The stars are shining brightly. Can you see me, when I fail miserably? Can you save me when I'm drowning? How can I even measure up? My depression is coming back. I can feel it clawing away, breaking through. I can't stop it. I can't live like this. I don't want to live like this. I'm falling through, just falling. Lord, save me from this. I know you can. You are the Saviour of my life.
The Crossroads
I'm standing at the crossroads, at this point in my life. I'm unsure of what to do...following I come after you. Can I trust in something unseen? You have blessed me more then I deserve. I need to rely on You more. I can't hold on to something that doesn't belong to me.
Hope in Darkness
Negativity surrounds me. This school, this life. Many of them walk around with no hope, no life. You can see it in their eyes. Two deaths they will undoubtedly suffer. Everything You want us to do is of the utmost importance. Help us gain ground in this school for You.
Tribute to Katie
Thank you for being everything I've ever asked for. Thank you for being a friend. You are truly special and amazing. This path we walk is rough. Don't give up. Keep trying. His Glory awaits.
In the End
In the end, how will I be remembered? Will I be remembered as a fake, or a real person living for You? I strive for something impossible to attain. My heart is chasing after You. My eyes try to be fixed upon You. Beyond all measure, I am seeking and finding You. When I look up I know You are watching over me. I smile, I am safe in Your arms. Be glorified in me.
Holy to You
On my knees I come to You. My hands trembling and raised in praise. The one thing that I desire is to be Holy to you. Take everything I am, take everything I own. My faults, my problems, the good things I do are yours and yours alone. Guide me through life. Through the hardships and easygoing. My lif belongs to you. Mould me and shape me into the person you intend me to be. Your child, and Holy to you. Take my life and guide me with your light.
Strength, Energy, and Troubles
Held down in a chair, forgotten and alone. This cell unbreakable against my strength. How can I break out, can someone save me? All this despair haunting me, like it was trying to destroy me. Fosaking all of the world I break out. Running, running towards my goal. Bruised and beaten, new energy courses through me. Every single day, new life, new ways to succeed or fail. The same situation pops up everyday, my flesh and will is weak. Lord, give me strength to overcome and conquer the troubles that come my way.
Coldness surrounds me, affecting my movements, my thought. I start to slow down, so many events in my life, I have no time for you. Why is it that I'm too busy? Why is it that in this country of freedom there is so much captivity? You are more then my freedom, you are my life and my friend. Thank you for setting me free.
Walls
Standing here, looking around, old life surrounding me. These dark, dark days are getting closer, these personal demons attacking and clawing at my insides trying to destroy me. This burden heavy and unlifting. Who can make my day brighter? Who can heal me? Offer me life? and make my load lighter? I am surrounded by walls, unclimable, unbreakable walls, along the walls are the chains of sin. They were clasped on my once, until my Saviour saved me, but now why does it feel like I'm caught again? Can it be what I'm doing is wrong? What is it? Lord my strength flows from you alone, help me break down these walls. These walls are keeping me from you. Your peace, strength and love. These walls are hardening, like my heart and the depths of my soul. Walls of pride, selfishness, fear and doubt are keeping me from running towards you, inside your arms. Break them down, help me break them down, Lord I need you. Knock me down with your overwhelming love, joy and the hope you bring. Keep me and hold me tight.
Reborn
Crackling fire set ablaze. What i was destined for, now changed, I crawl through the ashes, Reborn, new life, new body, new master, new everything. What I once sought, now becomes nothing as only the one who can truly fill me, calls out. He blessed me with so much more then I deserve. My life is changed, no more faking, no more falseness. I no longer find comfort in this world, but seek a new face, seek a new mission, fight the good fight. The Lord is good, and he has held me here, and will hold me till the end.
New day
Sleepless, I stand before Heaven. What with everything happening. If I fall, where will I end up, my head is spinning. Somebody has to stop it. Everything is piling up, my doubts, fears, and failures are going through my mind. I'm falling hand in hand, through the shadows I fall. The darkness grabbing, the light so inviting. Weeping, I fall asleep, my joy comes with a new day. I'm not who I was, I'm not who I want to become. I continually fall short of what I stand for, what I settle for. I hide amongst the shadows, it is not where I belong. Running away, I cannot escape you. Hiding, I cannot escape you. What else can I do but fall into your arms? I give up, take my life, mould me and shape me. Show me where you want me, and place me there. A new day starts, peace fills me. I know everything is going to be alright.