My Family 

Step after step I’d stumble, Trying to find that missing piece in my life, Nothing could fill up the emptiness that burnt right through me
Sometimes I would fall & I'd stumble in è dark, Onli 2 realise that I’ve been going round in circles.... 
For all the while u had your arms around me, Protecting me and loving me..
I don’t know what took me so long, But now I know…
You’re the missing piece in my life.. You make me so complete.. So loved…

Ivan & Shirleen 18th Feb '04
the words you spoke whispered my name..
raised the very soul i'd banished to hell.. as i stand bare before you..
the courage i have to find to look u in the eye.... heartbreakingly beautiful.. 
like a soul that's walked this earth a thousand times.. heartbreakingly beautiful..
the glimpses of courage.. is it not truth i see in your eyes.. pure and untouched.... so heartbreakingly beautiful..
 

Its really ironic and splendid and amazing how life works.. These buddies of mine.. our paths just seem to intertwine.. Grace was my MGS schoolmate.. Joshua & Rosalie were my CJC classmates.. and we were inseparable since then.. really had hell lotta fun with them back in CJC.. Jocelyn too was from CJC and then by fate.. we all met again in NYP.. as CLASSMATES!! i love these people.. we've seen each other through sooooo much!! Love each other through bitchy times, loveable times, crazy exam rushing, projects, kopitiams, seen each other fall & soar.. how much more could i ask for?  

Claire Bear!! my princess who practically went through everything similar to me.. our lives are like the carbon copies of each other.. she truly understands my pisses & crazies.. like i do YOU too!! i love you for the special bond and ease we have.. its real real real real special!! 

My 7 brothers!! the people who brought me high up into the sky.. who treated me like a little princess.. spoilt me rotten.. who just somehow love me alot despite my quirks.. you people are WEIRDOs!!!!!!! i'll never ever ever forget all that you've given to me.. one of the times that i wish i could return to.. and that'd be.. back to you guys.. 

Ms Clarissa Tan / Su !! the special woman in my life.. falls in second behind my mum.. somehow when i got to your picture, your wedding song played on my win player.. this splendid lady touched my life in more ways than i can count.. i think i did many things to break her heart.. but i really hope one day she'll come to understand why i did the things i did.. the love that spills outta her.. just amazes me so much.. just wish that i could be your Hui Shan again.. but i guess that's life.. people have their own lives to get on with.. and i guess i've been left behind with all those memories..  thoughts of you brings tears to my eyes.. truly.. if only you know how much missed and thought of you are.. thank you for everything..