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March 29, 2004:
I don't even no where to begin. Everyday seems to get worse and worse. The only thing keeping me sane is this fucking computer. Sad as that may sound, but by playing my online games, or chatting with friends keeps my mind busy from wandering down that dreary road of depression. This country's unemployment rate has hit an all time high, and now my family is the one suffering. All caused from Bush's lack of leadership.
You know you almost feel like you have hit rock bottom, when you are scraping for every literal penny in the house to find $2.00 to put gas in the car, to go and sell DVD's and anything that is worth value, to buy necessity items for the house. At times, I think I am no better then a drug addict. They do this kind of shit, not my family and I. It's the same scenario, but I know that I am not the only one out there that is going through the problems my family and I are going through. I know we will find work, and before I know it we will be back to where we started.
I have never expected handouts, or wanted them. You really can tell who your friends are and aren't by the simple comments they make. Don't get me wrong, sure is nice for people to offer. When they do, that just shows me that they care, only true friends are like that. I wouldn't take it but that is besides the point. It's the fact that they care enough about you and yours to offer you help.
To Manda, Kimmy [momma], and Jo Jo; thank you for the sweet words, your kind heart, and thank you for being such great friends.
March 27, 2004:
This blog entry comes deep within so be prepared. Things are not doing to good, as Steve had lost his job about 2 weeks or more ago. The reason they fired him, was his license was suspended.(we found out that his license was suspended because of ONE stupid un-paid speeding ticket, found this out when are tags were expired) Well he can't work at 'General Motors' without a valid drivers license. Anyway, when he first told me, I didn't think much of it. I just knew, with his resume that he can get a good job ASAP. If you seen his resume you would agree. I figured his next check would hold us over, like anyone would think. Well because we have the worst luck of all, we have a past landlord taking 25% of his paycheck. So now we are really in some trouble. Every time we try and get ourselves out of a huge hole, we have something or someone pushing us right back down in the ground. The thing that upsets me to no end is, we don't take hand outs, we have never been on welfare, nor will we. When a real family tries to make it in this society you are not supported. If I were a single parent, with 3 children, with 3 different fathers. I would be ahead! I wouldn't have to work. I just don't think its fair anymore. When someone tells you, "Thats how life is, its unfair!" That is bullshit, in my opinion! The reason I say this is, we made it unfair. We allow single parents and welfare recipients to have it easy. When there are real family's that are suffering, like mine. We are doing everything we can to make it.
What saddens me most is, I have been in 42 foster homes since I was 11 years old. Since I have been married (6 years) we have moved 14 times. I need a place to call my home. I won't let this house go. I can't! As strong as I may come off at times. I really think if I have to find a new home, this will be my breaking point. I know that God will not give me more then I can not handle. I can't and will not get mad at Him, no matter how tough things are getting for our family. I think that by maybe going through this, this is just a test of faith. I love Jesus more then life its self, thus I must keep my faith strong in my time of need.
I am looking out the window right now as I type this, its raining. It has been for the past 2 days, I think. Usually when it rains it gives me this sense of warmth, comfort and security. I assume its the soothing sounds of the rain dropping, birds chirping, and of course the common sound of cars splashing through onto the streets. Today I didn't feel that way. When I woke up this morning, I felt this sudden emotion of sadness. I know the reasoning behind it. I am yet again losing my home. As much as I don't care to tell people my business, this I must to make myself feel better. March 22, 2004:
This is a small little blog entry. I would like to say to the fucking idiots at Chat Files! You people are fucking pathetic. You did not send out any notices that you were making people pay, you false advertise, and guess what? There are tons of free chat services, and low and behold I found one better then you bastard's! To all my viewers, dont bother with these people, on top of all what I listed they steal their work, and steal lame graphics from MSN emote's. Which btw, is a copyright violation! Oopsie, sorry on accident I reported you! So blow me; Chunky nut INK!!
March 20, 2004:
This is a blog/update! Today I have added an awesome feature to downloads. Yahoo Booters Yup, I sure did. If you are looking for other program booters. Just click the contact button and send in your requests. Just label them Booter's. I have also added a cute little treat for you people. So go ahead.. you know you want to click it. Talk to you later
March 19, 2004:
Today has been pretty kewl. The only thing that is driving me mad is this weather. No I am not going to talk about boring ass weather, but man are you kidding me! Yesterday it was fucking snowing, now today its like spring! I swear these are signs the world is coming to an end. Don't believe me, you will see, Mwahahhaha.
I am so occupied with updating this site, and keeping the content alive and updated. I barely have time for anything else. You guys have to remember this site is very very interactive with the viewers. To be honest, if I found a site like this. I would have tons of frickin fun! There are polls, blogs, downloads, gaming, fun links, pranks, gags, celebrity photos, and funny images. I mean that would keep me busy at least 20 min. The best part is this stuff is updated every week. If you missed any of the updates there is our ICN - NEWSLETTERS . They come out every Thursday. Not to mention, there are also tons of audio files, and featured sites to choose from. Note: Want to find someone that is compatible with you? Want to do something fun? Well go to the downloads section and download the Color Test !!! Send in your results, and your results will be matched up with others that are compatible with you in our ICN (ICN = Ink Challenged Newsletters) . What can it hurt, you could find your soulmate.
SIGN UP FOR THE NEWSLETTER TODAY TO SEE HOW YOU CAN WIN A OFFICIAL "CAT IN THE HAT".. HAT
March 17, 2004:
Yesterday was my sons 5th BIRTHDAY! We had a pretty good time, considering NO ONE CALLED HIM! Sometimes I get pretty upset that people could care less about my son. He deserves to have more people care for him. Basically this is meaning my family and Steves family. I don't honestly think they even remembered his birthday. That's okay though because he has Mommy and Daddy to take care of his every need, including being positive people in his life. He deserves so much more! On another note, we spoiled him rotten today, he pretty much ate junk for dinner, with all the trimmings... cookies, ice cream, cake, candy, McDonald's. We got him all kinds of car type toys (he loves cars).
I had a pretty good day though, a tad irritable, must be the bills thing I suppose. I am really proud of Steve, he finally talked to his Mom and Kurt, (Kurt is the new husband.. dont ask). We were actually surprised how long it has been since he decided not to talk to them, but of the sake of our son, he decided to go over there. I think it was almost 2 years. LOVE YOU STEVE...on that note.. I am done ranting/rambling.. See you freaks later.
March March 15, 2004:
OK! I know this is for blogs only. Man, I am so geeked I finally got the newsletter up and running. I have been wanting one of these suckers.. for a while. You guys have to sign up for it! Its very simple, and quick. No huge sign up sheets.
On to the blog! Today seems like its going so frickin slow! I will get through it though. Steve is still trying to find work, which is prob why I am so stressed. Hence all the work I been putting into this site to keep my brain busy. Its hard going through this financial roller coaster. Gets to be a tad annoying, after a while. One good thing, Amanda and I are back friends like we used to be. I think we kept talking all day till about 4 am last night.. Good lord woman GET LAID ALREADY!!.. love ya manda. Thats enough for me. Ignore the mistakes on the site. I need a few hours to relax, all the code is getting to my brain.. Capiche'!
Sunday March 14, 2004:
Ahhhhhhh!! (Breathes in the fresh smell of my fan burning in my PC....) Actually no, but just breathing in deep makes me all relaxed! Isn't this much better? To have so much room to write my little entry's now? I thought you would agree. If you want to read my past entry's just click the cute little link above this.
I went to see my friend Amanda yesturday. I am shocked at myself to even see why we were fighting for so long. Its like we never had any beef between us. I think you all have done that at one time or another. Fight with someone for years, then you go to think about it, 'Why am I fighting with that person?' Well the reason I had called her up is because, I am trying to become a better christian. Yes thats right! I know what you're thinking, lol. Seriously though, I am, and to become a better christian I need to make ammend's with people that I have wronged, or they have wronged me. So I called every person I every had problems with, vice versa, and fixed things. I figured if I do this, then God will be able to forgive me for my sins. So in the mix of this all, I was able to become good, good, friends with Amanda again. Thank GOD! It was nice getting to see her again, and catch up. I will write more another day. I think I have kept you little freak baby's entertained enough. Yeah thats it, I see you laughing at my expense. Just remember I choose to let all my readers no who I really am with this Blog. So if you think its boring, can't help ya there kid. This is my inner guts on some web space.. (I'm bold huh -wink- ). Talk to you freaks later.. Ciao...
Friday March 12, 2004:
Blogs are started to get sooooo fucking boring. So this is what I have done. I have added a few new pages to keep you guys interested in what I am doing. I am sick of every time I go to 'add' to the blog, I add nothing but updates. So what I have done is added a update marquee. So if you are the type that check here constantly on updates. Look at the marquee right above this. My day was so so boring, but I was able to work on the site some more. I promise my days are so much more involved then this lol. Check ya later freak baby's
Tuesday March 09, 2004:
WELL HI!! I have checked the #'s and people are flocking to the site. I appreciate all the support, bada bing bada boom, heh. I have added something, dedicated to Amanda. Its for you people that love grabbing those little extras off of someone else's site, but you cant because of that little sob Right Click Disabler. Well I have fixed that, click on Anti No Right Click to find out how to disable it. To my Dad: I really hope that you check this site, at least a little. I love you and miss you already. I had a great visit the other day, and look forward to more visits before you LeaveAgain, thanks for the support, Sincerely Jamie.
Sunday March 07, 2004:
I just had a visit with my Dad. I would say this was one of our greater visits. He was able to stay for a long period of time, this time, which I was very happy about. Btw dad, you left your glasses here, lol. I am really going to miss you, I am not taking it very well, but I will get over it.. and just deal with it. To my other readers... You guys have got to check out our Featured Site: Nascar Fan. It will make you piss your self. More audio to download, and coming soon.. flash files..w0o0o0o. Later
Saturday March 06, 2004:
I have added a few more things for my viewers. I have added the audio content, with imagery, fun links, and a chat room. I have received some feedback from friends, and they love it. So check it out!! Also, I have added a few friends sites to mine. If you would like to be added, just simple click the contact button. I will get it asap. Talk to you guys later.
Friday March 05, 2004:
I have updated just a tad. My dads blog is up and running. Sorry to you freaks that want to check it out, (passy protected). Don't freak though, this site will be filled with stuff for you to do. My personal info page is up as well. Just a few adjustments here and there.
To my dad, I hope you like the site that I created for us. I hope that we will use this as much as I have planned. (Only took me 2 days lmao). Thats all for now.
Everyone check back for updates. In a few days, your favorites are coming back, thats right. Celebrity pics, with my personal caption added..
Thursday March 04, 2004:
This site is inspired by Blahgasm.com . Click there to see what inspired me to decide to do a Blog. To be honest with you, blogs are so boring! They are usually filled with nothing but text text text, and very dry might I add. I personally can not stand reading them. He makes every single entry worth reading. They're always filled with some kind of comedic humor, or very heart felt feelings. I just fell in love with it. In fact its even my homepage.
Now on to the good stuff. This site is yesa blog, but the good part is. I love comedy, love it, love it, love it. So I figured why not have somewhat a blog/monologue type site, that's right! I am going to add audio files, flash files, and of course my favorite, TV's complete fuck ups with my own personal captions.
Please keep in mind I just started this site less then 3 hours ago. I will soon be adding more and more to the content. Keep checking back, you never know when the good shit is coming in.
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