sooooo---what else is rolling through my mind? i know, what is it with liking someone and wanting to be around them? what is it about their physical presence that makes you bubbly and giggly inside. can i tell you a little secret? i HATE liking someone! it makes me feel like a giddy school girl. and you know me, i'm not the kind to be giddy. i'm more silly, but not giddy! i like to feel as if i had more control over myself and my emotions, but when i like someone--whoo boy! it's all over me! i act like a fool. i think about them all day--back to the web in the head thing again (he's always hovering in my head)--and i want to talk to them about little silly stuff.

i blush. my voice changes. i flirt (unknowingly). i want to cuddle. i want to hug and be hugged. i want to be around him. i want him to compliment me. i want to show him that he's special. i want him to believe in himself. i want him to believe in me. i want him to smile whenever he thinks of me and sigh 'cause i'm not right there. i want to shore him up. i want to talk to him. i get all romantic and silly---aaargh! i want to cook for him--show him how much i care. i want to be sweet and loving. i'm not a big "i love you" person, though. it's not my love language.