Summer '01
It's been quite a week: 2 tests, mom leaving town, dog vomiting everywhere. These are the days of my life, folks. Tonight (yes, I know I'm a nerd) I'm finally going to sit and read a book I was given a year ago called We Can All Get Along: 50 Steps You Can Take to Help End Racism. I'm looking forward to it. Let ya know how it turns out. :O)
Last night my mom and I watched A Walk to Remember. The girl had this list of things she wanted to do before she died...and of course, being the girl that I am, it got me thinking about what I wanted to do in my life. So...I created a new little page of "my life's ambitions" Some of them are pretty down to earth...others are quite silly and over the top. Some of the down to earth ones probably won't even happen. At least it was fun thing to think about. Of course the list is incomplete...that was just all I could think of in one little sitting. ok...hasta luego.
I got my Spanish test back yesterday...I got a 95!! Woohoo!! I'm really starting to enjoy Spanish. Speech on the other hand......my prof (Docta Love) told us that we won't have class on Friday and I almost wet myself with excitement. I've been finding any reason not to study this week. Last night I talked on IM for 2 hours, the night before I watched a movie, and now....I'm writing on this thing. If only I could learn to do fun stuff while I procrastinate my life would be much more exciting.
I decided that I'm a boring person. We are giving informative speeches in class next week. While trying to think of topics...I couldn't think of anything interesting that I know a lot about....I couldn't even think of anything I know about. I'm going to end up recycling a topic. It was between soccer and racial identity. Man, I'm boring. And way too serious. For all the time I spend laughing at very things, I spend the majority of my time on this earth contemplating one thing or another. Yes folks...it's time for me to let go of everything and get a life. Look out London!! Here I come!!! Something has to change.........
Ok...it's been a while. I cleaned up the page...made it all one design. Hopefully it's a little more pleasing to the eye. I'm sure everyone has stopped looking at the page, but maybe this will be a good way to keep in touch with everyone while I'm in London. We'll see...
A lot has happened in the past year; too much to go into. To say the least: it was good and it was bad, it was hard and it was easy, I've grown and I've regressed. How was that? If you know me well...you know what all has gone on.
I started classes at ACC last week. I had my first test in Spanish today. I think I did pretty well. This class is going to kill me though. It's 3.5 hours a day. Thank God I have Fridays off. Speech is incredibly easy. I had a better speech teacher in high school...I'm not learning much. At least I get to say I'm taking a class with Dr. Love. The Docta is in! Teach me the language of Love! hehe...he's an old man, so it doesn't stay fun for long.
A lot has happened since I last worked on this page. Wow...a lot has happened. I wrote on this four days before my 19th birthday. Well...updates updates. I finished my first year of college. It was a long, long hard year, but I got through it...barely. There's way too much to get into with that, so I'll just leave it at that.
This summer was one of the best and probably worst in my life. I got my first real job at Mervyn's in Lakeline Mall. I'm definitely glad I'm in college and will someday have a degree of some sort so I don't have to spend the rest of my life working someplace like that. I did get a discount...which I'm still using because I'm still technically on the payroll there. I'll probably go back and work this Christmas break because I'm broke. The major focus of the summer was the racial identity project I did for the month of June. I learned SO MUCH. I met some really cool people...got a new crush...learned how to be an anti-racist (or a weed as I like to call it). It was amazing, and also amazingly painful. It's the best and worst thing I could have ever learned.
Since I've been back at school, it's been really affecting me. I can't go a day without seeing something obviously racist. It's driving me crazy, and I've jumped into an anger stage. The world just sucks for those of you who don't know. Yeah...and a lot of that anger goes towards my little crush I got this summer. yeah...no one is perfect, and it's extremely hard when you find that out. This year seems to be going better than last year though. I'm WAY busy with CSA, OA, the race project and other school stuff. I've finally found someone on campus who I can totally be myself with. Crystal and I have been hanging out a lot...it's really great. in the words of Fernando "everything's not great, but you're not wanting to kill yourself yet." That's my year. AHHHH...such a messenger of hope, but I guess it's true.
In my English class, after we turn in papers, my prof chooses a couple to talk about in class. This time he chose my Campfire Stories paper. I feel like I've been beaten. He must have liked it if he picked it to talk about, but he sure did rip it apart. I'll go back to licking my wounds now.