Special Thanks
Sela- I do not know how I could ever thank you for what you have offered. I hope and pray God blesses you in every way. You and I barely talked in the past, yet out of the goodness of your heart you were willing to help a complete stranger. Sela love you always for that.
Tanaya- Thank you for being there for me when ever I needed you most. Shows you really are a true friend. You make so much more enjoyable when I am around you. You bring such a presense that I dont think many can accomplish. God has truely blessed you and I hope he keeps on doing so. Love you more then anything.
Lissa- You of all people know how much I can talk. Yet you still stuck around listening to my problems. Not many friends are like that. I love you so much for that. May God bless you and your family. You deserve only the best.
Amanda-What would I do without you. You and I met years ago in a shitty situation as it was, but we were able to look past our financial situations and we became great friends. Sometimes a tad rocky and yet you have become one of my best best friends. I made a lot of mistakes in the past but you still stuck by me regardless of my shaky decisions. Thank you for being such a good friend. I just hope I can be there for you as much as you have been there for me. I love you always Amanda and always will :)
Ruben- You and I met months ago online. Who would have ever thought I would have such a deep love for someone like this. You're like the brother I never had. I am so fortunate to find someone as caring as you are. You always lent me your ear when I really needed someone to talk to. I hope I can do the same for you. Love you more then life itself Ruben and always will.
Kimmy/Momma-I do not just call anyone Mom for nothing. I just wish I had met you sooner then we did. 4 years is just not enough. You are always there for me and took me under you wing as your own flesh and blood. Thank you for filling that void where I thought no one could ever do. As far as I am concerned I am your daughter even though we have never met yet :) Love you momma and thank you for loving me.

Thank you to everyone for being so supportive. Sadly, I thought I had to say my goodbyes because as anyone would do. I really thought I had no where else to turn. Because of your prayers, love and support my family will make it. You know for someone that doesn't have any blood relatives. I sure am blessed to have so many of you there for me. I hope I can return the favor someday.

Love Always,

Your Pinky >

Today is not a good day for my family and I. Tomorrow Steve has court for our current eviction. The whole reason we were ever evicted in the first place was when Steve's job fired him for a suspended license [1 unpaid parking ticket]. This set us back as it would any family. He did find a job, but only playing at $7.00 an hour. Although he worked very hard, it didn't pay the bills. Our rent alone is over $550.00 a month. You do the math. Anyhow, we struggled for months and finally was able to get his license back and get his old job back. Sadly the damage was already done. We were behind in rent, car payments, electric and so forth. No matter what we did it just kept on piling up. We had not choice, a lot of times it came down to. Hmm, do we buy food or keep lights on this week? It just was a downward spiral from there.

So now, we have decided we couldn't pay my current landlord/friend. It was just best that we move out. We already were in debt of owing him over $1100.00. We tried numerous times to work out a payment plan for back rent, but he kept changing the payments on us. Yes I know what you are thinking. Why didn't we get it in writing? For one, we were semi friends, for two, he wouldn't! So we figured since he wouldnt take the $350.00 and then an additional $350.00 following 2 weeks. This would have been an extra $200.00 a month on top of paying for rent. We had told him $350.00, that was fine, then he refuses to take it and wants $400 instead. We couldn't because we needed to buy food. So this is when we decided fuck it we will just move. Please keep in mind Steve's paychecks are being garnished as we speak for another apartment years ago. So we are paying for rent for 2apartments basically.

Anyway, enough of all the details. We are moving. We have shitty credit, but most places take you even if you do have bad credit. Just as long as you have a good work history, income verification, and current landlord references [We have my friend pretending she is our current landlord so we get that part.] So as most of you know I was supposed to move a few days ago. That didn't go as planned :( The guy that I talked to, John Haze, [You basterd!!!!!] When I had talked to him, he sounded like us moving there was almost 100% promising. This is why we even stopped looking for other apartments and filling out applications. [Not easy apartment shopping when you do not have a car] He had told me as long as I have a good current landlord reference, income stability, and good references period. That we could do the move. I mean we even got into talks of how much we would owe, he pro rated for this month if we had moved in on the 11th. So yesterday, Steve and I are packing and waiting for his response. Basically, waiting on our keys for our new home. He didn't call us. I called him, and he said because I owed a grocery store for a bounced check, [That was paid btw!! The fucks went out of business!!] and we had a rental restitution 4 fucking years ago, he can not allow us to move in. I was furious! I had told him way before we gave him the money for an application that we had bad credit. For those of you that do not understand bad credit. BAD CREDIT= YOU OWE PEOPLE

Now what do we do?? Considering court is tomorrow, Steve and I are going to get a hotel room. We do not want to be here while in court and the possibility of the Sheriffs Dept. throwing us out on our asses. The last time my sister went through this, and owing rent. The court gave her 3 days to move out and if she wasn't they put your shit on the curb, Literally!! We can only afford 1 night at a hotel. I do not want to waste our money on these suckers and paying for weeks at a time. We have about 600 towards a new apartment, which in most cases is pretty good. A lot of these apartments only want $99.00 deposit to move in or $199.00.

This little paragraph is for my close close friends. I do not think I will be back any time soon. My family is in serious jeopardy of being homeless. I guess you can call it an all time low. I do not see how either. A hard working family, good people and this shit happens to us because of bad credit! Its not like we are crackheads and are homeless. He makes over $11.00 an hour. Which is pretty good here.

Anyhow this is my good bye. Our family has hit a point in our life that has to come to a halt.T here is one place that takes families but is booked solid. Sadly the only other homeless shelters around here take individuals only. Steve can go to one for men, I can go to another for homeless woman. They do not have any for mothers and their children. So Jr. has to go with my Mother in Law if she takes him. If she doesn't, and I dont think she will take him. He has to go into foster care until Steve and I can get a home. Which of course I will do everything in my power to do. I do not know what is going to happen, but my family is falling apart. Steve and I have never been apart from each other in 6 years. NOT ONE NIGHT! But we have to do this, or we are living on the street.
So this is my goodbye.

So to all my friends-

To my real life friends: Amanda, Priscilla, Ruben, Erica (Wifey), Shane, Jay, Kimmy, Megan, Steph: When I left foster care when I was 18. I had no one. Seems like my adulthood started out being homeless. I guess that can happen when your caseworker literally sits you on the stoop and says, "You are 18 now, sorry I can not help you anymore." So now, I am homeless yet again. No family, no friends, nothing. There are not a lot of people in my life. Because of you guys, my life has had more meaning meeting (some not meeting, but ya know) each and every one of you. I could not be more grateful and thank full for all you have done. You all have been so good to me, supported me, loved me for me. Not many have ever done that. I may talk a lot and ramble but you all ignored that. You looked past my flaws and accepted me for me. I love you all so much and hopefully I will see and talk to you again someday. Thank you for all the good times and being there during the bad. I love you all so much. You each have a piece of my heart that no one can take away. They my take my home, my money and my things away, but the love I have for you all they can never touch. Thank you for loving me.

To my online friends, Abba, Kit Kat, Sela, Bizkit, Jeffie, Stormy, Tonya, Lissa, Kyle, Dudu, Tracers, Stacy: [No special order ] Thank you for making life a little easier. Coming online makes things so much easier sometimes, helps me forget about my real problems. I can escape from real life. You guys were always there to make it a little easier and fun. Thank you for being so kind. Love you all and will miss you dearly.

Until next time......good bye.