| Loneliness Every night, I feel it creeping into my skin, Into my soul, Into my heart And with every step it takes I feel myself die a little more A part of me that is killed slowly Taken from me by a cold hand That reaches into the deepest depths of my soul And stays there, until it has killed enough And every night I lay myself to sleep And pray that it will leave me at peace I feel a dark cloud moving over me Coming closer and closer Moving into my body Taking all the love and energy I have left But there you are Ready to save me You reach me your hand Tough I walk away I deny the happiness I could have Fear of the (un)known Life ... love So close yet so far Every day I look up and see the sky I can't see the beauty it brings Once I could, but with every day I get a little more hurt And every day I care less Have less and less emotions Yet I feel fear Fear to take a step A step closer to a new beginning A new start Full of surprises Maybe a new way of living A loving full way I really don't know Every day I get more and more scared To get hurt Hurt by a new love By a new life A new start? So I thought ... Dark clouds moving over me Then I see Suddenly A bright light Could this be my saviour? Clouds moving past me A kiss A gentle kiss A new start So I thought Then I see that it was just a dream Too good to be true A heart wanting too much Having the need to be loved And not getting it A deep hurt moving into me Like a sharp knife Making a large wound And then the same pain I thought I was rid off Feelings ... Still feelings of hurt No one to love me And then you lying there With your love Your life And me Having no one No one to take care of me No one to hold me tight And then feelings of hurt Abandonment Loneliness Feelings I hate Feelings I just want to get rid off Why do I always feel this way? If I hate those feelings ... Why can't I just ban those feelings out of my system? And then you ask me what's wrong Why I feel that way ... When I'm surrounded by people By the people I care about the most?! Darkness I feel you moving closer A dark entity entering the room And yes, there you are My dark prince My pure sense of power And there lies my book of Satan All the power you bring You filled my life with the power of carrying on My sense for living My true self Dark clothes People watching me, wherever I go Strange looks, staring I enjoy the attention I get It gives me power, A great feeling People being scared of me Doing everything to get me off Away from their lives But they can try Ever succeed, No they won't I won't let them That pleasure I will never grant them Because if I do I will loose my power My sense for living And so I live my life Making others fear me Making others feel strange whenever I'm around |
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