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This has been a long time comming. We have been in a sort of stand still as far as Eva's plans on going ahead with transition. Life takes a lot out of people, but we are strong, and we know from Where our strength comes from. And with that we hope and pray that his comming year will be the one that Eva has been trying to get to! The goal of being my woman. She realy has no choise, for one it's now or never that's what she feels and I'm totaly in her courner. Two, she has been putting it off for so many reasons and it's time she put herself first for once!
If there be any one thing that makes me happy, is that the love of my life be content. And in this I find true joy! So with that I say a prayer and hope of things yet to come, my Eva content.
It has been some time now since I have last wrote. For so many reasons, some good others bad and still just part lazy. Eva and I are trying to get back on track after the last year. Or as I call it, the LOST year! At any rate we are just trying our best to do what is right for our children and the rest of the family!
Thanks to all for your e-mail's. And if all that I do is make you cry, I hope that it's for the right resons. But just rember, I realy enjoy getting your e-mail's. Just like so many of you, I need encouragement too!
Hope to have some good news soon of were things are going for Eva and I!
And for some very good news. Eva and I have started an on-line store! We hope to be able to make things work, not just for Eva's sake but for the whole family!! There is a link on the OTHER GIRLS PAGE.
Any how, if you have time check it out. Keep in mind, that it is just getting started and we have more yet to do. It's called the Pearl Street Parlor
Then there is always hope that you will send us an e-mail and tell us what you think of how the site looks!
Take care, and hope you have a lovely day!
Sure I have troubles, some days it's just way to much. But then I think of how bad it must be for my sweety! She is the one who has to live in the wrong body all the time. I love her and so this thought makes me sad, but I do strongly think that she is kind of waiting on things. Waiting out of respect for her mother! And of course we know that The hand of God will guide her to the place she is trying to reach!
And as for me, I have been doing okay with things. Thankyou ever so much for stopping by to read just how crazy I truthfuly am!
So we have not yet found a new job yet. Eva drives about an hour now to work, and it's hard for us to do that. But well, we are going to figure this out soon. And some how we need to find a way to bring in more money, so Eva can keep going down that road that leads to her goal's of being a WOMAN!
Well, I have to say.......
Sorry that it has been so very long. We have just moved into our new house! And let me tell you, after being with out a place to live for a month well it just feels great. The new house is what we were looking for, and it's very much our HOME.
Yes, God has been very good to us. And now Eva and I are trying to find a way to start up were we left off after moving for a wile in with the family. Well she had to stop most evrything that she was working on.This was not something I wanted at all!After all , just how many crazy wifes are out there who, get mad and depressed to see that there soul mate is not turning into her princess charming! I have little use for any man, exept that we have two kids out of what my EVA used to be!!!
I am not sure what to say, but that life is hard for most. And this year has not been to kind! But though it all God has been right by my side!!
Eva has been so very sick with depression and lots of guilt. That it's so hard to see the real her. But going off her pill's and the death of a family member will do that.
And that is making me go crazy! And it's not like I have some one to vent out my anger out on. That's what Eva is for.
On a much happier note, Eva asked me to remarry her! And give me the wedding that I have longed for. You see, I had this wounderful dream of how it should have been. But well Eva just would'nt wait for a full year to pass before we wed. I said Christmas, and she wanted July!
When the time comes, I'll have pictures!
Well I just loved getting the first good snow fall of the year. We went out and got our Christmas Tree over the weekend. And ended up close to the end of feild, but Eva found a very nice eight foot tree!
And well speaking of EVA, she is doing what I think is very well on her pills. She is very up beat over the changes that are going on with herself ! And that makes me very happy.
So this is it. After not writing for many moons, I'm getting it done. In the past few months Eva has started on HRT. And she is doing great. All things are changing, but this time in a very good way for us!
Over the past few weeks, I've been thinking about how my life has changed and what I'm going to do with it!
I could choose to be silent, or go on writing about my life. (Beth the wife of a transsexual) Because I want people out there to know, that my life is in God's hands. And nothing is to big or small for Him!
I'm greatful that life has some good moments mixed in with all the other stuff that's not so good. Like a bright sunny day, or the sound of a freind's voice!
As of last week, we have put our home up for sale. We would like to be able to have some options in life, and well Eva is more importiant to me than some old house that has a huge family of skunks under it!
Just last week I was out in the yard getting some flowers for the kitchen table, turned around to go back inside and there thay were! Our dog Rebel did'nt even bark at them.
I hope to get started on a prayer request page in the futer. But right know i am very hard at keeping the house clean so people can come look at the house. Of course the great trick there is how two keep to small boys from destroying it!
I have been ever so slowly distancing myself from friends, family and the church we belong to. My family, for the most part only care about one thing and one thing only. Thier reputation !!!!! And then my friends and church. I put them together, because a lot of my friends atend the same church! These are poeple who are way too judgemental and are so worried about other's that thay have lost most poeple who are not related to them. And you ask which church is it ? I have gone to the same church since I was in diapers, but I am not a born and bred Mennonite! DON'T get me wrong, there are a lot of good ones out there.It's just very hard with the way most of them believe!!
Things are getting to be so crazy in my head. My thought's are now centered on how to make my Eva into the woman who has become the best part of my life!!
I have come to love her so much!To the very point it pains me to see The man. Okay let me just say that I despize the man who comes home to me evry night after work. (I want my wife)
The life that I have chosen makes me very glad in my heart! Sadness when I think of all that may or may not be lost when my Eva comes out.
Well on a lovely note, I told my best freind a few months ago about Eva! She is very understanding about things and is a true gift from the gates of Heaven! Thanks Nettie
I love the moments that Eva and I have shared. And I have found that I love having a very close girl freind, one that is always there for me! We have no clue just how much of woman Eva will become, but I love her very much!
I just had something wrote down and forgot to save it! So I'll try to do my best.
The way I feel about life with my Eva, is that I love her. She always talks about becoming more of a real woman. And then that starts a huge talk on why not, why not become one!
I listen for a long time to what she is telling me, and make some coffee. And get settled in for a wile, but with great love and respect for some one who deside to go through life evan when life is against her.
How crazy of me, to fall for a wounderful and soft hearted man. Only to find he realy is a woman at heart!
Well I Just have to say that with two little boys, it makes evrything harder for us. But we have gotten this far with things, so who knows what else is in our reach!
A new year and wow! Well we desided that Eva will wait awhile to become more of a woman. Out of respect for some of our family member's.
But I would say that the most wounderful and awsome thing that has come out of all this, is that I have found what was missing in my life! A Woman!!
So now things are much better than thay have ever been in my! And for Eva and I life is great. Yes with many new prolblems, but we look forward to life as two people who love each other!
My name is Beth. And after being married for a little over two years and almost two kids, my sparky brings up that he has something he needs to tell me! At first when he told me, I was in daze for a few weeks. I broke down and he stayed home from work , and we talked and talked some more!
And that was when I told him that I loved him so very much. And when we married I made a vow to him and to God! That my love would always be there for as long as he needed me to be!
There was a lot of hurt feelings on both sides, but I loved the new sparky ! And know she is my best friend !
We are not sure just were God will lead us. But I know with the faith that Eva and I share in Christ, we will always have hope! Throught the joy and pain.