I feel like i'm being cheated and there's no way I can stick up for myself. Why do you keep hurting me when you know how helpless I am? There's only so much I can handle before my mind explodes. There's only certain emotions I can fake before my heart cries out and shatters. Then, I sit in my room and think of everything and cry. Cry until I shake, until my eyes ache. Funny thing is that i'll always be here for you no matter how much you or anyone else hurts me. My heart seems to keep on taking the pain from you but it never wants to see you hurt or in pain. Never wants to see the tears you cry. So, it's okay, you can hurt me as long as you promise to stay my friend. As long as you keep lying to me until the end. Then, i'll never know the truth and i'll always just believe that I can trust and love you.
I feel so incredibly lonely
My thoughts are hurtful
When my body feels this pain
How can I remain hopeful?
I need to be held and told
That everything's gonna be ok
I need someone to kiss all
This pain and tears away
My whole body shakes
With this loss of touch
This passionate tenderness
I hear about so much
I'm lost in these emotions
Will there ever be
Someone to hold, love
And accept me for me?
Where are my friends?
The ones i'm supposed to trust
The friends that lie to me,
Who seem to leave me out
How has my life
Ended up this way?
I wish I could turn it all around
And get rid of this loneliness
Anywhere but here is the only place I wanna be
Anywhere but here, so distant from feeling lonely.
Everyone but me believes in everlasting love
Everyone but me, holds faith from above
I wanna be free from the hurt inside
I wanna be free and let my heart fly up high
Away from my world, laying in your arms
Away from my world, sheltered by your charm
Tell me you need me, you'll take me away
Just tell me you need me, and i'll always stay.
Look at me
Want me
Understand me
Believe in me
Give me a chance
Just one chance
Talk to me
Take my hand
I'll listen to you
I'll hold you tight
Just understand me
Please, understand
Love me
Be gentle with me
I'll love you
I'll know you
And understand
Cry to me
I won't laugh
Lets just be ourselves
That's all I ask
I feel this restlessness lurking in my heart
I feel discombobulated and all torn apart
My mind torments me, it tells me these things
Things I hate to hear, yet force myself to believe
You look right at me but you don't really see
How can you believe i'm ok when i'm so unmistakably empty?
Don't know how to love, don't know how to trust
Can't understand the world and I cover myself
in your dust
I let you use me, you know i'll always be here
Just call me when you're in need and i'll take all your tears
And add them to my collection of tears I can so easily cry along with the tears
That don't come when it hurts so bad inside
I'll cry for you i'll cry for me
I'll take the pain of the world just so you
Can be the one that's happy.
We go through life
abandoned and confused
wanting what we don't have
forgetting all we could lose
We go through life
ashamed of days past
wondering about the chances
still slipping just beyond our grasp
We go through life
searching for trust and love
feel somewhat alone, and
again turn to run
We go through life, longing
for that fairy tale world
where all is so perfect we can forget our lives revealed.
I feel this loneliness
Not wanting to subside
I feel this emptiness
Tearing me apart inside
I see this vision made
Of trust and love
I can almost feel the
Safetiness hovering above
I understand that
I was meant to be alone
But I also know
I'm tired of being unknown
Tired of feeling lost
Tired of the looks
Tired of the bad habits
That keep me all shook
I want to be alone
I don't care if i'm lost
I just don't want to be
Alone all by myself
The moon shining so bright
Across the starlit sky
How can such darkness, at times, be the
Most peaceful part of life?
The moon just beams and
Loves you unconditionally
Never judges your actions
And always listens patiently
You can never do wrong
Under a sky filled with innosence
A million stars with stories
From a million different wishes
I bathe in the moonlight
Washing my fears away
I pray in the moonlight
That you'll love me someday
We can hold each other
In the peaceful darkness
We can love each other
Under the light of the moon
~kel~
Bring me down then back up
Break my heartI'll never give up
Make me cry
Tear at my soul, then
Nurture me back
So that I won't go
Lie to me, it's
All I need to hear
Cause the truth is hurtful
And you I don't want to fear
I love you so much
No matter your actions
My love is true with
This longing attraction
You make my heart beat
You make me smile
I'm the one who hurts me
You don't even know i'm alive
I envision these things
That no one needs to know
I make myself cry down this
Loveless, lonely road.
I feel so lost and alone. I feel unsafe without someone here to hold me, so tight and long. Someone to want me just for me...and not care about body. I want to feel safe, I need to feel touch. Can't tell them how I feel inside. Don't expect anyone to understand me because there's nothing I could do to make it all make sense to you, when I don't even make sense to me. I just need to have a feeling of complete happiness and safety. An escape from my loneliness.
