February
2004
February 09, 2004
Oh my gosh, where do I start? I know I haven't updated my baby boys website in awhile and I feel so bad. I have just been so down lately.
I can't believe that my baby boy has been gone 139 days (20 weeks) (5 months). Mondays are always the hardest on me. It is like I am relieving that horrible morning every Monday. Of course it is always on my mind but it is worst on Mondays. I have heard over and over that time will heal. But when? I know that 5 months is still a short time. Although to me, sometimes it feels like it was yesterday and sometimes it feels like it was a year ago. I can still hear the doctors words in my head. All he could say is "I have terrible news". WHY????
I am not doing any better than what I was 20 weeks ago. I am still in a depressed rut. I guess noone can tell that well because I put on an act. I have heard that this is not a good thing to do. but I guess I feel as though it is better to do that because people think I should be ok now. But I'm not.
I miss my little TJ so much. My little peanut! I just can't take this. The pain is so intense still. I just want my baby back!!!
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