As I stand,
Letting the sweat run
Down my body with
The water of the shower,
I think of how i've never
Been given a reason
To cry like I do.
I let the water burn my flesh
Hoping it will seep into my veins
And clean me.
I'm letting it revive me
Hoping that these bad memories
Are going to go away.
Praying that the pictures of your
Face will be deleted from my life.
I don't want to see you
I don't want to see myself.
I just want to be clean.
The water is building holes
Through my skin,
But, it doesn't hurt,
Because it's not the same kind of pain I am used to.
I want to write what's on my mind
But it's something I cannot express
I can feel it in every possible way
It's untouchable, undressable
Help me, help me get this
Off my mind
Draw me into your arms
Make me blind
Of any hurt, any pain
Promise me you'll take it away
Let me trust you
Squeeze me tight
Comfort me all through the night
Take me out, bring me in
Make it go away
Pain doesn't hurt you
So let me win
Show me how you do it
Tell me your secrets
Be the shelter over me
Don't let me be frightened anymore
I'm so confused about everything
What's going on?
Why are all my thoughts
more than half-way gone?
I can't keep it straight
someone, show me the way
Close my eyes, take my hand
Secure me today.
Give me time to settle down
leave me some freedom
But keep me in line
To you i'll come
I want to cry
But don't know how
It hurts too bad
I can't do anything now.
Suicide,
A mental fucking thought
Trailing down your arm to find the spot
Take the knife, take the blade
Cut until you feel the vain
Let out a painless scream
Raise your weeping eyes
Look into the heavens and say goodbye
Show 'em how you hurt
Lift your bloody hands
Cry for one last shot
Maybe now they'll understand
Now's too late--before was so soon
They didn't catch it, didn't see the signs
Thought the marks were drawn lines
Here it is in the palm of your hands
You're letting her go
You never loved her so
All she felt was sadness and pain
but with the flick of a blade
She'll never feel pain again.
I look in the mirror
and guess what I see
a person that is too
different from me.
I feel for her to
open up wide to
let everything out
to have nothing to hide.
To put a smile upon her face
a smile to take
depressions place.
To prove to the people
there's still someone inside
but she's scared to come out
so she stays in to hide
Look at her face
things weren't meant to be bad
look at the tears she's crying
she looks so sad
But the mirror image is changing
the smiles are real
she's beating this disease
with every known skill
She's tricking the people
she's hiding no more
depression will soon
be out the door
and I am falling in love with you
take me from my world
promise to be true
My life lies in the plam of your hands
Let me melt into your arms
Tell me you'll understand
Trust me when your heart is in pain
I have all the time to let you explain
Promise me you'll take my hand
When it hurts inside
Tell me it's okay
You'll hold me when I cry
Calm my heart with your hands upon my face
Let me lose myself in your warm embrace
Hold me so close
Hold me so near
That I won't have anything left to fear
When you're by my side
I can make it through it all
I know you'll never let me fall
Lift me up and
Carry me away
Tell me with your beating heart
That you're here to stay
