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Partnership and Sex Appeal!
Sex Appeal means more to me than simply seeing a physically hot looking man and thinking to myself "man, I really want to jump that dude's bones". There are so many factors involved in how I consider someone's sex appeal. The way a person looks at me, breaths, walks and moves, neatness or sloppiness, the way their hair moves in the wind, right down to the way they smell all have an important place as to whether or not they have sex appeal. No, it's not a test where a guy has to score a particular percentage in each category with a certain average. They are however, things that are important to me.
Matt and I have celebrated 17 months together and it's not the goal of this writing to try to glorify him to everyone or to get all syrupy about things, but how I feel about him, how he makes me feel when he is near me, or even when he is away and I'm just thinking about him has so much to do with how I would define or discuss "sex appeal". I can honestly say that my views and personal definition of sex appeal has definitely changed in the past 17 months, and I'm sure that as I grow closer to Matt they will constantly expand and change.
The first day I saw Matt I was sitting in a chair waiting for class to begin, it was the first day and practically every face coming though the door was new. I looked up when a body appeared very close to me and it was Matt. our eyes just seemed to lock in on each other. It wasn't his face that made my glance turn into a stare; it was more than that it was the feelings that were emanating from behind his eyes. Just the way he was looking at me made me feel comfortable, excited, wanted. He didn't have to say a word it was like we connected instantly. From behind his eyes, I could sense him extending friendship. It was so thrilling and definitely falls within my personal definition of total sex appeal.
Of course I feel that Matt is one of the sexiest men in the known universe: and yes, he has the biggest sexiest eyes I've ever seen in the world, but it's what's behind them that I find so very appealing, The sense of security, love and caring that radiates from them is the most appealing thing in the world.
It's funny how this non-verbal communication has developed between us over the past year. Sometimes just by looking at each other we can cover an entire conversation and know exactly how the other feels without one nod of the head or blink of the eye. The rest of my friends pick up on our private unspoken conversations from time to time and call it spooky. LOL
One of the most sexually appealing things to me (about Matt) is how he smells. (Okay guys, I mean this in a nice way). I mean there is nothing more appealing to me in the world than lying next to Matt and smelling his natural self mixed with a slight scent of his deodorant, and the small amount of Polo Cologne he applies down the center of his chest, stomach, and a little lower (specifically for me). This combination is the most incredible, arousing, appealing thing in the world. I really don't know how else to say it, but his natural aroma can put me in the most euphoric mood. It's so difficult to explain how secure and good I feel just laying in Matt's bed buried in his sheets and blankets inhaling deeply. When Matt heads out for the weekends to either his mom or dad's house or if I'm away Matt is such a cutie and acts like he accidentally leaves a couple of his tee shirts that were destined for the laundry bag laying out on my bed. He knows that for me just wearing one of those tee shirts to bed makes me feel so secure and even though he's not there, it's the next best thing! I love to put Matt's bathrobe on and just inhale, hmmmmmmmm. Unfortunately, I usually end up having to give that back to him.:-( The first thing I do When I hug Matt is to inhale as I hold him tightly. There is nothing more appealing!
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