Welcome to 2003. I thought since it's a new year I would give my diary a little bit of a new look. I didn't exactly start the year the way I had hoped to, not even close actually, but not much could be done for that. Only about 360 days to go before I can try again for the new year's eve that I want, haha. Of course, I had wanted to start the year with my gurl. If we were here together we could have walked down to the river onto the sandbank where the water has gone down and walked along the water's edge till we found a nice little secluded spot, spread out a blanket and sat cuddled up together under another blanket watching the moon and the stars while talking and listening to some music we took along. At midnight we could have shared a sweet kiss, then later gone home to warm up in a nice bubble bath together in each other's arms. OR we could have gone to my friend's house where I had gone and sat together on the couch watching the movies that we had watched and started the year with a quick kiss. Either would have been perfect. She was there starting the year with me though as I couldn't think of anything but her and at midnight said a silent wish to her. I talk a lot to her in my head, it's probably good she can't read my mind, though sometimes I do wish telepathy worked. I keep trying, lol.
I have a few resolutions this year, most are repeats of last year that I never managed to accomplish. The main ones for this year are to write more, I want either a complete screenplay or a complete novel by the end of the year and also to be fully out to everybody and openly lesbian in public by the end of the year. Coming out I am definately doing this year, no one is going to stop me because they aren't ready for everyone to know I like gurls. Stopping me last year is one thing, but that isn't going to happen this year. My life, my decision, my future. A new day has come and it's all mine.
Hey Lisa I got a secret, I love you more than life, more than breath, and more than chocolate;) Always. |
