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December 08, 1998
I've always gotten much inspiration from Beethoven. As far as composers go, he was a late bloomer... composing his first composition at the age of eighteen, which was rather late in comparison to some of the other child prodigies, like Mozart. He also had to overcome his impending deafness. By the time he reached thirty he was almost completely deaf, but over half of his works were composed AFTER the age of thirty! His "inner-ear" was his guiding light in what he HAD to do in life. I just admire that in him, being able to conquer his biggest hurdle, of being a talented musician and composer and having to lose his hearing, the very thing he loved most dearly out of life! I suppose he realized he had a responsibility greater than himself, and that was to give the world that which he had heard from his "inner-ear"... Excerpt from Beethoven's "Heiligenstadt Testament" "...what humiliation for me, when someone standing near me heard a flute in the distance and I heard nothing, or someone heard the sheperd singing and again I heard nothing. Such incidents brought me almost to despair; a little more and I would have ended my life. Only my ART held me back. Ah, it seemed to me impossible to leave the world until I had produced all that I felt was within me..." When I compare myself to him, I realize
he had bigger obstacles than me, and he left this Earth victorious.
In my own struggles, my obstacle had always been my inferiority complex,
for years not having the confidence in myself to carry on my calling...
to become successful in music. When I think of Beethoven I
feel better knowing that he struggled harder than me with his problems
and succeeded. Because of this noble struggle, I feel a sense of
confidence toward enduring my own obstacles. I'll always have
Beethoven to thank for in helping me get through some of my darkest hours...
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