Apr 29th, 2002

Apr 14th, 2002
I'm thru exams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This definitely merits a fan rambling entry. So of course, instead of getting more of my much needed sleep, I am sitt'n in front of the computer again typing away, looking at the seemingly endless list of courses i've taken over the past 6 years. <:)

Numerous people asked me how i felt about being done. :) happy. much more than that actually. I cried the night i finished my last exam.. i'm not sure if i'm more happy, or more relieved. Numerous times over the past several years i have felt like giving up entirely, <:) but yes I am finally graduating, a year "late", but nonetheless in the program i started with, with the education i (more or less) wanted. I am very very tired - tired of cramming and juggling every bit of my 20 or less waking hours each day between attending classes, doing assignments/labs, driving to abbotsford, and of course, looking after my dad. Something has to give way at some point - i'm glad that it is happening through completion of the degree instead of me quitting classes..

What next? I have been worrying about having to answer that since... well... I'm not sure since when. I want to go back to school (?!?!?!? WHAT?!?). No, I don't actually want to have to cram for any more exams. I don't want to have to sit through another course either that doesn't have any relevance to what i'm interested in/what i want to do. But i do want to go into research, do experiments, work on projects. I am glad actually that the eng phys program has projectlab courses for the upper years. Somebody once told me that change is just as good as rest - i think i believe it now. In any case, I think the projects kept me sane - something with a wide variety of work that draws and retains my attention, keeps my mind off other stuff..

But first i have to get in grad school, and my grades aren't exactly pretty to look at.. :S I think I am at borderline general graduate-admission requirement, and that probably won't get me into physics graduate programs around here!! *sigh*

Anyhow, but for the moment, there is lots for me to do before thinking of grad school - namely my 3rd workterm with NRC, family business to deal with and, of course, SLEEEP!!! :)