Anyway, I feel very comfortable with myself and it's most important to me how Matt fees about me. And quite frankly, I feel that I must be OKAY, especially to be able to have a partner as special as Matt.
I find it so intriguing how my definition of sex appeal has changed since high school. I remember the simple excitement of catching a quick glance of a bouncing penis in the shower after gym and looking forward to going to gym another day to look at another. Now my thoughts of how a man is sexually appealing have developed into something so much more intense and difficult to put into words.
Until Next time.
BrYaN
Well that was just one entry by a Journalist whose work I enjoy reading. You may be asking yourself why I have duplicated these entry in its entirety. Well I have been lucky enough to be in love twice in my life but neither time, at least as far as I remember them, were this intense. My second love was the more intense of the two. The best example of my obsession is that I can remember calling his answering machine when he was out of town on more than one occasion because I loved the sound of his voice. I remember how I couldn't help but smile and tingle all over when he walked into a room. But I must admit even at the beginnings of my deep attraction to him I recognized his flaws large and small. I never went through a period when those flaws went unnoticed. The kind of deep attraction that BrYaN describes was similar to what I remember but even more intense. On second thought the intensity may have been the same it just may be that he is more eloquent than I could ever hope to be. Reading his words made me want to share them with more people. It also made me what to put them somewhere where I could easily look at them again when ever I despaired of finding love myself. It is out there. Not everyone experiences it, not everyone who does keeps it or gets a second chance but his words reminds me that that brass ring is out there to be grabbed.
This has been a long entry, though little has been in my own words I feel it is time to go.
ciao
