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Staffel, Megan.  The Notebook of Lost Things.  New York:  Soho Press, 1999.
    This book really came as a surprise, not having realized that Megan Staffel, a faculty advisor from my own school, had recently published a novel.  (Excuse me whilst I pull my head out of my posterior.)  Furthermore, it fits right in with the kinds of fiction I've been fascinated with and have been studying, and even shares a few things in common with my own novel.  Chiefly: lonely people in a small town, converging through happenstance and eventually finding some kind of peace or meaning in their existence, and maybe shrugging off a little of that loneliness.  Likewise, it's not long-winded and doesn't waste an extra moment on anything that's not vital to the story at hand. 

     This novel is rife with the little mysteries that too often go unsolved in our lives, and Staffel does a fine job of not including everything and the kitchen sink, instead concentrating on a few important, poignant events that have been unknown or unexplained for the small group of characters in the novel, and on which the story hinges.  One very important pitfall this book happily avoids is the overabundance of family history/mysteries.  I see this all too often in fiction by women writers (easy, now--men writers have their flaws, too) and I'm grateful it doesn't make an appearance in Notebook. 

     Likewise, Staffel chooses to concentrate on a small handful of important characters, not swamping the reader with too many names to remember.  Each character is then allowed her or his own voice and portrayed vividly.  Most central is Uta, the short, stout mother of two who survived the fire-bombing of Dresden and came to America, where quite by accident she found happiness on a farm with bookseller name William, who happened to be a dwarf.  Though she dies before the events in the novel, we get to know her from others' accounts of her, as well as a few instances of her past, from her perspective.  (Including her thoughts just before her untimely death; that chapter made me want to bawl like a baby.)  William and Uta's daughter, Helene, miss her practically at every moment in their daily routines, despite her having been gone for two years, and it's essentially that hole that drives the story and brings the other characters, each of them driven by some form of loneliness, into the fold. 

     So many of the mysteries of our lives don't need to be, they simply result from a fear of finding out the truth, whatever it may be.  The fear that whatever should be discovered will be worse than whatever has always been believed is a powerful one, and it prevents William from ever asking Uta's hand in marriage:
    So why hadn't he brought up the question in all the years that followed?  Some night when she came to his room, before she tiptoed out early in the morning to feed the dog and the chickens and greet the day, why hadn't he just whispered in her ear, Will you marry me?
     She wouldn't have answered right away because she wouldn't have known what the word meant.  So then he would have had to explain it and while he did that he would have had to watch her face.  He would have seen the moment when she understood, and the moment after that, he would have seen the answer, and he was scared because he had a feeling it wouldn't have been yes (111-112).
In the book as in life, the answers are right there staring the characters in the face; they simply have to find the courage to take a look, and this begins with Helene's prodding her boyfriend, Harry, a 57-year-old bar owner and lifelong bachelor, who ordinarily can't think of anything but getting into women's pants.  She simply asks him to look out his window and find something new to talk about, and he resists like the proverbial horse who won't drink the water.  Eventually he does, and he happens to see two teens above a store in an upper story that should be closed, and it sets in motion the story.  This was the only slightly troublesome part of the novel, that the beginning took a little while to get going, while I had to sit through Helene's annoying "testing" of Harry, and of course his stubborn refusal to think of anything but sex.  I write this with a little trepidation because I'm unsure if it will bother other readers; likely it's my own dislike of women who "test" their men, as if life wasn't enough of a test.  But the novel does pick up, and Harry is allowed to grow out of his stereotypical beginning, and Helene proves to be much more than just an annoying test proctor.  That's what the novel's about after all--moving past that fear of loss to really live and enjoy life for what it's worth. 

     So often the characters' loneliness results in or from a kind of altruistic thought.  For example, William feels that no one would want to live with him if they really had the choice, so he tries to tell Helene she can move one, as if this would do her good:
    "Helene, if you ever want to go, you don't need to take care of me.  I want you to remember that.  You owe me nothing.  We're not blood relatives and you can forget me if that's what you need to do."
     She looked up and in the low evening light he could see Uta's face behind hers.  Uta had the same green eyes and grayish blond hair, the same wide cheeks.
     "Go if you want," he said.
     "But I don't want.  I want to stay" (48).
Later, when trying to console William, Helene discovers to her surprise that Uta and William had been lovers all along, and realizes it wasn't so surprising after all, and what importance it holds for them:
    "Don't you see?"  Helene reached across the dark space to find William's hand but he wouldn't give it to her.  "Don't you see?  It had nothing to do with that.  She was afraid to proclaim anything.  Because once you say what you have, once you say where you are, you lose it.  She couldn't have gone through that again.  She kept it a secret because she thought that was the only way it would stay with her.  It was the only way she thought she would stay safe.  She'd lost everything once, she'd lost our two fathers, her city, her family, her friends, and she was afraid it would happen again.  Don't you see that, Papa?" (205).
Like anyone who suffered, Uta did not want to relive the events, so she wrote them down in what becomes the title of this book. 

     This "Notebook of Lost Things" is Uta's account, written in the hard years of Germany's reconstruction after the war, of the things she remembered that no longer existed, primarily in Dresden.  She scrawled them in a children's school journal in her small handwriting, and wrote of these things either so that they would not be lost altogether, or so that she would no longer have to torture herself with thoughts of them, to keep them alive.  Helene finds the book as she goes through Uta's room clearing out her possessions, and has to recall her German in order to translate the parting gift of secrets from her mother. 

     Fiction calls for extremes. 
Notebook does a fine job of balancing the extremes of emotion and experience its characters endure with the seemingly mundane things in life that really are as important.  A person who lives a happy domestic life isn't interesting, until you learn that she survived Dresden, and consequently is fearful of loss.   A bookseller isn't a big deal, until you learn that he's a dwarf and didn't find happiness until a German immigrant and her children came into his store asking for help.  A half-Mexican schoolgirl isn't interesting until you find out her mother is starving her nearly to death.  A novel's characters don't have to fly to the moon or save the world to keep the reader interested, but there does have to be something compelling in its characters' lives, and that's what Staffel has provided here, though in the words of Helene, she seems perhaps a little conflicted about it:  "Helene turned to him.  'Ordinary life doesn't have to be taken to its extremes to be interesting.  Sometimes simple mysteries are more provocative' " (191-192).  True, but it's surprising what kind of extremes the average person has had to live through.  Anyone can know fear of failure and loneliness, which Staffel wonderfully captures in her novel. 



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