Every word from you
that i've been taking
a barrior on my heart
that's slowly breaking
I was feeling alive
and you broke me down
aren't friends supposed to open you up
without making you feel small?
I'm sorry it's a threat
to see a smile on my face
I'll pack my soul and leave
I know i'm a disgrace
I hope life treats you well
at least better than mine
I hope god gives you a friend
to ease my space with time
I'm out of your hair
out of your sight
thank you for showing me
my true friends of life
All I can say is
I need you to hold me
to fill the emptiness
I'm so tired of being lonely
So tired of the world
that's left me secluded
nothing to hold on to
to get me through it
There's a hole in my heart
waiting to be filled
there's a quiver in my body
waiting to be held
I see the words
I hear 'em in my mind
how much I want you,
I keep it confind
I need your hands
I need your eyes
and I need your love
to soften my cries.
I always get my hopes up
when it comes to falling in love
what do I have to do
to keep from being alone?
Why can't you see me?
Just look into my eyes
tears are falling in my soul
I wish i'd realize
I was meant to live in solitude
there's no one here for me
it's such a simple prayer
I guess it's not that easy
To find someone to hold
to relinquish this emptiness
that's kept my fear of life
of living in a single quietness
I see love everywhere
it fills my days and nights
but when will someone want me?
why do I have the lonely flight?
I'll soar through the skies up high
over the clouds and seas
I'll fly away alone
as I was meant to be
Where is she?
the angel I knew
We protected each other
Helped to pull through
She's gone away
Giving up on our bond
Turning her back,
I no longer belong
Just pretend you don't notice
Can't see my tears
I've tried so damn hard
To chase all your fears
Thanks for your friendship
I'll hold it in my heart
That tears more everyday
That we drift further apart
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Thanks for the friends
that treat me like shit
I really am happy
I really needed that
Hey, guess it's over
but that's really okay
never really believed in
life-long friends anyway
And I don't think i've cried enough
haven't felt enough pain, and
I really don't think i've lost too much
I know nothing will be the same
I really can't explain how
much it hurts inside
I don't really understand how
they're ok with this selfish pride
How can they be happy
with this awful success
of breaking my heart with
such harsh tenderness?
I'll never know
guess I don't really care
and I really don't know what to do
now that my life is so bare
Everyone sees the smiles
Covering my broken heart
Everyone hears the laughter
Over my falling apart
God, what have I done
To lose my best friend?
Tell me what to do, I
Don't want this to end
There's too many memories
To throw it all away
An understanding between us, I want her to stay
I need the closeness
That we once shared
Who has she become?
The beauty who cared
Her heart has turned cold
No emotions run through
The glaze look in her eyes
Won't let her come to
I want her back
I can't hide the hurt
That's filled my soul
With the loss of her
I guess I don't understand
Because the only thing I knew of you was that of a friend.
Where did you go and how did all this happen?
I saw our friendships as four
glowing candles, and although
they mean the same to me;
life is full if changes, and
change I can handle.
The times and words shared
shouldn't have ended with
closed doors, the last two
weeks of school opened new ways
for me to explore.
All the things I set aside for you
three, but i've never hurt so bad
and no one could even tell me
what I did to make you mad.
I had to hear your words through
the longs chains of gossip;
I guess i'm stuck-up and
annoying and no one can
explain it.
Not even my family because,
oh yeah, they couldn't see it,
I must hide it from the ones who love me and i'm sorry if you never really knew me.
I still don't understand and all this time later, I don't expect explanations, I just want you to hear...
I need you to hold me
to fill the urge inside,
the gap in my heart, and
the loneliness in my cries
I need your hands to
hold up my chin
look me straight in the eyes
so I can let you in
The emptiness that I feel
without you by my side
my only fear is to keep on
living my lonely life
I hate how heavy
my soul has become
and that everything about me
is slowly coming undone
I need you to hold me
to keep me all together
forever in your arms
even if just tonight...
is forever.
I still miss you all and I will never, ever forget;
The greatness of our memories,
all that we went through
and when it comes down to it...
for that I have to thank you.
dedicated to:
Kim, Bridget, and Katie
