I would climb the highest mountain to hold you in my arms; swim the deepest ocean to look in your eyes; and walk the sierra desert to kiss your sweet lips. You are my salvation, you are my safe haven and I'm afraid that I will fail you. I want to make you proud of me and live up to the beliefs that you have in me, but I don't know if I can. I feel as though I am already failing you, though you may not see it that way. You see me with your love and I see me with my insecurities and fears. I don't know where I'm going in life or how I'm gonna get there, but I do know that if I didn't have you I wouldn't care where I ended up. On my own, if I failed in my goals then I would only be failing myself and that I could live through, but now that your love has filled my heart and you fill my every thought, if I'm a failure in life then I fail also you and Jazzie and that would break my heart like nothing else. I couldn't live knowing that I let you down. You have affected my life so deeply that everything I do or try to do, I do for you. I think constantly about what you would think of what I am doing and how it would make you feel. I think of my growing thoughts of my failures and wonder what you really think, but still in my heart I know that it truly doesn't matter to you. You have belief in my future success but I know if I fail, breaking my own heart because I let you down, it would not change your thoughts of me. I know that even in my own mind if I fail you, you will not feel that I have.
I used to think that I wasn't good enough for you and still I think you are too good to be true and I'm the luckiest person to have found you, but now I think we are perfect for eachother. We were made for each other and fit together like we were made from one mold and were broken apart so we could gain separate experiences and later reunite so we could be put back together and grow again as one. Neither of us is better than the other, but there is no one else that is better for us than each other. Forever is ours to discover on wings as delicate as the wind that grow out of love. In the silence of the night I can hear my heart crying your name and feel your own heart answering back. I need you like the air I breathe, like the water I drink, and like the food I eat.
Lisa, I love you with the heart that is yours and the soul that I share with you. |
