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| I stand looking out the window contemplating my future when you walk in the room I turn feeling the world rest heavily upon my shoulders I see you and all I want is to fly out the window to float away on the breeze my mind is heavy with questions who can I ask? I ponder the possibilities gaze at the glory hope for happiness that seems a world away trapped behind iron bars tears that melt the sand pain that scorches the sun I look in your eyes how beautiful you are how I ache to hold you in my arms feel your heart beating against mine we melt into each other two souls become one I love the way you laugh I love the way you smell I love your simple ignorance my arms reach for you a barrier stops my touch my tender caress fingers tracing the line of your jaw eyes tracing the line of your body my heart jumps how can I feel these things? what am I thinking? we stand together miles apart my heart cries when you leave the room flutters when you enter my mind condemns my heart breaks my spirit my hope I die why? why? why? such untouchable feelings such pain you inflict upon my soul ignorance everybody's ignorance what am I? who am I? I am me if only I knew who me was my breathing stops my heart ceases to beat I wait for rebirth will it ever come? the truth knowing understanding I love what I can�t have I want what is forever out of reach how can I think I love when love is so foreign? when we are two people worlds apart I struggle to understand to answer the questions my heart already knows what my mind can�t seem to figure out I love I hate I want I need I can�t ever have I need to find another one just for me how? where? |
| travel the world searching for another you you that I can have that can have me that knows me and wants me and loves me as I do you how I wish to feel your lips on mine our breaths mingling and becoming one as I want to become one with you my arms holding you to me your eyes puddles of love a feeling so sweet a look so kind a touch that burns leave your mark on me I want you to be mine I want the world to know me but I don�t know me who am I? what am I? I love I hate I want I need let me breathe you in hold you in my heart feel your lingering kiss on my soul oh, how I desire you each step you take the way you arch your eyebrow the way you speak your words I want it everyday anyway open your heart to me open your soul your mind your body to me let me touch you the way I want you to touch me fire in my fingers heaven in your embrace I�ll give myself to you completely if only you knew the power you hold over me in every move in every word in everything you do you draw me to you wanting something, everything and getting nothing I don�t want to wake up alone anymore I don�t want to live in a world of questions let my heart lead the way if only it wouldn�t frighten you away I live by believing in one�s day and some day soon but knowing with you that day will never come I must leave escape from your power drowning in my desires haunted by my hopelessness we are worlds apart though we stand together how long will we stand together? after you know the truth see the person that is hiding behind this mask I am a wolf in sheep�s clothing I am a dagger in the cookie jar I am a friend but want to be more I must reveal myself remove this hideous mask here I am what do you think? don�t run don�t question I have run enough for us both I have questioned enough for everyone but this is me please don�t leave me you said it would not change that everything would be the same why are you looking at me like that? I am the wolf but I will not bite unless asked I am the dagger but I will not prick unless invited I will remain a friend and nothing more just don�t banish me from you life I could not live I die I cry I love but I know I can have no more and I will survive without your touch your tender embrace our hearts beating together our breaths dancing on the air your eyes blind to my desires your heart barred from my grasping emotion but I will have you in my dreams my fantasies in my world we are together dancing on the clouds floating on the breeze kissing in the meadow making love on the mountains you are mine if only in my mind no more no less questions beat inside my mind answers speak inside my heart I stumble along a broken path unsure which direction to take will any lead to you? I doubt I hope I love I hate I want I need I cry I die I survive I love you in my heart I question you in my mind and you answer in my every breath standing by the window gazing at the clouds I wish to float away on the summer breeze feel your embrace in the night air feel your kiss in the clouds I leave my world and enter yours we are apart as we are together one and one not making two like apples and oranges we can�t be added together we can only stand together worlds apart I love you in my dreams dreams are all I have with you. |
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