Right now, I have a set group of friends for the first time. People who are willing to accept me the way I am, and strangely understand a small portion of the things i've been through. How wonderful to have someone to confide in. How wonderful to have a true best friend. Life is getting better by the moment... but I am still looking for that love in the other half of my life.
I said that all I want is for you to always love me,
That all i've ever needed is you here holding me.
I told you to touch me, run your fingers through my hair,
To look me in the eyes and tell me how much you care.
I said to just be gentle, take your time and move slow
So I could trust your hands and the words i've never known.
I confessed my love for you as you stood there before me,
You looked at me and smiled, you never heard the words I said.
You squeeze my hands then hold me in your arms
While my heart is breaking in the awe of your charm.
You turned away, again, and my heart fell to my feet
If only you'd understand my love, if only i'd tell it to someone...
Other than me.
I feel alone and my
Breathing is slow, weak
My heart is heavy
And my body aches
My words are unkind
Hurting the ones I love
When I feel this empty
And push comes to shove
Struggling to be happy
Everyone sees the smile
Underneath i'm crying
It'll pass after awhile
I'm sorry for my imperfections
That I couldn't be your first choice, You hear all around you
But I don't have a voice
Feel deeper into me
Fix my broken heart
Come lay next to me, help
Avoid my falling apart
Just hold me close to you
And never, ever let me go
Let me get lost in your arms
I hate feeling this alone
I thought I felt your arms
Maybe it was in my head
When you pulled me close to you
While laying in my bed
Maybe I was dreaming
When it seemed you felt the same
Did you really want me?
My heart is to blame
It took me too far, I
Believed things that weren't true
Maybe you were never there
It was only an image of you
But it felt so right and as
Our fingers intertwined
You grabbed hold of my soul
I thought you'd be mine
"I thought you'd be mine"
The phrase too easily made
I'm always left alone
And yet I still pray
That no matter how much I hurt
Or how much of me has died
I pray someone will love me
I really thought you'd be mine
An awkward silence occurs
As I sense you drawing near
I feel my heart beat faster
My thoughts become clear
I see your broad shoulders
I envision me in your arms
Just holding me close
Keeping me from harm
Protecting me with your hands
Calming me with your voice
Holding me tighter and
Giving me no choice
But to let you love me
God knows I love you too
Never could you have known
I've always wanted you
I've always felt that spark
That lightens up my days
When you come close to me
You steal my heart away
I feel so horrible
I hurt inside
My eyes are stinging
This I can't hide
I need you to hold me
I'm so alone
My world is falling
My body is torn
Look at me now
See my tears
The fog thickens
Just like my fears
Please, shelter my heart
And carry me home
Through the shattered glass
Of my broken soul
Soaking with fear
All I really need is
Someone who will take
Away the loneliness in me
How many tears
do I have to cry
before you notice
the emptiness inside?
Why can't you see
that you're hurting me?
the one person I trust
forgot about me
I gave out my heart
I wanted him to hold it
you walked infront of me
I dissapear yet again
Invisible to the world
Hey, just want to fall in love
sorry for my feelings
I can't help what I want
I want to be with him
and to feel free
from the loneliness inside
I want to love me
I want to thank you lord
For keeping me alive
I see all the life I would've missed
If i'd forced myself to die
I want to thank you for my mom
Who has always been there
Teaching me the lessons of life
And sharing the pain I bear
Thank you lord for giving me Spike
The first real man in my life
Thank you for my friends
They make my life happen
For giving me experiences
To help me understand
That my life is so perfect
There's beauty all around
Thank you for moving us to
This awkward little town
Thank you lord for
Keeping me alive
Thank you so much for
Giving me an awesome life.
Lost in lust
From the look in your eyes
I wanna hold you close without
The worries of goodbye
I want to touch your face
Hold you in my arms
I just want to love you
Keep you from harm
I want to hold your hand
Make you feel good inside
I see how handsome you are
And I shiver with butterflies
You are so beautiful
So perfect, so right
I'm waiting for the day
You'll want me in your life
I want to feel your hands
I need to be in your arms
I want to feel safe so I
Can let down my guard
I can't describe how close
I have to be to you
Too close isn't enough
God, if you only knew
How wonderful life could be;
All this emptiness chased away
If you vould only see how
I need you to guide my way
It's the sweetness I feel when
You hold me against your skin
Just hold me closer, tighter
Let me breath you in
Inhale the sent of love
Exhale the broken heart
I wonder about your love
And when my tears will part
