. My Prayer Sometimes when I awake in the mornings, I feel the suffering of all beings, I feel the burden upon my shoulder, I believe that is Gods' way of saying " Do not fear you are among all men that feel that way, take what I have given to you and cherish it, for I have given you life. It is up to you how you handle it, that my daughter is not a burden". How do I handle what has been given to only me? I may never know but I do know that when the times are right What I have been given is meant to be. For it are my destiny, and my fate. So now I pray, " Dear Heavenly Father, please walk with me and hold my hand down that long hard path of life, I know in my heart that I will do every thing that I am supposed to do in order to get where I belong and that my precious Lord is with you in the mighty kingdom of God. Lead me down the right path to finish my journey Lord. I know I have made many terrible mistakes in my life, but I also know that those mistakes had to be made for me to become a better person. My Lord I thank you for allowing me those mistakes. Now I feel I am a better person. With each mistake I make I gain knowledge. I don't know how much more knowledge I can handle though Lord. So, please help me not to make anymore mistakes. I am ready to go on with the next phase of my life Please allow me the courage to find what that step will be. My wish is to do that step right and not make more mistakes. Thank you Lord for hearing my prayers. May your Peace shine down upon the Earth? And one more thing Lord please tells my grandma and my dad I miss them and I love them so much. IN JESUS NAME I PRAY...........AMEN I am sending this prayer to the people I care about. Please say this prayer with me so that we each can have the courage to go on as both family and friends. Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts for just one day. Sometimes when I think about my future I get pretty depressed, but only because I don't know what it holds for me. I do believe that we make our own fate but I believe that destiny is in the hands of God. When we make changes in our lives that is the beginning of our destiny, if we continue those changes that are the creation of our fate. But everything we do is by choice only. I am the one that chose to do drugs therefore; I am the only one that should pay for the choices I made. I still have a hard time with the past even though that is where it is. My family tends to help me with my feelings and the people I meet are the ones that create an impact in my life. I meet new people everyday and each person I meet is so unique. With each new person I meet I implement them and their values into my life and make me a better person. I gain knowledge with each person just like when I was an active user I gained knowledge to help others in the same situation as I was in. I don't blame anyone but myself for any choice I have ever made in my life, I have put myself through the things that I have done, nobody made me and nobody told me I had to do what I did. I do hate it when people judge me for my past, but it is what I have come to expect. I also believe that although God is the Almighty creator and he gives us the opportunity to make choices I also believe that God has had a hand in the choices we made and continue to make. Today I make another change, which is what I am all about. I make changes to accommodate me and my new life-style. These new choices I make are so different that I feel my life getting so much better day by day. Yes I still get seriously depressed on many days. But I cope and go on. Some days are so much harder than others. Again the people I meet are the ones that I feel have the greatest impact in my life. I listen to their values and advice. For once in my life I actually listen to what people say and on some occasions I do what they suggest and so far I have found that their suggestions are remarkable. I add new things into my life everyday. |