some entries have been taken from various diaries of mine
I hate how people just throw those words around fag, gay, dyke, homo. Why do people say something is so gay instead of saying what they mean, it is so stupid? Why do they associate gay with stupid and stupid with gay. And I hate when someone says so and so is gay because of some fucking stereotype.
I'm not a fuckin' stereotype, I'm me.
I'm not a fuckin' catagory, I'm me.
I'm not a fuckin' fag, queer, dyke, butch, femme, tomboy, I AM ME!! Fuck I hate all these titles and catagories, words that mean shit and only are used to make a person feel about an inch tall and all alone in the world.
I AM ME
Part of being me means I like girls instead of boys but I am also a girl with thoughts, ideas, feelings, desire, love, hate. I bleed, I cry, I eat, I sleep, I'm just like everyone else and like everyone else I have a few differences but why must the focus be on differences instead of similarities? Fuck I hate catagories, small minded people, and feeling like I am locked inside my own head without a way out.
Why do I need to be scared or even care what people will think of my sexuality? Why must I be concerned with losing my friends and family because I am a lesbian, if they truly care about me now knowing one more thing about me shouldn't change that since it doesn't affect them who I sleep with, they won't be present when we are in bed. Yes I will hold hands in public, kiss in public, hug, and dance, and I will not stop because people think it is wrong or sinful because it is not wrong, my love is not wrong, no love is wrong and no love is chosen either, it just happens. I love girls, and I will show it just as soon as I stop being so god damned scared of losing everyone!
I got another forward today from a different friend, guess what this one said..."You're still a homo!" You think it's a sign telling me to come out?