Aum Gung Ganapathaye Namah
Namo tassa bhagavato arahato samma-sambuddhassa
Homage to The Blessed One, Accomplished and
Fully Enlightened
In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most
Merciful
Test Diary
A Collection of Articles, Notes and References
Chapter 34
(November 2006)
(Revised: Wednesday, December 27, 2006)
By
A Pseudo Monk
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By any other name would smell as sweet.
- William Shakespeare
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8 "... Freely you
received, freely give”.
-
Matthew 10:8 :: New American Standard Bible (NASB)
The attempt to make God just in the eyes of sinful men will always
lead to error.
- Pastor William L. Brown.
1 “But mark this: There will be terrible
times in the last days.
2 People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their
parents, ungrateful, unholy,
3 without
love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good,
4 treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of
God—
5 having a
form of godliness but denying its
power. Have
nothing to do with them.
6 They are the kind who worm their way into homes and gain control over weak-willed women, who are loaded down with sins and are swayed by all
kinds of evil desires,
7 always learning but never able to acknowledge the truth.
8 Just as Jannes and Jambres opposed Moses, so
also these men oppose the
truth--men of
depraved minds, who, as far as
the faith is concerned, are rejected.
9 But they will not get very far because, as in the case of those
men, their folly
will be clear to everyone.”
-
2 Timothy 3:1-9 :: New International Version (NIV)
The right to be left alone – the most comprehensive of rights, and the right most valued by a free people
-
Justice Louis Brandeis, Olmstead v.
15 I know thy works, that
thou art neither cold nor hot: I would
thou wert cold or hot.
16 So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.
-
Revelation 3:15-16 :: King James Version (KJV)
6 As he saith also in another place, Thou art a priest for ever after the order of Melchisedec.
-
Hebrews 5:6 :: King James Version (KJV)
3 Without father, without mother, without descent, having neither beginning of days, nor end of life; but made like unto the Son of God; abideth a priest continually.
- Hebrews 7:3 :: King James Version (KJV)
Therefore, I say:
Know your
enemy and know yourself;
in a
hundred battles, you will never be defeated.
When you
are ignorant of the enemy but know yourself,
your chances
of winning or losing are equal.
If ignorant both of your
enemy and of yourself,
you are sure to be
defeated in every battle.
-- Sun Tzu, The Art of War, c. 500bc
There are two ends not to
be served by a wanderer. What are these two? The pursuit of desires and of the pleasure which springs from desire,
which is base, common, leading to rebirth, ignoble, and unprofitable; and the pursuit of pain and
hardship, which is grievous, ignoble, and unprofitable.
- The Blessed One, Lord Buddha
3 Neither let the son of
the stranger, that hath joined himself to
the LORD, speak, saying, The LORD hath utterly separated me from his people: neither let the eunuch say, Behold, I am a dry tree.
-
Isaiah 56:3 :: King James Version (KJV)
21 But this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.
-
Matthew
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I receive numerous letters of pathetic tales of dissipated, lost youth. The recent trend in the increase of vulgar, cheap and aphrodisiac literature and obscene films, both Indian and Western, had added to the miseries of misguided youth. Loss of the vital energy creates great fear in their mind. The body becomes weak, memory fails, the face becomes ugly and the young man is not able to remedy his pitiable condition due to shame. But there is no cause for despair. Even if a few of the hints in the following pages are observed, he will develop the correct attitude to life and will lead a disciplined spiritual life and ultimately attain supreme bliss.
Difference
between physiological pollution and pathological pollution
Spermatorrhoea is involuntary seminal discharge. Nocturnal discharge, night pollution, Svapna-Dosha, wet dream are all synonymous terms. Ayurvedic doctors call this disease Sukra-Megha. This is due to the evil habits in youth. In severe cases, discharges occur in daytime also. The patient passes semen along with urine during micturition. If there is occasional discharge, you need not be alarmed a bit. This may be due to heat in the body, or the pressure of loaded bowels or bladder on the seminal bags. This is not a pathological condition.
Night pollution is of two kinds, namely, physiological
pollution and pathological pollution. In
physiological pollution, you will be refreshed. You should not be afraid
of this act. You should not mind if the discharge
of semen is very occasional. You need not worry about it. This is also a slight
flushing of the apparatus or a periodical cleansing through a slight overflow
from the reservoir in which the semen is stored up. This act may not be
attended with evil thoughts. The person may not be aware of the act during the
night. Whereas, in pathological pollution,
the act is accompanied by sexual thoughts. Depression follows. There is
irritability, languishment, laziness, inability to work and concentrate.
Occasional discharges are of no consequence, but frequent nocturnal pollutions
cause depression of spirits, debility, dyspepsia, low
spirits, loss
of memory, severe pain in the back,
headache, burning of the eyes, drowsiness and burning sensation at urination or during the flow of
semen. The semen becomes very thin.
Causes
and consequences
Wet dreams and spermatorrhoea may be due to various causes like constipation, a loaded stomach, irritation-producing or wind-producing food, impure thoughts and long self-abuse done in ignorance.
Seminal weakness, nocturnal emissions, lascivious dreams and all other effects of an immoral life will surely lead one to a miserable state of living if not checked by proper medicines. But these medicines cannot produce a permanent cure. One can get temporary relief during the time one takes the medicine. Even doctors of the West admit that such medicines cannot effect a permanent cure. The moment the medicine is discontinued, the patient will find his disease all the worse. In some cases, the patient becomes impotent by the use of drugs. The only effective permanent cure can be had through the system of ancient Yoga. Nasti Yogat Param Balam. There is no strength higher than that of Yoga. The different methods given in this book will enable you to get success if practiced regularly.
(Reference: Swami Sivananda. (1997) Practice
of Brahmacharya. (WWW Edition) Himalayas,
Test Diary
November 2006
To continue
Thursday, November 02,
2006
To continue
0615 a.m. - 0617 a.m. 0:02 Leave New Module; to
general office; mark attendance
0617 a.m. - 0625 a.m. 0:08 To tea lounge; put
notes, headphones into bag; to toilet; urinal; wash hands, face, eyes, mouth;
wipe
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...monitoring...talking...
Written around 1103 a.m.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
0625 a.m. - 0642 a.m. 0:17 Food: Bakery bread x3, potatoe stew, half a
steamed banana, a glass of water, a cup of tea; wash utensils
0642 a.m. - 0645 a.m. 0:03 Exit Nila building
taking the steps nearest to the toilet, exit II floor, I floor, at ground floor
walk past Rangoli restaurant and ICFAI
0645 a.m. - 0654 a.m. 0:09 Walk to Technopark
gates
0654 a.m. - 0700 a.m. 0:06 Walk to Pallinada
busstop
0700 a.m. - 0713 a.m. 0:13 Wait for public bus
0713 a.m. - 0753 a.m. 0:40 City bus to Statue:
Red/Orange bus; bus fare – Rupees 7.50; bus no: KL-15.2989 TN950); catnap
0753 a.m. - 0758 a.m. 0:05 Walk back home
Around 0754 a.m.
An exclamation noted from
the Australian woman stalker...from a far away distance...as the man
disembarked from the bus...as if something untoward is about to happen...
Around 0758 a.m.
Huummm...va-li-ya che-ta
ae-yu-ti ka-la-nu...he wrote a big abuse...
- The sucker with deep emotion...to her
guardians...
Around 0754 a.m. to 0758
a.m.
Voices of the old woman
and the medical representative noted...watching the man more keenly...as he
walked along the
I wonder...if the rotten
bastard...that fecal matter...that asshole of a sucker...that bloody voyeur
woman...was staging another of her run-ins...in spite of 6+ years of
surveillance and stalking...
Shameless vermin, when is
this going to stop...go and eat some fecal matter...of some stray dog...that
will give more dignity...to women like you...than running after me to suck my
penis...Bastard!!...Go and ask your voyeur companion...that old woman...how to
drink the urine of a stray dog...straight from its hole...
Even if I call these
women voyeurs...bastard...thousands of times...for all the world to hear...it
is strange that these pieces of rotten, filthy flesh...do not feel
anything!!...
What sort of worms are these
sex predators?...
And they dress themselves
as women!...Shaking their extra flabs of meat...at unwanted places...covered
with colored attire...as if it will evoke passion...even to filthy dogs of the
road...
I wonder how a stray
dog...will mount this type of sex maniac women...to insert...
And such are
women!!...bleeding for sex...
Written around 0813 a.m.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Revised around 0910 a.m.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
0758 a.m. - 0803 a.m. 0:05 Kiss to mother; return
tiffin utensils, money to mother; remove shirt, socks, handkerchief and put
them for washing
0803 a.m. - 0813 a.m. 0:10 Diary notes on paper
0813 a.m. - 0817 a.m. 0:04 Rice and water for
birds
0817 a.m. - 0820 a.m. 0:03 Ayurvedic medicine for
Schizophrenia – lehiyam, kashayam, laxative
0820 a.m. - 0830 a.m. 0:10 To upstairs; undress,
urinal, wash hands, face, feet, wear indoor dress: Blue/green dhoti; turn ON computer for
diary notes
I pity my women
monitors...for their selfish...self-centered...quest for sex...
How much it has tarnished
the image of many a innocent woman...for what these sex maniacs do...it
reflects on other women also...for they are all women first of all...
Have they ever thought
what...many a innocent woman will feel?...for being humiliated...for no reason
at all...just because a group of sex starved women hunted a man...like hunting
a animal in the forest...with no manners...no dignity...no
honor...nothing...for years and years...
And these stalkers say I
write huge abuses...
Their voyeurism...and
surveillance is something I should be very happy about...
Oh!...at least I have
some women to watch my penis...many a man dream for JUST that...IF ONLY a woman
looked at my penis...if only a woman watched me masturbating...I am willing to pay
any money for that monitoring...but no woman pays heed to the antics of those
men...no matter what mooning those men-in-need do...even walking on a public
road stark naked...just for some women to get impressed at that huge
penis...hanging down under...
YES!!...I should not
abuse...I should not feel irritated...I should not feel disturbed...
Oh! yes!...those threats
of raping...by the women predators...
Many a man out
there...daydream...on how to rape a woman...forcibly...roughly...to enjoy the
feel of it...to hear the mock cries of the woman in distress...when her cloths
get torn...pulled...ripped off...when she gets mauled...clawed...bitten...when
being inserted...repeatedly...
It is interesting to
observe...the irony...the contradiction...that...her cries only make the man
more vigorous...as if the woman is begging for more...through her lovely
screaming...
Too...too...many...women...in
this whole world...maybe thousands out of millions...get such an ample
opportunity...to enjoy that very common privilege...bestowed by
men...men-in-love...men-in-need...
When women
themselves...want to do it...to rape a man...forcibly...roughly...to enjoy the
feel of it...to hear the mock cries of the man in distress...when his cloths
get torn...pulled...ripped off...when he gets mauled...clawed...bitten...when
being pulled downunder repeatedly...and forcibly...for his penis to remain
steady...stout like a rod...for insertion...how the man yell...scream...in
pleasure...for being so fortunate...for being the chosen one...what more do you
need in this human world??...
Very...very...few...men...in
this whole world...maybe one or two out of millions...get such a rare
opportunity...to enjoy that very unique privilege...bestowed by
women...women-in-love...women-in-need...
YES!!...I should not
abuse...I should not feel irritated...I should not feel disturbed...
And the irony...the irony
that makes me...a mad man...before other men...
That which they dream as
the most adornable...to love...turn out to be the most detested...to be
hated...
And I ran away...to
become a perpetual mad man...
But even those women
maniacs got honor...how to face other women...as a failure...in not being able
have his penis inserted...that too after running after...following...his
penis...for so many years...
So what ever be the
shame...hunt him down...mercilessly...for his penis...the penis alone matters...
Once I even
contemplated...why not cut out that badly needed penis...and give it to
them...freely...as an act of ultimate charity...for them to play inserting...as
much as they want...in the privacy of their residences...for that is all they
want...
At least they will leave
me alone...with no more sexual harassing...running
after...monitoring...surveillance...stalking...
But then what guarantee
is there??...that I will be left alone?...
If I don’t have a
penis...at least a hole remains...in that area...down under...
And to some other
people...a hole is something...very coveted...for insertion...
And eunuchs are darlings
to them!...
And I will be left
without a penis...forever...though a man may be I...
And the next question
comes...how to remove a hole?...
Earlier...out of
harassment...it was how to get rid of the penis...now it will be the other way
around...how to get rid of the hole?...
How to get back the
penis?...
Men may
give...donate...some of their body parts for transplanting...but few will be
there...who will EVER part with their penis...for they live in this world ONLY
for its happiness...for its nourishment...for its body building...for its
pleasure...by diverse means...
And I will then have a
dilemma...I will have to get my own penis back...not someone else...
But then those women
maniacs must have spoiled it...beyond recognition...
The father won’t
even recognize his son...
After countless
rubbing...playing around...by sharing amongst themselves...that piece of flesh
may have worn out!...or withered away...of no more use...and the women maniacs
might be left with just a lump...a blob of meat...shapeless beyond
recognition...that which once prided itself...as a pointed spear...
And I will be left to
lament...on my ultimate charity...
So...my Lord!...I just
have to live with my penis...
There is no point in
doing the ultimate charity...
I just have to hold
on...somehow...
Written around 0937 a.m.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Revised around 1152 a.m.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
8 "... Freely you received, freely give”.
-
Matthew 10:8 :: New American Standard Bible (NASB)
43 And if thy hand
offend thee, cut it off: it is better for thee to enter into life maimed, than
having two hands to go into hell, into the fire that never shall be quenched:
44 Where their worm dieth not, and the fire is not quenched.
45 And if thy foot
offend thee, cut it off: it is better for thee to enter halt into life, than
having two feet to be cast into hell, into the fire that never shall be
quenched:
46 Where their worm dieth not, and the fire is not quenched.
47 And if thine eye
offend thee, pluck it out: it is better for thee to enter into the
48 Where their worm dieth not, and the fire is not quenched.
49 For every one shall be salted with fire, and every sacrifice shall be
salted with salt.
50 Salt is good:
but if the salt have lost his saltness, wherewith will ye season
it? Have salt in yourselves, and have peace one with
another.
-
Mark 9:38-50 :: King James Version (KJV)
3
Neither let the son
of the stranger, that hath joined himself to the LORD, speak, saying, The LORD hath utterly separated me from his
people: neither let the eunuch say, Behold, I am a dry tree.
-
Isaiah 56:3 :: King James Version (KJV)
Castration
at wedding party
When some time after a boy was
born she exposed him, but he was saved by a goat that nourished him. And when
years later Attis became a youth of beauty more than human, he was sent by some
relatives to Pessinus in central Asia Minor near
Attis
buried
When this happened, Agdistis repented and asked Zeus to grant that Attis' body should not decay; for as they say, Agdistis was himself in love with the youth. But whatever happened to that request, Attis was buried in the vicinity of Pessinus, where a temple was built to the Mother of the Gods, whom they called Agdistis although she is often identified with Rhea 1, Cronos' wife.
Attis
love for Sagaritis
Others have said that Attis was a worshipper of the Mother of the Gods, and that the goddess asked him to guard her temple and keep his chastity, whereupon he promised obedience saying:
"If I lie ... may the love for which I break faith be my last love of all." [Ovid, Fasti 4.227]
And since promises are more often than not broken, Attis met the Naiad Sagaritis and turned her into his sweetheart. But the Mother of the Gods, who was well informed, by wounding the Naiad's tree destroyed Attis' sweetheart as well, since her fate was dependent on the tree's. This event, they say, and nothing else, is the reason why Attis lost his mind, imagining that his chamber's roof was falling in.
Naiad
n.
Attis
goes mad
So being completely mad, Attis
ran to the top of
"Ah, perish the parts that were my ruin." [Ovid, Fasti 4.240]
whereupon he cut off his genitals. Then Attis turned into a pine-tree, which is why this tree is pleasing to the Mother of the Gods.
Born
an eunuch and killed by a boar
Still others say that Attis was
son of the Phrygian Calaus and eunuch from birth. Attis became known, they say,
when he, after migrating to
(Reference: Attis.)
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Friday, November 03, 2006
To continue
0747 a.m. - 0750 a.m. 0:03 Exit Nila building
taking the steps nearest to the toilet, exit II floor, I floor, at ground floor
walk past Rangoli restaurant and ICFAI
0750 a.m. - 0756 a.m. 0:06 Walk to Technopark gates
0756 a.m. - 0800 a.m. 0:04 Walk to Pallinada bus
stop; run to catch the bus; some of the my monitors...give out an
exclamation...while watching...from a far away distance...at such...a great
man...a stray dog...running...to catch a bus...
0800 a.m. - 0845 a.m. 0:45 City bus to Statue:
White/blue bus; bus fare – Rupees 8.00; bus no: KL-15.6029 RT857); catnap
0845 a.m. - 0850 a.m. 0:05 Walk back home
Near Pankaj Hotel...a
crow sitting in the overhead electric cable...drops her fecal matter...prasad...onto
my hands...it falls onto my right wrist...near the big thumb...a whitish
liquid...warm...and I walk away...not heeding it...happy...for she is
kind...for giving something in return...for whatever she...as a bird can...in
normal circumstances...for feeding her family members...
Also...yesterday...I
cried...screamed...to a woman...through my writings...to go and get whatever
she can...from the hole of a stray dog...and today this bird...she gives me the
apt reply...to my abusive writings...by giving me...something fresh...and
warm...straight from her hole...
I am proud...I have to be
proud...for I asked for it...and I got it...
Written around 0959 a.m.
Friday, November 03, 2006
Revised around 0655 p.m.
Friday, November 03, 2006
0850 a.m. - 0855 a.m. 0:05 Kisses to mother; wash
hands; return tiffin utensils, money to mother; remove shirt, banian, socks,
handkerchief and put them for washing
The medical
representative tries to joke...on the incident...see a crow defecated on
him...ha...ha...ha...The old woman tries to stop his laughter...
Well...if I wanted...if I
willed...to be defecated upon...urinated
upon...detested...humiliated...abused...called filthy
names...joked...jeered...laughed at...What does it matter to me?...Why should I
care?...I who gave birth to an action...is subject to its reaction
too...anytime...anywhere...
It is all a matter of how
you look at it...
Written around 1002 a.m.
Friday, November 03, 2006
Revised around 0712 p.m.
Friday, November 03, 2006
To continue
Around 1200 a.m....while
transcribing a medical file...I search the web for the right medical word...as
dictated by the US doctor...and I stumble upon an article...that came up...in
Google...along with the search results for the medical word...it was on...long
range thermal sensors...The brief writeup in the search results...I found
interesting...so clicked open that webpage...
A text file at... http://www.nlectc.org/txtfiles/94213-9.html
...
A pdf file is also there
at... http://www.nlectc.org/pdffiles/94213-9.pdf
...
Read the pdf file...it
contains pictures...
The writeup mention...US
Border Patrol using such high tech spy devices...it helps them to detect even
heart beats from a long range distance...
Go to google or any
similar search engine...type the words...long range thermal sensors...a list of
articles come up...and read them at leisure...
For here...at my work
place...I listen for the next 3-5 hours or so...to the words of alarm...from my
various stalking groups...at a far away distance...that I finally found
out...exactly what sort of device...they are using...24 hours a day...to
monitor my activities...precisely...from a far away distance...
I don’t know if
they are speaking true or false...
But I just noted what
they spoke...for every computer within the company is being monitored...from a
far away distance...cyberstalked...and they know at any instance of time...what
is done on any computer...within the company...especially the one I
use...whether it be typing out a document...trancribing..or even surfing the
net...
Read those articles...if
possible investigate my case undercover...and you will have ample proof...to my
documentation...
Later, I also listen to
some suggestions...between the stalking groups...to each other...
He lives in a land of
fire...being a tantric...following a path of fire...So that is how he detected
the use of thermal sensors...
The use of heat...your
own body heat...heat emitted or reflected by surrounding objects...and so
on...to track down your activities...verbal...physical...even the gentle
whisper of anal gas...or flatus from your attractive anus...with detailed
precision...from a far, far away safe distance...while many ordinary people of
society did not...find out the increasingly...common use of such high tech
gadgetry...for snooping...surveillance...privacy
violation...voyeurism...stealing company secrets...and so on...
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Friday, November 03, 2006
Revised around 0637 p.m.
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2006
Emission Nil
How do I feel?
0000 a.m. ~ 0230 a.m. 2:30 Sleep
No dreams noted...
No carnal/erotic thoughts
noted...
No images of women noted
either...
Written around 1133 a.m. Saturday,
November 04, 2006
0230 a.m. – 0250
a.m. 0:20 Lay on mat, not sleepy
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...monitoring...talking...
Written around 1134 a.m.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
0250 a.m. – 0255
a.m. 0:05 Sit on mat, not sleepy
0255 a.m. – 0300
a.m. 0:05 Prostrate to the omnipresent
invisible Lord; stand
up; manual emission check; to toilet
Emission check: No emission stains noted...in the aqua
dhoti...
Written around 1135 a.m.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
0300 a.m. – 0315
a.m. 0:15 Undress; emission
check, urinal, brush teeth
Emission check: No emission stains noted...in the aqua
dhoti...
Urinal: Some bubbles in urine...most of them
vanish in a few minutes...leaving clear water...
No physical
tiredness...to the body...noted...
I thus classify this
instance...as...No emission...
May the Lord be
praised...
Inshallah!
Written around 1136 a.m.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Listen to the voices of my
beloved monitors...especially the medical representative family...talking...
Written around 1136 a.m.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
0315 a.m. – 0325
a.m. 0:10 To room, prostrate to
the omnipresent
invisible Lord; turn ON
computer; to downstairs; reboil tea; to upstairs
0325 a.m. - 0336 a.m. 0:11 Browse computer files
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1998 pages 1-8; prepare notes; computer crashes at around 0809 a.m.
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Reference
National Law Enforcement and
Corrections Technology Center.(NLECTC) (Spring 1998)
TechBeat: Dedicated to Reporting Developments in Technology for Law
Enforcement, Corrections, and Forensics.
http://www.nlectc.org/pdffiles/94213-9.pdf
Page 1
Is There a Doctor in the House?
According to Wilkinson, telemedicine allows ODRC to
provide remote medical services to prisoners. From the prison’s clinic, a
health care professional presents the patient and operates the scopes and
cameras that transmit the video images in real-time to a doctor at another
location.
The advantages of telemedicine, Wilkinson says, are
many. Prisoners receive care without incurring the cost of escorted hospital
visits.
Telemedicine gives the prison access to a wider range of outside medical
sources and specialized doctors. And, telemedicine provides a visual record of
the visit, ensures the safety of the doctors, and reduces the potential for
escape. This is
important, he notes, since it was recently reported that more than 50
escape attempts occurred in this country from offsite medical facilities in one
12-month period.
“We can do consultations, post-operative medical
reviews, and routine doctor’s visits. We
can read x-rays, or zero in and
magnify certain areas of the body so the doctor can get a very clear picture. We can
actually hear the heartbeat of a person through the system,” Wilkinson says.
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Those consultations, Wilkinson notes, include a
successful foray into telepsychiatry, something to which the inmates have responded well. He says,
“It totally debunks the myth that you have to be in a room and on
a couch to address your problems. The prisoners have been extremely responsive.
They’ve answered questions and are not intimidated by the equipment at
all.”
...
“We bring in vendors who sell various products
and then review the applicability of those
products to determine if they are something that
might be beneficial for us. We have a large database of information on all of
the latest technology, from devices that let us listen for a heartbeat in the
trunk of a car,
to other
types of sound-monitoring and personnel-location devices. We haven’t bought
everything we’ve seen, but we’ve exposed ourselves to an awful
lot,” Wilkinson says.
...
Another database tracks gang members. It enables corrections
personnel to instantly tell which prisoners are gang members, information readily shared
with law enforcement. The Intranet system is accessible only to prison
personnel. The
ODRC’s Internet site is equally sophisticated, allowing the
public to keep up with parole information or track the movements of a specific prisoner.
Footnote
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Page 3
More Fire Power for Bomb and Arson
Investigation
Develop a restricted-access electronic library for
forensic and law enforcement professionals. This library will link to databases
of other organizations and associations to provide a
comprehensive source of expertise and research materials. It will be accessible to
lab personnel and to crime scene technicians, who can tap into it from onsite laptop computers.
This online access will include procedural guidelines, information on
unfamiliar types of evidence, and contact names of individuals with indepth experience in a
particular area.
...
“We met extensively with representatives from
the Federal laboratories, including the FBI [Federal Bureau of Investigation]
and ATF [Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco and Firearms], to make sure
there wouldn’t be any project overlap,” Dr. Cunningham says. “We now have
some of their top people on our board. We’ll use the working groups and our advisory
board to direct our research and training initiatives . . . no point in us
duplicating research that is being done by the ATF or the FBI. They already
do superb research in these areas,” he says.
Dr. Cunningham notes that a World Wide
Web site is already in place, and work on the center’s electronic library is under
way. There is even a newsletter, appropriately titled Debris. Center staff also are
developing new training courses for crime lab and law enforcement
professionals. In the future, he says, the center will partner with the
university’s
“We believe in strength in numbers and in a strong
partnership between government, industry, and academe,” says Marilyn Cobb
Croach, UCF’s director of Federal relations.
“We have an amazing research base here, with the
Simulation Training and
Instrumentation Command, the
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We
Got You Covered
The idea of using science and
technology to combat crime has long sparked the imaginations of the criminal justice
community as well as the general public. Beginning in the 1890s, Sir Arthur
Conan Doyle, through his Sherlock Holmes stories, fascinated readers with techniques such as
cataloging tobacco ashes to identify suspects’ brands of choice. Real life soon
found it was able to imitate fiction, when in 1891 the idea of tracing and identifying
an individual typewriter by peculiarities of the type first appeared in the
Sherlock Holmes’ tale “A Case of Identity.” Three years
later, such a process was invented to help authorities authenticate typewritten
documents. Doyle was later called upon to assist in the investigation of
Despite strong interest, development and adoption of
criminal justice technology has been a slow process. There were scattered early
attempts to update police technology. An early example of police technology was
the
construction of the first modern polygraph in 1921 by a medical student and a
police officer.
However, it wasn’t until the explosion of technology during and
after World War II that law enforcement agencies were able to learn from developments in other organizations,
particularly the military. Radio equipment and surveillance aircraft found their way onto
some larger police departments. But few devices were conceived and developed specifically for
law enforcement applications. It was with this in mind that the U.S. Government
began in the 1960s to assemble the resources to provide specific technical
assistance to the Nation’s law enforcement—and later corrections
and forensic science—communities.
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Nighttime Eyes
With a new generation of night vision devices that
see in the dark by detecting heat, there is no more hiding in dark corners,
crawling under bushes, or crossing borders on a moonless night. No more tossing
out evidence, ditching weapons, or stashing the drugs. Serving as test beds for these
lightweight, handheld thermal-imaging devices, 10
Developed by Raytheon Corporation and supplied by
the National Institute of Justice (NIJ), these thermal imagers resemble a
typical palm-sized camcorder, but with a much wider lens. They also can be linked
to video recording systems for review of a police pursuit, crime scene investigation, or
surveillance. But because these devices detect heat (infrared
radiation) instead of
visible light, they allow officers to
“see” any heat-emitting object, even one hidden in total darkness. Officers can, for example, spot a suspect
hiding behind or underneath bushes simply by panning the area or locate
recently discarded evidence or weapons that still retain the heat of the suspect’s
hands. Because
of the
heat emanating from the engine, even a parking lot full of cars can be scanned to find a recently
driven vehicle.
“You can also use these cameras for search and
rescue, to find people in the woods,” says NIJ program manager Tom Coty.
“Infrared cameras used by fire departments have saved lives. In one city,
firefighters used an infrared camera to scan a smokefilled room. They found an elderly
woman and saved her life,” he says. Because these devices
detect images through temperature contrast, they also can be used in the daytime.
Thermal imaging, or infrared
technology, is not new, Coty says. It has been used by the
military for many years and
increasingly sophisticated, long-range
thermal imagers
are used
by the
“There are many uses for infrared
technology,” Coty says. “Officers can use them while searching
darkened buildings or houses . . . without using a flashlight that would give the suspect an unwanted advantage.
They can also use them to pick out vehicles that have been recently driven. In one case, an officer
with an infrared unit mounted on the patrol car found a hit-and-run
suspect’s car parked on a residential street. Its warm
engine made it stand out among the other ‘cold’ cars. Additionally, officers will
be able
to spot recently made tire skid marks, detect the warm-water trail of a swimmer, or find recently
discarded evidence by
the
heat it retains from the suspect’s hands,” he adds.
Coty says the project is actually a two-pronged
effort. Through
the
to install the thermal imagers, train operators, and
determine how long it takes before the agency is effectively using the devices. In the second phase, the
university will study the use and effectiveness of the devices and compare the information to data from a control
group of agencies that did
not receive them.
Coty notes that most of the departments and agencies
receiving the thermal imagers will act as test beds and attempt to find new ways to use the technology. Some of the
other agencies,
however, have more specific plans: The Dallas County Sheriff’s Department will
use the devices for warrant serving; the Grayson County Sheriff’s
Department will use them in water rescue, marina and resort area surveillance,
and in counterdrug operations; and the Texas Rangers plan to use the devices at
murder scene investigations and during
manhunts.
The cost of the thermal imager together with video
recorders and other accessories can run over $10,000. But according to Coty, “Law
enforcement agencies should see a reduction in the cost of the sensors if a Department of Defense
program is successful in reducing the manufacturing costs of the core
infrared sensor components.” Assisting NIJ in monitoring this grant is the Border
Research and
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Body Armor–A Common Sense Guide
...
The guide will also provide a history of
the body armor program,
which was created in the early 1970s when E.I du Pont de Nemours & Co.
developed Kevlar®,
a material the company intended as a replacement for the steel belting in
radial tires. An NIJ
scientist’s musing over whether Kevlar was also strong enough to stop
bullets was the spark that started it all. Shortly thereafter, NIJ distributed 5,000 vests for
field testing to law enforcement agencies throughout the country. Within 6
months, this new technology—which was originally met with great
skepticism—saved
a police officer’s life.
New Publications
Preventing In-Custody Deaths. This informational
videotape,
targeted to the many smaller county municipal jail facilities throughout the
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1. Movie: Silence of the Lambs
One of
2. Yogic books on Pranayama
The role of fresh air...in controlling
the mind...to calm down...the human body...
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November 04, 2006
Revised around 0751 a.m. Saturday,
November 04, 2006
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I’ve Seen Your Face Before!
...
“We have addressed the fundamental
problem of all two-dimensional systems, which is that mug shots only have a front and a
profile view.
But most
of the time people are captured on tape at an angled view,” Eraslan says.
“None of the existing methods can capture that to match it because the human head
is three dimensional.”
Eraslan knew a three-dimensional problem required a
three-dimensional solution.
...
The program also will be equipped with an automatic
composite builder, which will allow the investigator to build a
face while the victim describes the suspect. The investigator will be able to rotate
the head to different angles and change the lighting to recreate the conditions that existed when
the crime occurred.
In addition, the software program will let investigators convert
existing two-dimensional mug shots to three dimensional.
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0809 a.m. - 0817 a.m. 0:08 To downstairs; idli
crumbs and water for birds
0817 a.m. - 0820 a.m. 0:03 Urinal, wash hands
0820 a.m. - 0835 a.m. 0:15 Ayurvedic medicine for
Schizophrenia – lehiyam, kashayam, laxative; food: Idli x2, loose white coconut chammandi,
uyunu vada x2, cabbage twaran; around a glass of water; discussion with mother
The discussion this day
morning...was on the local Malayalam newspaper article...on the Government
Labor commission raid at my workplace...following some worker’s complaint
on low wages...
I tell my mother...that
the government didn’t care to investigate my petitions...on the ongoing
surveillance...privacy violation...stalking...human rights violation...computer
hacking...sexual harassment...voyeurism...
But they act on labor
complaints...filed by someone...maybe that person got political hold...or know
how to pull strings...at high places...for the government to take action...
My mother replies
that...maybe a group of people...say 5 or more...together filed a
complaint...which must have prompted the authorities to investigate...
Written around 1143 a.m. Saturday,
November 04, 2006
0835 a.m. - 0922 a.m. 0:07 To upstairsº;
update Test Diary – chap 30, 31, 34; spydevices; links
º We should not have
stood there...yesterday...
- The sucker to her family...
So it must have been the
great bastard...the medical representative...the sucker...the so-called old
woman...and a baby kid...the strange 3+1 people that I documented...as acting
strangely...at the entrance to Technopark...yesterday night...
Strange...that I
didn’t look at any of their faces...just had a passing glance at those
filthy fecal matter eating bastards...from a distance...
Strange...that the
so-called old woman didn’t really look that old...that fat pig of a woman
who stood near that tall fat man...looked around 50 years or so...not that old
as I thought...nor was the woman...thin, dark, and slim...as I imagined...
But then there was a baby
being held by that woman...I wonder whose child it is...
Did the bastard medical
representative have a child?...or is it someone else...
Anyway do the bastard pig
know...that if this stalking goes on...like this...what will be his family
status in this city...Do he know what will happen to that child when he or she
grows up...
Pray to
God...bastard...that if that child is yours...that he doesn’t publically
disown you...doesn’t publically proclaim that he didn’t have a
father...a fecal matter eating voyeur as you...Shameless spineless filth...will
be that child...if he is your son...a child who will have the same
nosy...intrusive character as yours...one who believes he can do anything in
other’s house hold...try to force any man or woman to have sex with any
whore...out there...so too will be the character of that child...let the world
know...the product of your rotten penis...if it is your child, bastard of a
worm...
Hoi...hoi...What did you
do yesterday?...
You acting as bowing to
me...folding your hands to me...me, a stray dog...
And when you found that I
crossed the road...from the opposite side...not to walk near by this praying
man....what did you do, bastard?...
You beckoned that young
woman...who stood next to you...to cross the road ...and stand in the opposite
side...so that I might see that whore...I might get impressed by that penis
sucking public urinal...isn’t?...Strange that I didn’t feel
anything...when I walked past that rotten pumpkin...acting as if a tall
sucker...wearing high heeled slippers...who will have to scoop really low...if
she want to suck any more penis...
What honor do your family
have...rotten pig?...
What filth of man created
you into this world?...
Which rotten whore got
you out of her bleeding hole...into this world...bastard?...
Bastard, after nearly 7
years...you thought that you can see me face to face...isn’t rotten
asshole?...Oh!...what a courage...I really should admire...such a shameless
man...and those women...who accompanied him...
That shows you
masquerading as a man...is nothing but a spineless filth...who still
think...after all these of voyeurism...that I will admire the prostitutes of
your rotten family...
Get lost...mother
fucker...
Go asshole...get some
rotten shit...to fuck your women...
You will never get me...
And if you think...you
can...talk to me...face to face...
And make sure...it is a
public road...with lots and lots of people around...not a place with less
people around...as yesterday...
Face me as a man...shit
eunuch...hiding behind prostitutes...
And remember...one
day...when this case becomes sufficiently public...and comes before
government...
All the nick names I have
used so far...like medical representative...sucker...old woman...will be
modified...with your true names in society...
And when you and your
women come out public...your photos will also be taken...and displayed in my
websites...for all the people in this world...to see...for people need to
know...who these famous voyeurs...medical representative...sucker...old
whore...are ...whether they were only the imaginations of a mad man...a mad
schizophrenic...as his only people in this world...his old parents and
brother...thought...or they were actually inhuman bastards...of flesh and
blood...who tried to cheat a man...sexually abuse him...and hunted him
mercilessly like a dog...for years and years...
Written around 1249 p.m. Saturday,
November 04, 2006
Revised around 0110 p.m. Saturday,
November 04, 2006
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1019 a.m. - 1038 a.m. 0:19 Browse computer files
1038 a.m. - 1053 a.m. 0:15 CD Write – backup
copy of testdiary
1048 a.m. - 1050 a.m. 0:15 Urinal, wash hands
1053 a.m. - 1056 a.m. 0:03 Collect tea from
downstairs
1056 a.m. - 1148 a.m. 0:52 Diary notes on paper; I
change writing on garbage paper to fair paper; for those on garbage paper fades
away after some time...I thought this stalking will stop...those bastards will
never come before me out of shame...and I don’t have to publish my
filth...but these voices...suggesting renewed runins...force me to go into
combat...to commence taking proper action...to ensure my physical safety...to
let the world know...to file court case, if needed...using what ever money, a
beggar like me got...and do what ever I can...to stop this menace...from
spoiling my life...destroying my life...further...after all these years of over
10+ years of combined stalking...I just have to destroy my stalkers...before
they destroy me...
If they were true to what
I wrote on philosophy...then never in this world...would they have done what
happened yesterday...never would have they shown a rotten prostitute to a mad
man...but they tried yesterday...totally discarding my writings...which
don’t have any value...or meaning to them...other than making money from
my stolen notes...To them, all that matters is my penis...nothing else...and
yesterday they proved it...So I have to ensure...how that family is going to
be...in the years to come...whether they should pride themselves...or whether
they should detest themselves...for their own activities...
Written around 0126 p.m. Saturday,
November 04, 2006
Revised around 0129 p.m. Saturday,
November 04, 2006
1148 a.m. - 0132 a.m. 0:44 Daily diary notes on
computer
A set of diary
notes...very abusive in nature...as it was some of those in 2002-2004...then I
masked vulgar words...today I don’t...
It is always
interesting...to watch...how I write those vulgar things...at that spur of the
moment...when I become someone else...
Yesterday...I watched
that other man...typing furiously...with whatever few typing skills he
got...typing madly onto the computer keyboard...words that just came into his
mind...flowed out...through the fingers...and expressed themselves...
I watched that other
man...in genuine surprise...and admiration...that such a man exists along with
me...
I watched the emotions of
my various stalkers and their accomplices...as that other man typed various
things out...in a state of madness...in a state of frenzy...in a state of
trance...
The surprised feeling of
the Australians...the humiliated feeling of the medical representative
family...the emotional feeling of the Brahmin family...and some others...all at
their own individual observation posts...individual base stations...
And above all...I watched
this very body...the fingers typing furiouslyº...and that part of my
mind...that was agitated...
Watching many things at
the same time...within...and without...
I was in a sort
of...elevated mental state...spread out...and the feeling is very pleasant...a
feeling where you become blind...to all bodily pains...of hunger, tiredness,
etc...
That elevation...that elevated
state...is very voluptuous...bewitching...that you yearn...to be in that
state...always...
That transformation...the in-between
process...from one man...to another man...and back to normalization...is
equally interesting...to watch...
All through...as always...one watches
the other...as if a shadow...
Inshallah!
Written around 1132 a.m. Sunday,
November 05, 2006
Revised around 0824 a.m. Monday, November
06, 2006
Before sitting down to talk to your first-ever
patient, remind yourself what you are trying to do.
1. To establish the facts about the illness by recording
the patient’s experiences. You may well be offered the patient’s own diagnosis, or another
physician’s, such as ‘indigestion’, ‘anaemia’, or
‘arthritis’ but remember that behind each label lies a set of
symptoms and it is these
you must now ferret out.
2. To establish the patient’s attitudes to his
illness by watching
for non-verbal clues
and by
listening for the hopes and fears with which he clothes his narrative.
3. To establish the doctor’s attitude to the
patient and his illness. The commonest complaint about doctors is that they neither
seem to have the time nor the inclination to listen and the patient
who sees the doctor reaching for a prescription pad for a psychotropic drug before he has
told his full story
must
fear that the
bulb in the dashboard warning light is being removed as a quicker and
cleaner alternative
to lifting the bonnet to check the oil level. A patient of mine said ‘I knew he must
be an important specialist because he wouldn’t let me talk to him’, while a colleague
commented ‘Usually I talk to my patients, but if I have time, I listen to them too.’
(Reference: Toghill, Peter J. (Editor)
(1991) Examining Patients: An Introduction to Clinical
Medicine.
The medical representative family...have
seen this elevated condition...many times before...
And when the flame died out...the
medical representative...announced...it is over...as the other man...stopped
his outpouring of agony...at that instance of elevation...
Written around 1136 a.m. Sunday,
November 05, 2006
º Back in 2004 and before...I
didn’t know typing...now I know a little bit...
Analysis of yesterday’s
event...shows that the typing skills are not up to the mark...to face this type
of outpour....
I need to improve my typing...to prepare
for many a future instance...of spontaneous transformation...from one
personality to another...based on multiple emotions...
Yesterday considerable typing mistakes
were made...while in the state of elevation...typing need to be
fluent...fluid-like...as if I am writing...fast and furious...when
agitated...to my environment...
This factor is already known to some of
my foreign monitors...as noted by their words of analysis...from February to
August or so of 2006...as I was learning...and practicing...typing at my
workplace...that benchmark for high speed typing...
Yes...I have to practice more...
Written around 1200 p.m. Sunday,
November 05, 2006
Revised around 1203 p.m. Sunday,
November 05, 2006
So far...majority of such frenzied
state...occurred in an abusive context...as it depended on my current stalking
case...
I need to slowly move away...from an
abusive context...unethical context...to something better...Apply the same
concept to other contexts...without the abusive element...
There in olden times...history records
frenzied states of many...temple oracles...great singers...skilled
dancers...and so on...that fusion of work in hand...and the mind...as the zen
concept goes on mindfulness...concentration...
Written around 0848 a.m. Monday,
November 06, 2006
Revised around 0851 a.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
To
Continue
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Emission Nil
How do I feel?
To
Continue
0945 a.m. - 0950 a.m. 0:05 Turn ON computer; diary
notes on paper; mother comes upstairs to arrange mat and tie mosquito net; talk
to mother on the verbal duel faced by Sankaracharya with Madana Mishra
Madana Mishra was a family man...while
Sankaracharya a celibate...and they faced a verbal duel...two opposing
philosophical schools of thought...fighting each other...Mishra was assisted by
his wise wife...and the philosophical debate moved onto tantric topics dealing
with Kamasutra...
How can a celibate answer
kamasutra...without experiencing...The opponent’s wife asks certain
questions from experience...while the celibate is left with no answer...Oh!!...
For according to the wise
wife...one’s knowledge is only complete...when the so-called dirty things
of life...the second-rate stuff...classified as sin in Christianity...is also
known...
So Sankaracharya took leave of the
duel...after asking permission to recommence the duel...after a certain period
of time...
He was a man under oath...to retain his
body purity...like the Christ...but he need to know the intricate details of
sex...and in those days, they didn’t have...pictorial materials in paper
format...detailed sex videos...simulations...or similar stuff...to teach what
it is...how it is...as you have today...
He was a celibate tantric...but with
yogic powers...
He went into meditation...leaving some
of his choicest disciples...to guard his body...until he returned...
The yogi entered the body of a king...in
his sick-bed...in a far away kingdom...The king survived his illness...by
virtue of the yogi’s powers...and he continued to rule his kingdom...as
it was before...as well as enjoy adventures of the bed...with his various
wives...and the yogi...by being along with the king...riding the same vehicle
of the king’s body...learned the forbidden science...without any breach
of purity...retaining his personal purity as a celibate...
After sufficient direct...but indirect
knowledge...of kamasutra...the yogi left the king’s
body...satisfied...and returned back to his own body...
He then returned for the verbal duel...and
defeated Madana Mishra...making him renounce his family life...and converted
him into a wandering ascetic...and one of his disciples...
Written around 0150 p.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
Revised around 0158 p.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
0950 a.m. - 0959 a.m. 0:09 Diary notes on paper
0959 a.m. - 1032 a.m. 0:33 Food: Rice, cabbage and cauliflower twaran,
gooseberry pickle, a handful of groundnut and channa, half a muruku, a glass of
water, a small cup of milk, a small rasakatali banana; discussion with parents
1032 a.m. - 1035 a.m. 0:03 Diary notes on paper
1035 a.m. - 1102 a.m. 0:27 Modify front pages of
some of the sister websites by adding information about the new ones
1102 a.m. - 1115 a.m. 0:13 Defecate – loose
motion, wash, wipe
1115 a.m. - 1204 p.m. 0:49 Daily diary notes on
computer
1204 p.m. - 1210 p.m. 0:06 Shut down computer terminal, diary notes on
paper
1210 p.m. - 1215 p.m. 0:05 To toilet, urinal, wash
hands; to room, lock door, prostrate to the omnipresent invisible Lord; lay down on mat to sleep
1215 p.m. ~ 0400 p.m. 3:45 Sleep
A vague dream was
noted...not much can be recollected...
No carnal/erotic thoughts
noted...
No images of women noted
either...
Written around 0715 p.m. Sunday, November
05, 2006
0400 p.m. – 0457
p.m. 0:30 Lay on mat, not sleepy
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...monitoring...talking...
Written around 0715 p.m. Sunday,
November 05, 2006
0457 p.m. – 0518
p.m. 0:21 Sit on mat, not sleepy
Couple of teardrops drip
from the right eye...as noted by my monitors...some of them think...I am sad...
Written around 0717 p.m. Sunday,
November 05, 2006
Revised around 1102 a.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
0518 p.m. – 0520
p.m. 0:02 Prostrate to the omnipresent
invisible Lord; stand
up; manual emission check; to toilet
Emission check: No emission stains noted...
Written around 0717 p.m. Sunday,
November 05, 2006
0520 p.m. – 0607
p.m. 0:47 Undress, emission check,
urinal, brush teeth, jala neti, thread neti, anoint head with ayurvedic oil,
prayer, shower, wipe the body dry with a towel, prayer, apply a pinch of
ayurvedic powder Rasnadi to head, apply Thromboprob to the pubic pustule, apply
Nycil powder to itchy areas of the body, dress in towel
Emission check: No emission stains noted...
Urinal: Some bubbles in urine...most of them
vanish in a few minutes...leaving clear water...
No physical
tiredness...to the body...noted...
I thus classify this sleeping
instance as...No emission...
May the Lord be
praised...
Inshallah!
Written around 0718 p.m. Sunday,
November 05, 2006
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative family...talking...
But then...someone else is
also watching...(those two personalities interchanging...)
- A foreign male monitor...
In my diary notes, there
are various things lying hidden...not revealed...that is why I write with the 3
dots...as if a sort of poetry...in a run along format...It is up to the reader
to ponder...to bring it out...to ferret out...various interpretations...for if
I do such spoonfeeding...it will take ages to explain...a single concept
alone...
At the end of the
day...that entity...which some call God...which some don’t call
anything...or it...covers A-Z...of any spectrum...both pure and dirty...is
all-inclusive...
It all depends on how you
look at it...and it also depends on which level you are...where you stand...to
look at it...The view at something...from the ground...from atop a tower...are
two different things...but deal with one and the same thing...
The
word...pronoun...it...is more apt...for something...which is male...which is
female...which is both...which is neither...Thus it can be looked upon as a
bastard...a homosexual...a virgin...a whore...a stone...just anything...for
words are meaningless to describe it...
Oh! yes!...some of my
monitors ponder on the word bastard...
It is already mentioned
in one of my previous notes...as a dilemma...
Do you know the Catholic
Church take great pains to explain the bastard nature of the Christ...cloaked
in purity...about something that looks dirty...but is not dirty...but is...as
it is...normal you can say...abnormal you can say...though he was born by
legitimate means...
From the tantric view, I
just put it...a bit more blunt...or vulgar...for to normal people...it is
something hard to ponder...how a virgin...untouched woman...can ever give
birth...under normal human circumstances...without pollination...
But then to the one who
died...and started all over again...the transformed one...the Christ...the
whole concept...takes a new meaning...a different meaning...but the same
words...
Written around 0734 p.m. Sunday,
November 05, 2006
Revised around 1215 p.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
0607
p.m. - 0615 p.m. 0:08 Dress in outdoor cloths: Brown underwear, cream pants,
multicolored checkered handkerchief, white banian, ash full-sleeves shirt
0615
p.m. - 0633 p.m. 0:18 Partially untie mosquito net, fold net,
blanket, mat; sprinkle water in the 3 upstairs rooms, offer water to the Lord,
collect fresh water from downstairs, burn incense, camphor, ring bell,
prostrate to the Lord, brief prayer
0633
p.m. - 0715 p.m. 0:42 Kapalabhati 30x3, Anuloma Viloma 2x5,
meditation, Sirsasana, Sarvangasana, Paschimothanasana, Chakrasana,
Padahasthasana, Kakasana, Tadasana
0715 p.m. - 0740 p.m. 0:25 Diary notes on paper
0740 p.m. - 0855 p.m. 1:15 To downstairs;
food: Rice, vendaka twaran,
cauliflower murukuvatti, rasam, steamed tapioca, quarter glass of water;
discussion with mother
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...monitoring...talking...
Written around 0853 a.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
0855 p.m. - 0900 p.m. 0:05 Call workplace and
inform of leave this night for I was feeling sleepy and dazed
Some visitors...part of the so-called
relatives group...
A chubby guy...a pretty young woman...a
small kid...I quickly shy away...go upstairs...not to face them...or any outsiders...
They look perfect couple...perfect for
insertion...guy is chubby like a pig...fit to insert that healthy and pretty
woman...frequently...to make her happy...and satisfied...with lots of stored
energy...in the form of fat...
The medical representative is more
fatter than this pig...
Written around 0920 p.m. Sunday,
November 05, 2006
Revised around 0903 a.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
0900 p.m. - 0910 p.m. 0:10 To upstairs, change
dress to white dhoti and purple full sleeves shirt, urinal, wash hands; to room, lock door, spread mat, tie
mosquito net
e-ga-ne pa-ra-yan o-kum...en-doe-nu
pa-ra-nal kel-kum...What to tell him...what to say to him...that he might
listen...
-
The obsessed sucker to the old woman on insertion...on analyzing the conversation
between the mother...and the son who was talking about solipsism...
What to tell him...what to say to
him...that he might listen...to insert...into the sucker’s hole...to lick
the sucker’s hole...
Maybe the sucker...is a bit too
fat...like a pumpkin...not supple...to bent forward...and lick her own hole...
Written around 0918 p.m. Sunday,
November 05, 2006
Revised around 0125 p.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
0910 p.m. - 0922 p.m. 0:12 Diary notes on paper
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative family...talking...
The old woman is
agitated...on reading my scribbled notes...written in dim light...especially
the abuse written...as a request to her daughter...who was reading
alongwith...from a far away distance...
The old woman feels...it
is too abusive...for her sucker daughter...
Well...I just condensed
solipsism...
Written around 0930 a.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
0922
p.m. - 0930 p.m. 0:08 Prostrate to the omnipresent
invisible Lord; lay down
on mat to sleep
0930 p.m. - 1200 p.m. 2:30 Sleep
Monday, November 06, 2006
Emission Damage
Relative Amount Medium
How do I feel? Tired
0000 a.m. ~ 0100 a.m. 1:00 Sleep
A vague dream was
noted...the image of my mother appeared again...I was kissing my beloved
mother...
I watch...note...my penis
pumping...I slip back to sleep...
No other carnal/erotic
thoughts noted...
No other images of women
noted either...
Written around 0705 a.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
0100 a.m. – 0133
a.m. 0:33 Lay on mat, not sleepy
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative family...talking...
The medical
representative talks...on why I didn’t lay on the mat...in the prone
position...so that the emission would not have been monitored...
As if I went to
sleep...wanting to have an emission...(then such a want, would have become a
masturbation NOT an emission)...and I don’t want my monitors to witness it...
Couple of days back...I
noted voices of some men and women...while at my work place...talking on how a
man can live without emitting...as if emitting or masturbation is a basic human
need...
And here I have my
monitors...curious men and women...sitting awake all night...to enjoy just
that...basic human need...
And I...being aware of
the 24 hour monitoring...should have the honor...and dignity...to masturbate
for them...for their satisfaction...isn’t?...
As if every night...or
even once a while...a man goes and stand on a busy road...pulls down his
undergarments...exposes his penis...to curious men and women...and masturbates
before all the men and women in the road...to witness...People would then call
such a man...mad...
Here...no one so far
called my voyeurs mad...but they call me instead mad!...
Was it because...I
didn’t masturbate...to please those women-in-love...women-in-need??...
If instead of a man like
me,...if it was a young woman...who is aware of predator men watching her privacy...all
day and night...will she...have the honor...and dignity...to masturbate for
them...for their satisfaction?...
If I use the same logic
as my women monitors say...turn the same logic around...then I should
say...that women should be proud...honored...dignified...to undress...before
men...AND women...and masturbate...in public...And if married...have sex...in
public...with your spouse...
Which nowadays...even if
many of the women feel ashamed...is of no use...ABSOLUTELY no use at all...for
you are being watched...
And there are many women
nowadays...who feel very high...elevated...on watching such privacy...of other
women!...
Can you label them
lesbians?...
The problem is...there
are lots of them...leaving you to wonder...when you feel their presence
monitoring...whether the word ‘woman’ stands for
‘lesbian’!...
Do investigate my
stalking case...and you will know...confirm...what I speak of...
Written around 0718 a.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
Revised around 0816 a.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
0133 a.m. – 0158
a.m. 0:25 Sit on mat, not sleepy
0158 a.m. – 0200
a.m. 0:02 Prostrate to the omnipresent
invisible Lord; stand
up; manual emission check; to toilet
Emission check: No thick stain...noted in the
undergarment...on manual examination...in darkness...
Written around 0730 a.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
0200 a.m. – 0245
a.m. 0:45 Undress, emission
check, urinal, brush teeth, jala neti, thread neti, anoint head with ayurvedic
oil, prayer, shower, wipe the body dry with a towel, prayer, apply a pinch of
ayurvedic powder Rasnadi to head, dress in towel
Emission check: Medium sized pale and dry patch...stain
of emission...noted...in the white fabric...
Urinal: Thick white effervescent bubbles...which
continues to remain adamant...even after 3-5 minutes...without
disappearing...as noted by my monitors...
The evidence proves my
emission...
May the Lord forgive
me...
Inshallah!
Written around 0736 a.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative family...talking...
Written around 0736 a.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
0245 a.m. – 0300
a.m. 0:15 Dress in black track
suit and black banian; to room; untie mosquito net; wash mat and put to dry on
a wooden stand for the water to drip away; wash mosquito net, blanket, and put
them to dry on the wooden stand; to room, prostrate to the omnipresent
invisible Lord
0300 a.m. – 0309 a.m. 0:09 Tidy personal things;
diary notes on paper
0309 a.m. - 0325 a.m. 0:16 To downstairs, put soiled and other cloths for
washing in the washing machine; tidy rooms
0325 a.m. - 0555 a.m. 2:30 Parents wake up;
discussion with mother; food: Idli x2, cauliflower murukuvatti; half a steamed
banana; a glass of water; tea x2; read pages 82-92 of Whitaker; ayurvedic medicine for Schizophrenia –
lehiyam, kashayam, laxative; to upstairs; basic lessons on how to use Microsoft
Word to wordprocess documents to mother
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...monitoring...talking...
Written around 0636 a.m.
Monday, November 06, 2006
0555 a.m. - 0610 a.m. 0:15 Defecate – small
lumps of fecal matter; not much, wash, wipe
0610 a.m. - 0620 a.m. 0:10 Rice and water for
birds; to downstairs; reboil tea
0620 a.m. - 0640 a.m. 0:20 Daily diary notes on
computer
0640 a.m. - 0652 a.m. 0:12 Defecate – loose
motion, wash, wipe
0652 a.m. - 0657 a.m. 0:05 Remove loudspeakers
connected to the computer and put them safely in the attic
0657 a.m. - 0826 a.m. 1:29 Daily diary notes on
computer
0826 a.m. - 0835 a.m. 0:09 Defecate – loose
motion, wash, wipe
0835 a.m. - 0940 a.m. 1:05 Daily diary notes on
computer
0000 a.m. - 0000 a.m. 0:00
To continue
Wednesday, November 15,
2006
To continue
Thursday, November 16,
2006
To continue
0033 a.m. - 0212 a.m. 1:39 Finish transcription of
wave 2 of 06:50 minutes. Contains considerable material in short time...with
less time dragging...
0212 a.m. - 0216 a.m. 0:04 Prepare to edit; a bit
of water
0216 a.m. - 0258 a.m. 0:42 Edit wave 2
0258 a.m. - 0303 a.m. 0:05 TL edits wave 2
0303
a.m. - 0320 a.m. 0:17 To toilet; urinal; wash hands, face, eyes, mouth; wipe; to
tea lounge; collect bag; prepare for food intake; food: Idli x3, loose white coconut chammandi,
cauliflower murukuvatti, a glass of water, a cup of tea; wash utensils, leave
bag between locker and coffee machine; to toilet; wash mouth; to new module
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...monitoring...talking...
Written around 0912 a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Come out of the flesh...and you will get
it...a thought passes...
Written around 0324 a.m.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
0320 a.m. - 0325 a.m. 0:05 Look for TL; diary
notes on paper
0325 a.m. - 0334 a.m. 0:09 Review wave 2; upload
0334 a.m. - 0350 a.m. 0:16 Read medical webpages
0350 a.m. - 0418 a.m. 0:28 Transcribe wave 3,
JOB263259508, of 90 seconds
Around 0421 a.m.
Ii-ni ei-ghi-lum e-la-ki
ka-la-ya-nam...at least now...remove it...
-
The medical representative...in a tone of jealousy...to the cabaret dancer...
For my scribbled notes...I
believe...are instantaneously available to many...including to some at my
workplace!...
Am I mad?...
Written around 0423 a.m.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Revised around 0928 a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
0418 a.m. - 0434 a.m. 0:16 Edit wave 3
0434 a.m. - 0455 a.m. 0:21 TL edit wave 3 at
terminal HS 390; transcribe wave 4, JOB263332619, of 17 seconds from the next
terminal HS 415; TL edit wave 4; peer edit wave 3
0455
a.m. - 0459 a.m. 0:04 To toilet; urinal; wash hands, face, eyes, mouth; wipe
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative family...monitoring...talking...
Written around 0937 a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Oh! Mirror...How am I to express my
gratitude...to you...
How I want to
laugh...aloud...laugh...and laugh...
Oh!...that early morning
heralding...from that nearby mosque...
Allah!...Allah!...Allah!...
May peace be unto him!...
Inshallah!...
Written around 0502 a.m.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Revised around 0943 a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
0459 a.m. - 0505 a.m. 0:06 A cup of tea, diary
notes on paper at tea lounge
0505 a.m. - 0513 a.m. 0:08 Review wave 3; upload
0513 a.m. - 0520 a.m. 0:07 Edit wave 4; prepare to
transcribe wave 5, JOB263336998, of 4:08 minutes
0520 a.m. - 0610 a.m. 0:50 Transcribe wave 5,
JOB263336998, of 4:08 minutes at terminal HS 415
0610 a.m. - 0615 a.m. 0:05 Upload wave 4
0615 a.m. - 0620 a.m. 0:05 Patient information
(ADT) of wave 5
Around 0703 a.m.
En-du che-yan po-ku-nu...alo-chi-chu
ni-kan ne-ra-mi-la...what are we going to do...there is no time to think...no
time to waste...(something have to be done very fast...before those scribbled
notes go to the web...)
-
The cabaret dancer to the medical representative...in a tone of distress...
The woman in distress...because the
medical representative family understand...that I became aware...of the indepth
monitoring...of my scribbled diary notes in paper...as well as what is done on
the computer...by the new internal monitors...within the company...in addition
to...the usual external monitors...outside the company...at a far away distance...
Written around 0703 a.m.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Revised around 1007 a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
0620 a.m. - 0650 a.m. 0:30 Edit wave 5
0650 a.m. - 0704 a.m. 0:14 Peer edit wave 5
0704 a.m. - 0710 a.m. 0:06 Upload wave 5; shut down
terminal HS 390
0710 a.m. - 0715 a.m. 0:05 Exit New Module; talk
to QC (Quality Manager) on the way; to main office; mark attendance
To continue
0924 a.m. - 0945 a.m. 0:21 Walk home
Outside the house...a
blue saree clad woman...along with some other women and men...were trying to
sell off...some other geisha...this old woman had a dog-like barking voice...a
voice nowadays I frequently hear...next door...on the South side of my
house...as I hear on the North side...the old woman’s voice...
So there is another old
woman now...with a dog-like voice...trying to sell her bitch...
This time I walked...from
the opposite side of the road...near the taxi stand...outside Hotel Pankaj...to
ensure...an instance like yesterday’s is not repeated...
Many a taxidriver at that
stand...were witnesses yesterday...as are today...and as I walk...I listen to
their hush/hush voices...at the grand technological scheme...implemented...by
many a young woman and their family...to lauch a combined strategy...to
sexually abuse the stalking victim...some how...
And what I am going
through...at the library...at the bus stop...opposite the house...just anywhere
outside my house of stay...are all different women...part of a combined
stalking group...doing a joint effort...to sexually abuse a man...and the chief
mode of instantaneous communication...between them...is the mobile phone...
You must have noticed
that last 2 weeks or so...I was rare...in uploading webpages...my daily
notes...for I was conducting a covert test...and yesterday night...I confirmed
my belief...
That thermal imaging
device...I mentioned in my diary notes...the date of the article is colored
specifically...it was 1998...NOW it is 2006...A more high tech device is now in
common use...I BELIEVE...
I will explain...the
reason behind that belief...
Yes...you can easily
brush this off...as the imagination of a Schizophrenic...
But...hear what I have to
say...my observation...
Whatever diary notes are
scribbled down in tiny fast writing...in rough paper...I have found that within
half an hour...this diary notes is instantaneously available for lots and lots
of people...at far away places...This material...they can even read at
leisure...at a later time...as if reading a webpage...
HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE??...
To zoom from a far away
distance...clearly decipher what I wrote...and then type it out in a
computer...upload onto a website...will take at least 2-3 hours...after I have
written, say 20 lines...now...
The common mistaken
belief...that 20 lines...others can read...at most 2-3 hours later...
But what I have
observed...in the last 2-3 weeks is that...it takes less than half an
hour...and it is available to lots of people...men and women...at far away
distances...places...
So the above process of
typing out...is not what is going on...
Some other high tech spy
equipment is IN OPERATION...which facilitates transfer of hand written
material...to a wider audience in less than half an hour...and it also allows
the reader...to create a database of it...so that...they can read...the earlier
writings...as if reading the front page of a book...instead of the last back
page...the latest writings...
I expect you the
reader...no matter in which part of the world...to conduct a covert investigation...on
the use of certain highly advanced spying equipment...in common
operation...among common people...
My stalking case is the
proof of such a new age privacy...human rights...personal
freedom...violation...
Remember...the same can
be applicable...any where...in your land too...but few are the
documentation...of such advanced devices being in common use...covertly...for
sexual abuse...
FOR IT IS JUST HARD...TO
DETECT THESE DEVICES...IN OPERATION...
Written around 0115 p.m.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Revised around 0523 a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
If you are a woman...a
sister to me...it is absolutely important...that you investigate this case...in
this city...of Thiruvananthapuram...be from any country you are...Try to learn
the modus operandi...used by the sexual predators...and ponder...the opposite
scenario...The scenario where male sex predators...use similar devices...for
raping any women out there...any time...any where...
You will then understand
the gravity of the scenario...when similar covert spy devices are in
operation...
The mobile phone...which
many a woman carry around...as security...as if that tiny thing is a security
guard...is nothing...
Say...you go
somewhere...a bit far from your home...In the time of emergency...for a far
away relative...say your father or brother or spouse...physically at a far away
distance...to respond to a call of distress...it will take at least half an
hour...to physically get to where you are...And when similar devices of indepth
24 hour monitoring is in place...it won’t take 5 minutes...of that
crucial vulnerable moment...to deflower you...
Remember that...
The right place...the
right time...the right circumstances...when nobody is around...5 minutes is too
much...of a time...for a rapist...tracking you...for months or more...to
fulfill his dream...to satiate himself...He just have to move in...at that
crucial juncture...do what he wanted to do...and disappear...without a
trace...back into darkness...into the shadows...from where he came from...
That is for a single
man...operating alone...
What about a gang of
men...with combined resources...
I face a gang of women
sex predators...their families...and allies...here in this city...a virtual
stalemate...
Turn whatever that
occurred here...all these 6+ years...around...and ponder from the angle
of...male sex predators and...women victims...
I...a mad
schizophrenic...guarantee (who cares?)...that a covert field research...on what
happened here...this nightmare...can lead to various insights...into many
aspects of human psychology...social life...human well-being...which can be
used as a basis for new laws...new ways of approach...a different
perception...and so on...
Written around 0132 p.m.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Revised around 0720 a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Emission Nil
How do I feel?
To continue
1053 a.m. - 1105 a.m. 0:12 Food: Rice, cabbage twaran, cauliflower
murujuvatti, a glass of water, a small cup of milk, muruku x1, a small
Rasakatali banana; discussion with mother
Around 1105 a.m.
The mental
noting...voices from a far away distance...
Pa-ri-cha-ya pe-dan
o-ki-la...mi-da-te e-ru-nu-ko-la-nam...you cannot introduce yourself to
him...develop friendship...or acquaintance with him...so sit quietly...
- The old woman...
Seems the old woman got a
similar age-group friend...trying to sell off her daughter too...
Written around 1110 a.m.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Revised around 0807 a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
I ask a question to my
old mother...as a little child...which only later...while pondering do I
understand...was a very mature question...
Do women put makeup on
their face alone?...
After some careful
thought...and silence...my old mother said...it depends on individual
women...and their personal tastes...
Couple of hours later...I
ponder on that...
Maybe if I have had asked
such a question to a young pretty woman...out of genuine innocence...and
curiosity...maybe I might have got a slightly different answer:
Do you put makeup...ONLY
in the face?...
No...we do decorate other
places also...but it depends on the context...circumstances...on the man...whom
to please...and so on...
Do you want to see makeup
in some other places?...
Then marry me...Then I
will show makeup...at a certain place...which you will NEVER EVER forget...
So when are you going to
marry me?...
I bet...you will badly
yearn to see it...whenever possible...
As an appetizer...it
smells so fragrant...it looks so captivating...and inviting...and it tastes so
good...
Once you taste it...you
will ever be a slave to it...addicted to that taste...
But then it is like
that...once in a blue moon bumper...jumbo lottery...
You cannot sit and
watch...do whatever you want to do...24 hours a day...on that...for I have
other things to do...not just sit and show that...always...
I will pity that
nymph...who try to restrict her fountain...from admiring...from tasting...
For with this high tech
development...toys...devices...I don’t even need her permission...to
enjoy whatever precious she got...to enjoy...everyday...for years...as long as
I want...without marrying her...and she won’t even know it...
And even if she does come
to know about it...she just won’t be able to do anything...to stop it...
That is all!...
Written around 0157 p.m.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Revised around 0813 a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Reference
The Old Testament of the King James Version of
the Bible (August,
1989) Project
Gutenberg etext
http://www.gutenberg.org/etext/10
20:17 And if a man shall take his sister, his
father's daughter, or his mother's daughter, and see her nakedness, and she see
his nakedness; it is a wicked
thing; and they shall be cut off in the sight of their people: he hath uncovered his sister's nakedness; he shall bear his iniquity.
20:18 And if a man shall lie with a woman
having her sickness, and shall uncover her nakedness; he hath discovered her
fountain, and she hath uncovered the fountain of her blood: and both of them shall be cut off from among their
people.
20:19 And thou shalt not uncover the nakedness
of thy mother's sister, nor of thy father's sister: for he uncovereth his near
kin: they shall bear their iniquity.
20:20 And if a man shall lie with his uncle's
wife, he hath uncovered his uncle's nakedness: they shall bear their sin; they shall die childless.
20:21 And if a man shall take his brother's
wife, it is an unclean thing: he hath uncovered his brother's nakedness; they shall be childless.
20:22 Ye shall therefore keep all my statutes, and all my
judgments, and do them:
that the land, whither I bring you to dwell therein, spue you not out.
20:23 And ye shall not walk in the manners of the nation, which
I cast out before you: for they committed all these things, and therefore I abhorred them.
-
The Third Book of
Moses: Called Leviticus
For the last 6+
years...did my voyeurs...ask my permission?...They only deny...
Written around 0813 a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
To continue
0750 p.m. - 0806 p.m. 0:16 Diary notes on paper
Du-sh-ta...cruel man...
- The sucker calling the stalking victim...
And I listen to distress
voices of the sucker to her family...
6+ years...If some
prostitutes think...they can monitor A-Z of a man...years and years...for the
sole purpose of sucking his penis...then, I don’t see any reason...why
such whores and their family...shall not be prosecuted...in a democratic
government setulp...for violation of individual rights...
So rotten whore...come
out to suck...bloody shit!...
Bring your mother
too...to suck along with...
Written around 0814 p.m.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Revised around 0835 a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Around 0822 p.m.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Ko-lla-nam...Must kill
him...
- The bastard...in a tone of seriousness...to his
family...some men are listeners to...
Written around 0822 p.m.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Revised around 0838.a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
The military court will
need to look into the above words of the voyeur...on why he said that...after
6+ years of stalking...surveillance...
Written around 0824 p.m.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Revised around 0841.a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
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Reference
National Law Enforcement and
Corrections Technology Center.(NLECTC) (Spring 1998)
TechBeat: Dedicated to Reporting Developments in Technology for Law
Enforcement, Corrections, and Forensics.
http://www.nlectc.org/pdffiles/94213-9.pdf
Despite strong interest, development and adoption of
criminal justice technology has been a slow process. There were scattered early
attempts to update police technology. An early example of police technology was
the
construction of the first modern polygraph in 1921 by a medical student and a
police officer.
However, it wasn’t until the explosion of technology during and
after World War II that law enforcement agencies were able to learn from developments in other organizations, particularly the military. Radio equipment and surveillance aircraft found
their way onto some larger police departments. But few devices were conceived and developed
specifically for law enforcement applications. It was with this in mind that
the U.S. Government began in the 1960s to assemble the resources to provide
specific technical assistance to the Nation’s law enforcement—and
later corrections and forensic science—communities.
...
“We believe in strength in numbers and in a strong
partnership between government, industry, and academe,” says Marilyn Cobb
Croach, UCF’s director of Federal relations.
“We have an amazing research base here, with the
Simulation Training and
Instrumentation Command, the
...
NLECTC–Northeast
26 Electronic Parkway •
Phone: 888–338–0584 • Fax:
315–330–4315 E-mail: [email protected].mil
• Concealed weapons detection technology.
• Contraband detection technology.
• Audio processing technology.
• Timeline analysis.
• Through-the-wall sensors technology.
• Distributed wireless communications.
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To continue
1134
p.m. - 1145 p.m. 0:11 Urinal; wash hands, face, eyes, mouth; wipe;
collect from the coffee machine; tea at the steps
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...monitoring...talking...
Written around 0913 p.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
He doesn’t
know....what is true?...what is false?...
- The medical representative...
What is true?...what is
false?...what is true and false?...what is true or false?...what is true but
not false?...what is false but not true?...
Written around 1146 p.m.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Revised around 0854.a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
To continue
Friday, November 17 2006
To continue
Around 0215 a.m. –
0300 a.m. Friday, November 17 2006
The medical representative...is
happy...jubilant (how I admire his happiness!)...that he was able to give...a
live demonstration...to some of the new monitors...at my ‘work
place’ (?)(!!)...
As if we are trying to
convert them...indirectly...
Written around 0319 a.m. Friday,
November 17 2006
Revised around 1024.a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
To continue
All through the night
shift...I delighted my new monitors...with my Google searching...some women
admire...some men jealous...as they constantly monitor my computer
activities...what I type...what I search on the web...their cyberstalking is
splendid...and some are a bit sad...at the possibility of me leaving their
company...when I typed out a short letter...to my TL...that I might be
leaving...look forward to opt for home transcription...For I have my usual
excuses...I have lots to study...
Their internal
monitoring...was as usual...supervised by my external monitors...from far
away...
Written around 0708 a.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
Revised around 1019.a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Couple of points
noted...in the discussion of my new...internal monitors...within the
company...is the use of mobile phone...for receiving zoomed
in...cyberstalked...as well as hand written material...and the
confirmation...that this ‘majestic typist’...is indeed
notorious...as is he...talked about...among the masses...all over the
city...”What they said...(the medical representative family and the
public...) is true...”
Written around 0739 a.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
Revised around 0731.p.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
And there was a notable
comment about my erotic writings...which pleases many a man...puts many a woman
to dream...that those high power activities...pressing activities...the
adventures of the bed...are written by someone...who is said to have come
out...of that physical interest...of the body...while what the others...the
Casanovas...who wish to test it...imitate it...with their weak body...are with
that yearning desire...to indulge...physically...with any woman...about what he
wrote...in a state of altered mind...of madness...
Written around 0903 a.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
Revised around 0738.p.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
To continue
1000 a.m. ~ 0100 p.m. 3:00 Sleep on mat, covered
with brown blanket
No dreams noted...
No carnal/erotic thoughts
noted...
No images of women noted
either...
Written around 0523 p.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
0100 p.m. – 0200
p.m. 1:00 Lay on mat, not sleepy
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...monitoring...talking...
Written around 0524 p.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
0200 p.m. – 0215
p.m. 0:15 Sit on mat, not sleepy
0215 p.m. – 0218
p.m. 0:03 Prostrate to the omnipresent
invisible Lord; stand
up; roll up mat; fold blanket; manual emission check; to toilet
Emission check: No emission stains noted...
Written around 0526 p.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
0218 p.m. – 0308
p.m. 0:50 Undress, emission
checkº, urinal¹, brush teeth², jala neti, thread neti, anoint
head with ayurvedic oil, clean wash basin area, prayer, shower, wipe the body
dry with a towel, prayer, apply a pinch of ayurvedic powder Rasnadi to head,
apply Quadriderm to the arm pit and pubic itchy areas, dress in towel
º Emission check: No emission stains noted...
Written around 0531 p.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
¹ Urinal: Some bubbles in urine...most of them
vanish in 1-3 minutes...leaving clear water...behind...
No physical
tiredness...to the body...noted...
I thus classify this
instance of sleeping as...No emission...
May the Lord be
praised...
Inshallah!
Written around 0531 p.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
Emission Nil
How do I feel?
² Listen to the voices
of my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...talking...
He is aggressive...
-
The Australian woman stalker...
I was naked...and very
jolly...pleasant...and as it happens to many...who when naked...in the privacy
of their bathroom...suddenly feel a pang...to imitate the best singer in the
world...so too I...and I sing...whatever my mind feels like...and along with
the blabbering...I reply to the invisible voice...
O Vittal...they say you
are aggressive...you the most calm...the most serene one...
Have you not been...the
most aggressive one...then where would have been we?...None of the things that
we see...that we don’t see...would ever have been there...had you been
not the most aggressive oneº...
We got a form...a
body...ONLY because you were aggressive...
Strange that some
translated...you felt lonely...you wanted company...so you created...whatever
is out there¹...
Strange too...that
you...the most serene one...advocate...stillness...calmness...expect us to
follow the commandments...precepts...while you are...the most aggressive
one...without ANY self-control²...too!!...
But then that is what
makes you the greatest...Only you the invisible sublime one have the right for
this strange duality...
We...the weak
mortals...just have to abide...to your laws...
That is it...
Written around 0544 p.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
Revised around 0646.p.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
º There would have
been only that single form...invisible...sublime...energy...no Matter...nothing
else...Just you alone...nan nan ma-tr-am...I I alone...in all respects...
Written around 0614 p.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
Revised around 0649.p.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
¹ If that is
true...then to create...you need to be aggressive...
To create all those infinite
things...you need to be very, very aggressive...
Written around 0615 p.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
Revised around 0650.p.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
² Ponder...the most
aggressive one...the greatest criminal...teaching others...to be the most calm...the
serenest monk...
Laugh...at that joke!!...
Laugh...and laugh...and
laugh...at that madness...
Written around 0620 p.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
Revised around 0652.p.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
To continue
0415 p.m. - 0430 p.m. 0:15 Food: Rice, steamed legumes, ginger pickle, a
small Rasakatali banana, a glass of yoghurt and water
0430 p.m. - 0500 p.m. 0:30 Snacks: a quarter piece of Muruku; discussion
with mother
I talk about Christ...his union with the
so-called Devil...the evil called killing...the eating of flesh/meat/fish...
Written around 0648 p.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
Revised around 1032.a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Around
0640 p.m. Friday,
November 17 2006
A short flare up...Along with the loud
blabbering...I suddenly blurt out...in agitation...
An-di ta-da-vi-ya-le o-ra-kam
va-ru-lu...can sleep only when the penis is coddled...gently
stroked...massaged...
An extremely vulgar phrase in
Malayalam...which I used about the persistent women stalkers...who it
seems...can go to sleep...only when your penis is coddled...gently
stroked...massaged...by their deft fingers...breasts...
After blurting it out...I sit in serene
silence...and suddenly ponder on the reverse implication...of that beautiful
phrase...
I who work night shift...rarely sleep at
night...face the same scenario...as do my stalkers...one for...one against...
I...6+ years of sleeping at night...as
normal people...
But they stayed awake...and did
everything...to make me not to go to sleep...not to have a good sound sleep...by
constantly talking obscene things...of love...lust...sex...rape...and so
on...so as to somehow cause emission in the stalking victim...make him
physically tired...
No...I don’t want to write the
same material...over and over again...I leave it to the
psychologists...psychiatrists...law enforcement...court of law...the
government...to ponder...
Written around 0656 p.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
Revised around 0522.p.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Any person...who works continuous night shift...knows
how difficult it is...to have a normal sound sleep...a good sleep...during the
day...especially during hot scorching weather...
Back in 1996-1997...before going to the
monastery...I faced similar scenario...with the Australian stalker...
With the night shift...you just
can’t sleep properly during the day...
Something have to be there...which can
tire your body...a bit more...so that it remains dead...for at least 5-6
hours...
To have a 6-hour sleep is really a
boon...
If you are married...maybe you can
indulge with your spouse...in the morning...and that might make you
sleep...like a log...
You can even keep a woman...under the
title of girlfriend...ask her to have a good night’s sleep...and come to
see you in the morning...when you return from work...
And you undress her...ask her to assume
various positions...and vent all your anger...of working nightshift...by
inserting...pushing and prodding...your rod...into her hole...for half an hour
or so...to make you sleep...
But then I was not married...and I
wanted to sleep...
So there was a time where I used the
same concept...of...
An-di ta-da-vi-ya-le o-ra-kam
va-ru-lu...can sleep only when the penis is coddled...gently
stroked...massaged...
In other words...masturbation...just to
make me sleep...and those masturbation sounds...were keenly listened to...by
the woman stalker...
Various methods were used to have a good
masturbation...and some of them were a bit noisy...like the bed moving to and
fro...which made many a woman neighbour suddenly wise...and sad...in the
morning...
Early morning...a small sleepy
university town...even a small sound...will assume a very audible nature...
After months of testing...such diverse
methods...I understood...that it only weakens the mind and body...with no long
term benefits...other than ill health...due to tremendous loss of that fluid...
And I just have to find alternate
methods...
Written around 1058.a.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
The irony is...that
masturbation...sometimes even daily...gave an impression to the stalker that
she had made a right decision...in coming over...to stay opposite my
residence...to hunt me down...for normal working men insert only once or
twice...or even thrice...a week...while here is a guy...with lots of
energy...who masturbates nearly every day...And if you corner such an
aggressive guy...he can make you happy...everyday...which other men may not be
able to...
During the initial stages of the
masturbation...after night shift...I toyed with the idea...of going over...and
talk...to that unusually pretty, young, white woman...who stands outside her
residence...opposite the street...every day I return from work...
You start with talking to her
casually...
Then slowly...invite her over to your
residence for a cup of tea or coffee...
And then slowly...invite her to your
room...for more personal conversation...
And then slowly...invite her to bed...to
lay down and talk...
And then once the initial bodily
introductions are over...ask her...to come over...every day morning...for a
half an hour or so humping...instead of just standing there and staring...for
more better understanding...before you decide...should you marry her or not...
During the climax days of
masturbation...whenever I used to have sex with the unfortunate bed...I used to
listen to her pangs...within her residence...across the street...her increased
beating of heart...her sudden cries of fuck...fuck...fuck...as those goose
which quack...quack...quack...her excited passion...her thoughts about her
object of obsession...indulging with someone...you are supposed to be
there...be that someone...but you are not there physically...
Finally I got sick of the bed...it is
croaking too much...its legs give away to my continuous pressing...that ever
increasing pressure for more and more...
I threw the bed away...
...
And slowly commenced the ascetic
practices...from experience...
...
Today...after years...when I look back
at those days...I am very proud of...due to the experience gained...
When I look at the physical and mental
constitution of many of my women lovers...a thought dawns...that majority of
these women are of weak constitution...their flesh just cannot withstand a
strong aggressive bout...for days and days...They have great ideas of sex...but
their body is just not fit...to withstand...what they dream of...
I know from experience...a good
aggressive bout...will leave many of these women mutiliated...for life...a body
which is not trained to withstand high pressure...physically or mentally...
And I pity them...for harboring desires
of the forbidden...
And I also understand that...ONLY
through ascetic practices...can a sex maniac like me...can further...nurture my
weakness...into a strength...of vast potential...for union...with anything...in
the mental world...through the mind...
Inshallah!
Written around 0600.p.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Revised around 0726.p.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Yesterday when I added the word
military...to the court of law...my monitors...especiallly the foreign ones got
a bit worried...
Ponder...on the use of this high tech
devices...the various examples I have cited...I have experienced as
violation...its misuse...
Don’t you think...the security of
any nation is AT GRAVE DANGER...RISK...when similar devices are in common
use...
That is what I expect...whoever who
investigate this case to ponder onº...
You have a state of emergency...a state
of danger...to counter which...no civilian government can handle or respond
to...once you fully understand the ramifications...the implications...when similar
devices are in common use...
The removal of ignorance...even
partially...like that slight lifting of the veil...to bring in distilled amount
of wisdom...can bring about great changes...turmoil...panic...
Written around 0708 p.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
Revised around 0629.p.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
º My individual case...my
experience...the issues...that affect this body...this city of nine
gates...this forbidden city...this Patala...this hell...this heaven...when
stretched over...like a rubber band...the same rubber band...to a town...to a
city...to a state...to a nation...to a continent...the whole planet...the whole
world...
The dangers remain the same...the same
external threats...the same internal problems...regarding lack of submission to
Will...to authority...
All remains the same...as it is...
Written around 0718 p.m.
Friday, November 17 2006
Revised around 0634.p.m.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
To continue
Saturday, November 18
2006
To continue
Ka-li ka-ri-yam
ma-yi-po-yi...the game got serious...
- The cabaret dancer to the
medical representative...on my seriousness...
It may be about the
stalking/monitoring issue...it may be about my personal life...
How can you achieve
something...anything...without being serious...devoted...to it...to the cause?...
Written around 0248 a.m.
Saturday, November 18 2006
No...my monitors should not worry about the
concepts...of military takeover...and so on...
Ponder...on
the state of Israel...a small land...the so-called promised land...but surrounded
from all sides...by enemies...the state is always in a state of emergency...a
state where it is the civilians who rule...civilians who are de-facto military
members...a state where there is compulsory military education...compulsory
military training...compulsory military service...for a certain period of
time...where each individual...man...woman...youth...is expected to return back
to the barracks...when the state goes to defend itself...during war...
During the time of
so-called peace...the non-active...surplus...soldiers live a state of civilian
life...
And there is no
retirement...from the military...you are always on service...on duty...on
call...to serve the nation...any time...even until old age...as long as you are
able...healthy...able to walk...able to handle a weapon...even it be a
knife...to save...to serve...the motherland...
The ultimate ideal is
that One nation...the whole planet as One nation...with freedom of movement
anywhere...to live anywhere...to work anywhere...
As long as such a state
of oneness...a federation of states...is NOT achieved...you
just have to abide...with the near best option...
That is all...
Written around 0308 a.m.
Saturday, November 18 2006
Revised around 1150 a.m.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Discussion
with mother...
On the role
of portraits...idols externally...and its ideal requirement...to be in your
mind always...
The viewing of Mara...as
a separate entity...as well as a thought process...or even part of yourself...
Written around 0344 a.m.
Saturday, November 18 2006
Are
monks...priests...exempt from military service...or given a minor role as a
military pastor?...
Those who train to be
celibates...will go...by default...to the higher commando training...
They will
be trained...for those high-risk...deep penetration...covert
activities...within enemy territory...NOT in minor roles...as is now
prevalent...
You will remain a
monk...a priest...a nun...but also a warrior...as those Christian Templars...as
those warrior Buddhist monks...as those of the Naga army...of yesterdays...
Written around 0349 a.m.
Saturday, November 18 2006
Revised around 1151 a.m.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Oh! Yes!...yesterday...I
also talked about that...ancient South Indian sage...Bhogar...the Siddha...who
developed the Black stone...according to certain alchemic rules...and installed
in Mecca...
The cradle of
that modern day religion...going under the title of Islam...
The Siddha...whose
so-called samadhi...is said to be at Palani...in Tamil
Nadu...the hills where the temple of the God of War...Lord Muruga...is
situated...
Ponder on the concept of
warfare...across nations...the God of War...the modern Islam
‘extremism’...
Written around 0454 a.m.
Saturday, November 18 2006
Revised around 1152 a.m.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Now you know...how mad I
am...writing too much of speculation...
Written around 0457 a.m.
Saturday, November 18 2006
To continue
Sunday, November 19 2006
To continue
1105 a.m. - 1111 a.m. 0:06 Walk home
Pulimoodu junction...the man standing
to cross
a-ra-va-taa...a-ra-va-taa...O
half-mad...O half-mad...
-
A young man loudly calling the man...from the back...behind him...as noted by the
medical representative family...from a far away distance...
The young man is probably working in
one of the shops there...and want to tease the man...loudly...for other people
to hear...
Without heeding...not bothering...the
man crosses the road...and walk towards home...
How kind is that man...calls me
half-mad...while I call myself fully mad...
Written around 0912 p.m.
Sunday, November 19 2006
Revised around 0837.p.m.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Go...go
and stand outside...
- The old woman to the sucker...as
the man walked past the closed Repromen...
The
woman is probably referring to my yesterday’s writings...the man is
returning home...from work...tired...and if the sucker can stand
outside...shaking with undergarments...or slowly gyrating her fat
hips...conveying an unspoken message...maybe the tired man might feel
passion...get heated...and allow the thirsty woman to wipe his pubic
area...around his penis...with her tongue...using her saliva as polish...and
allow her to quench her Sunday morning thirst...by sucking the juice out of
that fat cucumber...
The
man reaches home...ring the calling bell...and wait for his mother to open the
door...
While
waiting...he walks to the side...and looks at Repromen...
The
institute is closed for Sunday...
He
will come...and beat...
- The sucker to the old woman...monitoring the
man...
The
man just confirmed the use of deliberate conversation...between the
monitors...as if to increase his tension...
Probably
this monitors must be somewhere far away...maybe 2-5 kilometers away...probably
within the safety of their private residence...and watching the overall
activities of their victim...and whenever the ideal surroundings come up...they
use apt words...to infuriate their victim...
Written around 0912 p.m.
Sunday, November 19 2006
Revised around 1019.a.m.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
To continue
Monday, November 20 2006
To continue
Tuesday, November 21 2006
To continue
0917 p.m. - 0927 p.m. 0:10 To Pattom
0927 p.m. - 0939 p.m. 0:12 Wait near bus bay for company
bus; diary notes on paper
It is also strange...that in some
missions...it is the commando who goes in first...destroys that that is
vital...and then the regular army follows behind...
Written around 0938 p.m.
Tuesday, November 21 2006
As
the car neared the public bus bay...I note two women standing in the bus
bay...one young 20-30 years old...the other 40-50 years old...a young man 20-35
years old was sitting on a motor bike...leisurely...and talking to them...the
time is nearly 09:30 p.m. at night...
I
didn’t look at any of them...
I
stood a little bit away from them...who knows whether they are prostitutes or
not...standing at such a late hour...near a traffic junction...under the
pretext of boarding a bus...they were well dressed...which doesn’t give
any first impression...to their trade...
Many
a bus came...these women didn’t board any of them...they continued
talking to their so-called customer...pleasing his penis...with their nocturnal
sweet talk...
As I
stood a bit further...scribbling my diary notes...I note the loud voices of the
young woman...she is excited...and talking about me...my story which is public
secret...in this city...on how I humiliated women...and so on...
As
it is getting late for work...and since I missing the company bus...at this
boarding point also...I board the car...to get to Technopark...my father will
drop me...
As
the car moved...I note the conversation of the Brahmin family...
The
old man is asking the young woman...why she stood there...
Oops!...so
was that whore...one of my voyeurs...that saintly lover...
If
it was her...I really didn’t expect...this woman...to stand at that
place...at so late an hour...and do a preplanned run-in...
I
thought...was under the impression...that this Brahmin saint...will have some
decency...maybe she may exhibit herself...within some temple...or so...
The
voices of the medical representative family trio...continue as usual...bearing
a silent witness...from a far away distance...to all the documented events...
Written around 1052 a.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
Revised around 1058 a.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
0939 p.m. - 0958 p.m. 0:19 To Technopark by car
To continue
1037 p.m. - 1041 p.m. 0:04 To main office; mark
attendance
a-ga-ne ma-na-m
ke-du-ta-ru-te...one should not humiliate like that...
- A young woman...
If this implies...about
my women stalkers...and my abuses...
Yes...I did abuse a
lot...I feel sorry...
Now what I went
through...from the hands of those women sex predators...for over 6+ years...
Just turn the whole
scenario around...
A man...or a group of
men...as male sex predators...doing the same thing...to any woman...out
there...
Voyeurism...surveillance...stalking...sexual
baiting...harrassment...teasing publically on any hole activity...especially
the vaginal leakage...or anal expelling...or breast discharge if any...of the
woman victim...
JUST MAKE SURE...THE SAME
COMMENT IS VALID THERE TOO...
The woman victim...should
not abuse...humiliate...her male voyeurs...monitors...abusers...this much...like
what I did...
I believe it
is...acceptable?...
For here...all those
women tried to do...was to love...to make him happy...to have sex with him...
And since more women are
there...make him that more happy...
For there...all those men
try to do...was to love...to make her happy...to have sex with her...
And if more men are
there...it is make her that more happy...
That is all...
And since it is all
about...love of a different kind...I should not go to court...for it is natural
to fall in love...with anything beautiful...cute...smart...or even rich...
And if I don’t go
to court...so too should any woman...out there...
Praise your rapists...as
I follow the advice of my women stalkers...
Sing always...Oh!...my
beloved monitors...my greatest friends...my beloved rapists...and so on...
Written around 1048 p.m.
Tuesday, November 21 2006
Revised around 0843 p.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
And pray for them...my
Lord...forgive them...may you wash away their sins...they were just a little
bit naughty...mischievous...like little children...
That is all...
Written around 0843 p.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
Revised around 0845 p.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
To continue
Wednesday, November 22
2006
To continue
Around 0250 a.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
i-vi-de kon-du nir-ti
ka-ni-ku-ka-ya-nu...they are bring them here...to show him...
- A woman’s voice nearby...
That many a family are
bringing their marriageable daughters...to Technopark...at night...to show
him...which sometimes include the main women stalkers also...and all
such...other show offs are under the monitoring...witness...of the main
stalking groups...
I suspect the
break-times...the intervals...when I leave the computer lab for
outside...suddenly women appearing from nowhere...I think...I have to take
random breaks...instead of a fixed time...and test it out...
Written around 0253 a.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
Revised around 1151 a.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
Around 1145 a.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
There is security
there...outsiders cannot enter...(the Technopark campus)...
- The medical representative loudly...in the
presence of his family...while cyberstalking this diary notes...as they are
being typed onto the computer...
Written around 0835 p.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
Yes...officially you have
the excuse...that entry passes are needed...outsiders are not allowed
entry...and so on...
But with the daily new
voices...I hear at night...I suspect...some inside contact is sufficient...to
breach that rule...
Just have the entry pass
of someone...who is working at Technopark...maybe working at someother
shift...and a whole family can drive in...showing that pass at the gates...that
is all...
Once inside the
building...you can lay in wait...ANYWHERE...constantly monitoring
him...understanding his regular pattern of nightlife...
Whenever he leaves the
computer lab... just mingle with other women workers...walk past him...stand
near the women’s toilet...sit by the steps near the toilet...be in the
tea lounge...and so on...all to show off that makeup...
And the ideal time is
always the shift change time...when there is a huge crowd in and around the
office...Mingling with the thick crowd at that time...can even help you...to
brush your breasts against his body...to get the feel of it...
Written around 1204 p.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
To continue
0350 a.m. - 0357 a.m. 0:07 Tea at tea lounge
e-ni-ku pe-di
aa-vu-nu...I am getting frightened...
- The sucker to her family...in a mock distress voice...while
monitoring the man having tea...
6+ years of stalking...If
I haven’t exposed the stalking...to the world...to read...I don’t
think this bastard would have any fear...
If I did not publish my
diary notes...the stalking...and surveillance...will continue as such...without
any fear...for no one else knows what is going on...
I published some of my
diary notes...
And the stalking
continues...inspite of that publication...
It means this bastard
just don’t fear anyone...nor do her family...
And now they bank their
hopes...on other women...who may be more prettier...than that shitface...the
cabaret dancer...in hunting down the stalking victim...
For if he doesn’t
turn on even after showing the woman to him for over 6+ years...it just
means...the woman is not beautiful enough...to turn him on...so let some else
try...
We just watch from far
away...and when he is tired with that woman...we will resume again...for it
will be then...just another hole to explore...to shake the penis in...
A different variety of
taste...if you go by a sex connoisseur’s standards...
Written around 0405 a.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
Revised around 1221 p.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
Locally...the same words
have a common use...in a different context...a romantic context...
e-ni-ku pe-di
aa-vu-nu...I am getting frightened...
When a young man and a
young woman...together are alone in a place...say a house...a lonely park...a
lonely spot of a beach...and so on...the excited woman says this...to act
submissive...to turn on the manliness of the man...to give that sense of
protection to her...that someone is there as a guardian...to protect her...and
you implement that feeling of security...to look after her...to care for
her...by removing that feeling of fear...of insecurity...by becoming one with
her...to boost her inner strength...by entering her...in that secluded
area...by satisfying her as much as she want...
Written around 1228 p.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
Revised around 1232 p.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
To continue
0807 a.m. - 0815 a.m. 0:08 Walk home
Around 0812 a.m. – 0815 a.m. A
suspected run-in
Pulimoodu junction...the man standing
to cross
The man crosses the road...a young woman
20-30 years old...in light shining green churidar...quickly crosses the road
from the opposite side...as if towards the Shanta Paint House direction...
Without looking at her...I walk towards
home...
On entering the Ambuja Vilasom
Road...just after the Kesari Buildings...a dark blue/black/green small car was
parked...looked expensive...the car paint was shining...and a man in white
50-60 years of age...sat in the driver’s seat...he was fiddling a mobile
phone...as if in constant communication with someone far away...the mobile
phone had a blue lighted screen...and he was holding it up...at the steering
wheel...to give the impression...that he is busy...
The sight of the expensive looking
car...on the left side of the road...at this time of early morning...when most
of the shops are closed...surprised me...and also made me suspicious...and few
are the people on the road...
I note the registration of the
car...KL-01 AK 6652...I don’t know the model or make of the car...It is
one of those fancy new models...small type...which is frequently seen...among
the so-called prestigious...head-weight people of the city...
I walked past the car...and the car
slowly rolled past me...to give the impression...that the car left...was not
parked there on purpose...
At the junction...in front of my
house...this car...went into the narrow Lukes’s lane...the vital
mistake...of the driver...who must have dropped that woman bait...and was
waiting for her return...
As I neared my house...I watched the
car...that went into that blind alley...proudly...slowly...
At the far end...just before Holiday
Inn...the car turned into the car park of a multistory building at the right
side...reversed...and turned back...to return...back to the junction...
From a far away distance...that old
man...must have spotted me...standing outside my house...watching his
tantrums...going all the way into Lukes Lane...just to reverse a small car...
He spotted me...staring at him...from a
far away distance...and he was a sort of trapped...he comes up...he will expose
his embarrassment...so he stopped his car there...and waited...
Confirming that it was indeed a
preplanned run-in...I walked into my house...for I don’t want to create a
scene...by going up and asking that old man...
Old man...why do you pester young men...just
because you have an unmarried woman at home...your daughter most probably...
Can’t you lick her hole
everyday...and satisfy her...and thus help her...to control herself...instead
of pestering other men...to do the same...
Do you have any weakness...sexual
weakness...at this old age...that prevents you from indulging...But you dress
yourself as a man...
The
voices of the medical representative family trio...continue as usual...bearing
a silent witness...from a far away distance...to all the documented events...
The
voices of the Brahmin family...is also noted...bearing a silent witness...from
a far away distance...to all the documented events...
Both groups are worried...that I
immediately understood a run-in is going on...and a vital evidence...the
vehicle registration number is noted down...
As I said...my stalking story is the
talk of the town...few are the women who haven’t heard my story...
And I humiliated women...
And today...many a woman want to regain
the lost humiliation...and the only way to achieve that...is to some how
sexually abuse me...suck my penis forcibly...or force sex onto me...
And today...many a young woman harbor
that desire...to get even with this monster...who scarred the very name of
womanhood...
And sweet...and soft are the initial
steps...of sexual baiting...
Written around 1138 a.m.
Wednesday, November 22 2006
0815 a.m. - 0819 a.m. 0:04 Reach home; diary notes
on paper
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November 25, 2006
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kamaxidevi homoeopathic
medical college goa
vinayaka mission
homoeopathic medical college
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http://www.collegesintamilnadu.com/Medical/Medical_index.htm
http://www.collegesintamilnadu.com/Medical/vm_homoeo.htm
http://www.shi.ch/english/index.html
Internet cameras let police peek into businesses
http://www.jsonline.com/story/index.aspx?id=530093
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Panel works to improve tracking of sex offenders
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Photo technology to aid in search for abducted
children
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Brown wants to expand GPS monitoring beyond tracking
sex offenders
http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?file=/chronicle/archive/2006/11/10/BAGF7MA7DB1.DTL
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Professors devise way to detect secret data in
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jain monasteries
Karnataka
MD homoeopathy psychiatry India
The Jain Legacy In
Karnataka
http://www.indiaprofile.com/religion-culture/jainisminkarnataka.htm
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...
Jainism
is divided into two sects of Swetambara and Digambara.
The Swetambara monks wear white and Digambara ascetics who practice
extreme renunciation have to discard even the last piece of cloth or the barest
necessity of life,
to
overcome worldly binding.
Similarly sallekhana or death by observing
religious injunction of fast unto death is not only permitted in Jainism2, but also held
in high esteem.
Individuals who have died observing sallekhana are remembered
in special epitaphs known as nishidi or nisadi stones.
...
Jaina faith lays stress on charity as a path towards
self-realization. This charity is fourfold, consisting of food, shelter,
medicine, and donating of books. This aspect of charity has helped the spread of
education and learning in a great measure. Granthadāna or giving of religious books was
common to all faiths but
among
Jains it took an institutionalized form and helped
masses a good deal to acquire knowledge.
...
All the Jaina Preceptors, acharyas, upadhyas and sādhus or
shramanas were recluses and did not have a family or place of their own. They belonged to
the whole humanity. To avoid attachment to worldly things, they kept on moving. Jaina mathas
and basadis that existed throughout the country made provisions for the stay,
food and religious discourses of ascetics. These mathas provided shelter
and education to students of other faiths as well.
...
In the days when education could not be separated from religion, both mingled
to motivate individuals with character-building and
leading a pious life.
JAIN TEMPLES: in Karnataka, Tamil Nadu and Orissa
http://www.cbmphoto.co.uk/States/Tjain.html
http://www.indiantemplesportal.com/karnataka/vithala-temple-hampi.html
History:
Moodabidri
http://www.moodabidri.com/moodabidri/hist.html
http://www.pearlsindiatour.com/badami-cave-temple.html
Badami
http://199.236.117.161/tourism/badami.html
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Indian
Homoeopathic Medical Association
Mrigendra Das, Nitin Gupta, Kavita
Dutta. (2002) Psychiatric training in
http://pb.rcpsych.org/cgi/content/full/26/2/70
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...
Practice of psychiatry in
Psychiatry is an evolving speciality in
There are currently approximately 3000
psychiatrists in
Although there is a Mental Health Act, use of
mental health legislation is virtually non-existent, with most trainees having
only read about it. The probable reasons for less reliance on the mental health law
are cultural; family members
often persuade patients to seek treatment and the advice of the doctor is often seen as binding. Similarly, the strength of social networks and
involvement of the family in the management of the patient probably makes up,
to some extent, for the lack of community care. Effective management of
patients can be compromised because primary care
is not well developed
and lines
of communication between the private and government psychiatrists are poor.
There are important differences with respect to
developed countries in the epidemiology, manifestations and outcome of mental
illness, which influence the practice of psychiatry in
Comment
Psychiatry is still an evolving speciality in
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Around
0110 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Ae-ge-ru-de
a-du-thu che-nu en-ta-ghi-lum som-sa-ri-kan pa-tu-mo...Can we ever go near him
to talk...will it be possible to talk anything...
- The sucker to the medical
representative...as if worried...
Something
like going up to the stalking victim...after years of surveillance...to
talk...to pacify...with sweet smiles of the sucker...you have to forgive
me...it was this burning urge...for insertion...that made me to watch...that
was supposed not to be watched...
Hi...forgive
me...hi...forgive me...every day on accousting the victim...purposely...
Their
irritating talk from a distance...all these years...I should not care now...
I
should only care what they talk to me face to face...
I
wonder...when I am going to be a fool like that...to listen...only to what
people say to you face to face...while all the time...they said something
else...from a distance...and to others...on trapping him...to pull his thing
in...ku-thu-ka...and so on...
Interesting...that
there are women...who are willing to talk...to come forward to talk...in spite
of what they have done...without any shame...
I
always thought...a person who did something bad...will have something called
conscience...that prevents him or her...from seeing his or her victim...face to
face...due to shame...
After
all...after the deed...WHAT IS THERE TO TALK??...whatever
happened...happened...you cannot go to the past and correct it...
And
thus there is no point in citing excuses either...
Written
around 0129 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Revised
around 1003 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Ponder...how
about this...the imaginary scenario...the sucker meets the victim...face to
face...
You
have to forgive me...it was this burning urge...for insertion...that made me to
watch...that was supposed not to be watched...
I am
very sorry...that I didn’t ask any permission...for watching...for I
thought it will be mine, anyway...or someday...
And
now...I am still single...unmarried...and continue to think of you...
Hope
you understand...as a man...u-ru pu-ru-shan e-na ni-la-yil...ma-na-si-la-kum
en-nu pra-ti-shi-ku-nu...
And
the sucker walks away...with a seductive, lingering smile...leaving the ball in
the victim’s court...leaving the victim in a dilemma...with that strange
throb down under...that erect penis suffocating suddenly...
From
a far away distance...the medical representative...zooming beyond those
pants...fills with so much happiness...watching that heart throb down
under...that he too gets a gigantic erection...in spite of his old age...
And
that old woman...watching from a safe distanceº...who accompanied the
sucker as a security guard...on finding the less-than-one-minute confortation
was a success...without any nasty ending¹...suddenly feels her old bra is
a bit too short...those breasts seem to have gotten a bit heavy...enlarged...in
spite of her old age...
Written
around 0751 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Revised
around 0849 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
º
so that...in case he happen to run towards her...immediately understand...it is
to trash her...so need run away for life...more faster than him...and that safe
distance might be helpful...as an
extra mileage...a good start...
Run
with her saree pulled up...to the thighs...revealing those
beautiful...crane-like ko-ki-de ka-lu po-le...dark, slender legs...to
onlookers...so as to run with top speed...so that the saree doesn’t block
her speed...by limiting those legs...as if shackles...limiting to take giant
strides...
Written
around 0757 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Revised
around 0931 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
¹
On looking more keenly...from a distance...
No...she
didn’t kiss him...
No...he
didn’t kiss her...
No...she
didn’t slap him...
No...he
didn’t slap her...
Written
around 0859 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Around
0156
a.m.
Monday, November 27, 2006
Chu-ma-te
pa-ra-nu che-tam...simply bluffing...in style...
- A woman to the sucker...cyberstalking the
man’s computer...commenting the highlighting of philosophical/religious
articles...by the man...
If
this is Chu-ma-te pa-ra-nu che-tam...then something else have to be...real and
concrete...
And
according to my reasoning...on pondering on majority of the common
alternatives...that pushing/pulling in the penis is the only thing...real and
concrete...
I
am looking for reasons...to say this observation...from experience...is
false...
Written
around 0202 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Revised
around 0345 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
And
that explains...why I nowadays...write in a degraded...B-grade manner...in a
vulgar way...combining the opposites...for to many...that way is THE ONLY
way...to make them read...AND to understand...something...at least to a certain
extent...
Written
around 0206 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Revised
around 0217 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
The sexy
part...attracts their attention...bring them in...to read...more on
sex...pornography...kamasutra...as if it is something that might teach
them...how to seduce better...how to captivate the other/s so much, so as to
follow you everywhere like a dog...how to kiss better...how to push/pull in
better...how to heat the other/s up, by diverse means, when ever you feel
so...how to enjoy the other/s, by diverse means...
Then
there is a pondering part...while they idle their time...later on...
The
end stage of pondering...about the higher stages of tantrism...on total
abstaining from all sexual indulgence...is left to them...as THE
option...physically...and then slowly...mentally...
In
other words...we start with the lower dark side...slowly move on to the white
side...and then again move on...to remain in the higher dark side...to complete
the circle...with that white always being with you...as a subset...as a
relative measure...as that ray of light...surrounded by the overwhelming
darkness...
Everything
as it is...but with a difference...
Written
around 0216 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Revised
around 0404 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Reference
Kali. Part 1
http://sivasakti.com/articles/tantra/kali-art79.html
The description of the Great Cosmic Power Kali describes her
as being dark as the night, dancing over Shiva's inert, white body. This representation reveals
the significance of the two fundamental aspects of Reality: on one hand there is the dynamic, imanent aspect of God (Kali's
dance) and on the other the static, transcendent aspect of consciousness
(identified with Shiva).
Shiva is white because he signifies the infinite
divine light (prakasha), inert because the absence of movement and action
reveals the consciousness pure, homogenous and compact.
On the other hand, Kali's dance signifies the
dynamic, active aspect of the Divine, and the dark color of her skin indicates
that the processes of the creation are disolved in Kali.
From a different perspective, Kali is also the
creator of the universes, as they come to life from the ashes of the Divine
Consciousness' purifying fire. Consequently, Kali's action is deeply evolutionary, as she impels the human
beings towards evolution, sometimes in a painful manner.
Nonetheless, Kali performs her actions in the divine
light and harmony, knowing that this is the best thing to do. Those who
manage to pass all the tests and go through all the stages are in truth
spiritual heroes, and they will be rewarded with
Kali's spiritual grace.
I
talk with my mother...on heating up...
Those
night shifts can cause the brain to liquefy...ta-la u-ru-ku-ka...due to intense
heat...according to my mother...
Anything
secretion...need some impetus...
You
sexually heat up...to bring out that liquid...from the penis...
You
eat food...to heat up the digestive system...to secrete digestive juices...
By
exercising you heat some exocrine glands...to secrete outside the body...
So
too in the brain...
The
endocrine glands...which secrete...into the body...some vital hormones...you
can speed that up...with adequate heating...
And
to the yogis...tantrics...the secretions of the endocrine glands...especially
in the brain...are very vital...
You
just have to heat up...by diverse means...to stimulate those glands...
And
at night...that romantic god...the moon...Lord Chandra...provide an ideal
cooling to such a heat generated...whereas the Sun god can drain it off...cause
more exhaustion...if the same is followed during daytime...his heat in the
physical world is tremendous during daytime...while at night...with less heat
in the surroundings to interfere...we heat the mind...
And
hence...any aspirant...in this path...have to train to stay awake...at least 6
of the 7 nights...a week...do what you want at
night...work...pray...study...just do anything...they all lead to the same
goal...BUT no leakage of that liquidº...from downunder...
Something
I believe ought to be made compulsory...to any monk...priest...or any
one...feeling attracted towards the path of spirituality¹...towards the
so-called god...towards the so-called devil...
Yes...they
say...prolonged night shift...can cause madness...
I admire
madness...I delve in madness...I live in madness...
You
just need madness...fanatic religious following is nothing but madness...and
that is what I try to bring about...total madness...the way of looking at this
world...in a totally different way...other than the socially accepted
conventional manner...of pseudo
rules...laws...behavior...etiquette...regulations...etc...
My
experience...the way they tried to pull me out...of this...made me to go more
deeper into that ocean...to save myself...and I became a fanatic...for only
fanatism...brings about a mental condition...something very hard to reverse
back...so that it will be more harder for my pursuers...hunters...to do
anything...
Remember
they never followed...the socially accepted conventional manner...of pseudo
rules...laws...behavior...etiquette...regulations...etc...
To
them...it is the goal of the mission...that matters...and so should I follow...
the goal of the mission...alone matters...
Strange...that
when I became them...I followed the same mission...what they followed for the
physical world...I carried it over...into the mental world...for union with
that ocean...and thereby nullifying everything in the physical world...
Written
around 0411 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Revised
around 1011 a.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
º Reference
Dr.
S. Chidambarathanu Pillai. (1991) Siddha System of Life. (1/e)
Kayakalpam
In Siddha
medicine, to preserve the body of human-being without being destroyed or
attacked by diseases,
Kayakalpam (like Stone)
is in practice. It would be of three types:
(1) Mani: It
conveys various meanings viz. grain, pearl etc.
Here anyone of
the mercury, sulphur, paadaanam and salt is converted into MANI (Rasamani)
How far semen is vital-thadu to man, so
also mercury is vital substance in the
earth. It has the character of running; it will be burnt in the fire and it
mixes with all metals and arsenic matters.
If it can be
converted into Mani, without running and being burnt, it acquires great power. It is called ‘Kanaga
kulikai’, ‘Soothagakulikai’ or ‘Rasa Kulikai’. It
is considered as the super medicine. In the world, Siddhas found at first ‘Rasa
Mani’.
¹ Reference
Dr. Bernardo A. Merizalde. Homeopathic Medicine and
Psychiatry.
http://www.homeopathypa.com/homeopathy_article.html
Other
biological treatments involve the concept of similarity in their treatment. Such is the case in the treatment
of depression with sleep deprivation (Wu, et.al., 1990)...
From
this concept...of battlefield...derives my earlier writing...the interpretation
on the Christ...
Where
you become your enemy...having all the traits of the enemy...something very
vital in any military operation...
Two
people run a race...you can outrun...only when you have the same speed as your
opponent...in other words...become one with your opponent...and then add a bit
more...to exceed him...to defeat him...
Two
of the best snipers...in a thick jungle...one to kill the other...you can only
defeat the other...when you think as the other think...do exactly as the
other...IN ALL RESPECTS...and then add a bit more...to exceed him...to defeat
him...
So
too the battle of the Christ...with the Devil...in the wilderness...the
desert...
The
Devil can only be defeated...as is any opponent...by first becoming him...in
all respects...and then add a bit more...to exceed him...to defeat him...
So
in the Bible...I believe...by following the above logic...you have the concept
of union with the Devil...at one instance...and with God...at another
instance...and thus become an all-inclusive one...the One...a concept which is
equally available in texts of other religions too...
And
that concept of evil is always inherent...as that other side of a coin...dark
just because...when you normally see one side...face to face...the other is
dark...not seen alongwith...
Killing...eating
fish, meat....sexual indulgence...abusing...are all concepts of the evil...
I
abuse a lot...
The
Old Testament says killing is not accepted...drinking alcohol is forbidden...
All
through the Gospels...in the New Testament...you have the day to day life of the
Christ...imbibing wine...eating fish, meat...as if that trait of evil is
inbuilt...
And
it even says...God creating all creatures...animals...fishes...birds...for man
to kill and eat...
That...which
are also children of God...part of the same energy...you are told to kill!...
That...in
the ultimate concept...is nothing but imagination...yet you are supposed to
have compassion...inaction...towards that companion...the imagination...the
mind...by not touching it physically...you just watch...as a Sphinx...thereby
nullifying the inbuilt evil...
And
then you also have the polarity shift...in the Bible...advocating
celibacy...purity...on one side...and equally advocating that evil...the
married...householder life...sexual indulgence...impurity...on the other side...
Thus
the Church...may classify their interpretation of the Bible...as the white
side...Christianity as THE white religion...and all others representing the
pagan or path of the Devil...the Dark side...
I...with
my interpretation...just don’t classify anything as solely white...
White
and black always go together...one CANNOT exist without the other...for the
sole reason...they are relative measures...
White
never exist alone...even you paint a house white...after some years...that
whiteness fades to such an extent...that it is horrible to look at...you just
have to repaint...
Written
around 0449 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Revised
around 0522 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
If
sexual indulgence is classified as Evil...as the act of the Devil...then the
permission to priests...to marry...that slap onto the face of the master...the
way he lived as a celibate...is an open invitation to the so-called
Devil...welcoming him into the Church...the so-called white side...and sit
alongwith the so-called God...
Protestants
permit it...and many Catholic priests...without openly marrying...indulge by
diverse means...with women...as if venting their jealousy...at their Protestant
brothers...
Written
around 0526 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Revised
around 0532 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Today...be
it any country...be it any state...be it any city...be it any town...be it any
village...if there is a Church...there is also something surrounding the
Church...something that is very localized...something that stays within the
confines of the village or the town...a few kilometers or so surrounding the
Church...and the priest/s residence...and that is the sex life of the
priest/s...of that church...
You
need to go there...the specific church...and live in its premises...for some
time...to find out...what that is...and remember...it is the most classified
secret of the village or town...and if exposed...you will be killed...
But
then...in this new age...you have this wonderful spy devices...to keep
track...from a safe distance...the penis of...many a father...any father...be
it of the religious life...or the family life...to learn how they deal with
that...little Devil...down under...THE THING that demarcates spiritual
life...and the householder life...THE THING that demarcates a life dedicated to
God...and a life dedicted to woman/women... THE THING that demarcates a life on
how to please Him better...and a life on how to please her better (which if you
follow my experiences...deals ONLY with adventures of the bed!...the only real
and concrete thing...)
Have
fun...
It
will be interesting...to learn...that many who pride...walking in that imperial
attire...of the white cloak...symbolizing purity...as the master did with
tattered ones...just don’t deserve...to wear that cloak...
It
would be far better to wear the similar but colored cloaks of many
housewives...for to the housewives...such a cloak is very easy and
handy...especially when their man...feels passionate...to unite...just raise it
up...being stark naked underneath...
Written
around 0540 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Revised
around 0612 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
14:51 And there followed him a certain young man, having a linen
cloth
cast about his naked body; and the young men
laid hold on him:
14:52 And he left the linen cloth, and fled from them
naked.
-
Mark 14:51-52
To continue
0740 a.m. - 0904
a.m. 1:24 Diary notes on paper;
daily diary notes on computer
0904 a.m. - 0906 a.m. 0:02 Shut
down computer
0906 a.m. - 0910 a.m. 0:04 To
downstairs, wait for mother to serve food
0910 a.m. - 0925 a.m. 0:15 Food: Idli x4, loose white coconut chammandi,
tapioca puyuku, a handful of channa and groundnut, muruku x1, a glass of water
Ae-ge-ru
chu-ma-te e-yu-ti va-ka-te u-llu...he will only write
down...and keep it...to himself...
- The old woman to her
daughter...
That
explains...the attitude of my predators...for their continued
surveillance...and stalking...extending over 6 years...
My
feelings...about what I documented...my agony...my pain...on being visually
violated...voyeurism...stalking...cyber stalking...24-hour monitoring...within
the house...even over 3000kms away in
My
diary notes are of no use to them...they just don’t care...what I
feel...what I wrote...
The
only thing that matters...when am I going to insert into that woman?...give her
the joy of pulling it in...and take it out...when bored...to wipe it
clean...with her tongue...and reinsert again...to satisfy again and again...all
the years of waiting...something like a repeated rape...again and
again...turned around...until the frail body of the woman gets tired...but the
voraciousº will remains...to continue again...after some rest...
That
alone matters...
That
is what constitutes the words...sex predator...
And
so will be any sex predator...even when turned the other way around...male
predators hunting women...using similar...or more advanced spy
devices...repeated gang rapes...
I
now understand...why all these years of my writings...petitions...didn’t
stop them from further monitoring...
They
frequently say...by going to the web...I humiliated them...
And
now...only that suck...or insertion...will remove the taint of humiliation...
And
you have a stalemate...which as in any stalking climax...can end in blood
shed...
And
if at all...I end up hacking to death...the three main stalkers...the sucker,
her mother, and the medical representative...to save myself from sexual
abuse...I can tell the court...that my writings...were on the web...for the
world to read...warning the possibility many a year ago...
I
have knocked the doors of many law officers...for investigation into this
surveillance...but no one heeded...and by putting all the filled petitions onto
the web...the petitions are ever active...it is not just gathering dust in some
corner of a police station...it is also in the net for the world to read...but
no one did anything....
Many
a people in this city...know the story...yet the police is stoically
silent...enjoying the drama...
Written
around 0941 a.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
Revised
around 0107 p.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
º Reference
Dr. Bernardo A. Merizalde. Homeopathic Medicine and
Psychiatry.
http://www.homeopathypa.com/homeopathy_article.html
At
0925 a.m. - 0928 a.m. 0:03 Urinal, wash hands
0928 a.m. - 0931
a.m. 0:03 Diary
notes on paper
0931 a.m. - 0148
p.m. 4:17 Internet surfing; read
webpages
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...monitoring...talking...
Written around 0520 a.m. Thursday,
November 30, 2006
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Internet Connection: Home computer
IP Address:
59.91.241.5
Monday, November 27, 2006 1006 a.m.
– 1038 a.m. IST
http://www.whatismyipaddress.com/
http://www.pearlsindiatour.com/badami-cave-temple.html
Badami
http://199.236.117.161/tourism/badami.html
History:
Moodabidri
http://www.moodabidri.com/moodabidri/hist.html
http://www.mysoretourism.org/events/mysore.doc
Indian
Homoeopathic Medical Association
Mrigendra Das, Nitin Gupta, Kavita
Dutta. (2002) Psychiatric training in
http://pb.rcpsych.org/cgi/content/full/26/2/70
Subscribe to the Psychiatric Bulletin
published by The Royal College of Psychiatrists
Mrigendra Das, Nitin Gupta, Kavita
Dutta. (2002) Psychiatric training in
http://pb.rcpsych.org/cgi/reprint/26/2/70.pdf
Central Council of
http://www.cchindia.com/pgd4.htm
Information about Homoeopathic Medical Colleges in
http://www.cchindia.com/php/college_list.php3
Homeopathic Abbreviations
http://www.homeoint.org/cazalet/cazabbrev.htm
http://www.homeospecialist.org/about.php
http://www.hahnemanncollege.com/faculty.html
Ayurveda
http://indianmedicine.nic.in/html/ayurveda/ayurveda.htm
Read and save a copy.
Relevant material/highlights given in:
http://in.geocities.com/anindiantantric/ayurveda.html
...
The Body Matrix
Life in Ayurveda is conceived
as the
union of body, senses, mind and soul. The living man is a conglomeration of three
humours (Vata, Pitta &Kapha), seven basic tissues (Rasa, Rakta, Mansa,
Meda, Asthi, Majja & Shukra) and the waste products of the body such as
faeces, urine and sweat.
Thus the total body matrix comprises of the humours,
the tissues and the waste products of the body. The growth and decay of this body matrix and
its constituents revolve around food which gets
processed into humours, tissues and wastes. Ingestion, digestion, absorption, assimilation and
metabolism of food have an interplay in health and disease which are significantly affected by
psychological mechanisms
as well as by bio- fire(Agni).
...
Normally treatment measures involve use of
medicines, specific diet and prescribed
activity routine.
Use of these three measures is done in two ways. In one
approach of treatment the three measures antagonize
the disease by counteracting the etiological factors and various manifestations
of the disease.
In the second approach the same three measures
of medicine, diet and activity are targeted to exert effects similar to the
etiological factors and manifestations of the disease process. These two types of
therapeutic approaches are respectively known as Vipreeta and Vipreetarthkari treatments.
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Cross Reference
Stedman
Medical Dictionary 2.0 (1996)
allopathy
A therapeutic system in which a disease is treated by producing a second condition that is incompatible with or antagonistic to the first.
homeopathy
A system of therapy developed by Samuel Hahnemann
based on the “law of similia,” from the aphorism, similia similibus
curantur (likes are cured by likes), which holds that a medicinal substance that can
evoke certain symptoms in healthy individuals may be effective in the treatment
of illnesses having symptoms closely resembling those produced by the substance.
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...
(e) Satvavajaya concerns mainly with the area of
mental disturbances. This includes restraining the mind from desires for
unwholesome objects
and cultivation
of courage, memory and concentration. The study of psychology and psychiatry
have been developed extensively in Ayurveda and have wide range of
approaches in the treatment of mental disorders.
...
Diet and Ayurvedic Treatment
In Ayurveda, regulation of diet as
therapy has great importance. This is because it considers human body as the
product of food. An individual’s mental and spiritual development as well
as his temperament is influenced by the quality of
food consumed by him. Food in human body is transformed first into chyle or Rasa and
then successive processes involve its conversion into blood, muscle,
fat, bone, bone-marrow, reproductive elements and
ojas.
Thus, food is basic to all the metabolic transformations and life activities. Lack of nutrients in food or improper transformation of food lead
to a variety of disease conditions.
Development and its Status
In
...
In course of time Ayurveda, which started as a
magico-religious practice,...
Dr. Bernardo A. Merizalde. Homeopathic
Medicine and Psychiatry.
http://www.homeopathypa.com/homeopathy_article.html
Read and save a copy.
Relevant material/highlights given in:
http://in.geocities.com/anindiantantric/homeopsychiatry.html
The symptoms that developed were recorded carefully and classified according to the organic
systems these medicinal substances altered, from the mind and general systemic
effects, to specific organ systems.
...
Hahnemann was a precursor in the field of psychosomatics. He saw the human
being having an integrated mind and body, in contrast to the prevailing dualism of his time. In paragraph 210 he says: "In all diseases being treated, the psychic condition of the
patient should be written down among the totality of symptoms as one of the
most important, if one desires to have a faithful picture of the disease
from which to make a successful homeopathic cure."
For him,"..emotional
and mental disorders...do not constitute a class of diseases completely
separated from all others, because in so-called physical diseases the
emotional and mental state is always affected. For example, how often does not one find, in the most painful diseases of many years
standing, a mild gentle disposition commanding the physician's tender consideration and
compassion? But when he overcomes the disease and restores the patient...he is often surprised and
shocked at the dreadful change in the patient's
nature, ingratitude, hardheartedness, unusual maliciousness, and a disposition most
disgraceful and degrading to mankind often make their appearance. These are exactly the
qualities that this patient had before he became ill. One often
finds that people that were patient when they were
healthy become obstinate, violent, hasty or unbearable and self-willed,
impatient or despairing-when they are ill, those
who were discrete and modest become obscene and shameless, those who were clearheaded become dull-witted, those who were inclined to be feebleminded seem to become
rather clever and more sensible, those who
were slow to decide acquire great presence of mind and decisiveness,
etc.". In that paragraph we can see how keen Hahnemann was in
observing emotional and behavioral reactions and personality characteristics.
In paragraph 220 he mentions
the
occurrence of cases with a periodicity of violent insanity with melancholic
depression, and the return of certain conditions during specific months of the year.
...
It seems that Hahnemann was one of those
leaders, ahead of his time by more than 100 years. (
His insights into the role of the mind in disease were such that he noted: "It is
possible to create a very grave disease by acting on the vital principle
through the power of imagination and to cure it in the same way". He also mentions the use of
suggestion and countersuggestion in the treatment of patients. He even endorsed the use of "mesmerism", which is regarded today as
the
antecedent of hypnosis. (Organon, Paragraphs 17,
288ss.)
From the theoretical point of view,
philosophers and theologians were the ones that tackled the concepts of mental
illness, while the rest of
medicine was centered in the cellular pathology and disinterested in
psychiatry.
...
Davidson has noted that there are
similarities between modern psychiatry and homeopathy. Recent
neurobiological research tends to validate old homeopathic concepts. Psychotherapeutic
techniques tend to elicit the patient's symptoms, in a controlled manner, in
order to heal the patient. Such is the case in cognitive, behavioral as well as
psychoanalytic treatments. In his article Davidson
discusses other points such as the self-healing principle, the microdose
effect, disappearance
of the symptoms in reverse order of their appearance, and diagnosis by
pattern recognition of the symptoms. (Davidson, 1994)
Other biological treatments involve
the concept of similarity in their treatment. Such is the case in the treatment
of depression with sleep deprivation (Wu, et.al., 1990),...
Homeopaths assert that symptoms are
the expression of the organism's effort to restore health. Post and Weiss (1992) and
Nesse (2000) present a similar view in contemporary psychiatry. They contend that symptoms of
major affective disorders can be adaptive and may reflect the body's
self-treating activity.
...
Most conventional practitioners do not
take homeopathy seriously because it is difficult to accept that very diluted
substances could have any therapeutic value. Usually, homeopathy is rejected without
adequate scientific evaluation. Many scientists postulate that accepting homeopathy would
require the abandon of accepted theories of physics and chemistry. This is not necessarily so,
just as Newtonian theories are not superseded by
quantum physics. It is necessary, and possible, to evaluate homeopathy
according to conventional scientific standards.
...
There have been very few published
studies on the use of homeopathy in the mental health field and even fewer
follow good scientific methodology.
...
Hundreds of case reports have been published,
in homeopathic journals from the 19nd 20th centuries, of patients suffering
from mental disorders who have been treated successfully with homeopathy.
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0148 p.m. - 0155 p.m. 0:07 Shut
down computer; to toilet, urinal,
wash hands
0155 p.m. - 0200
p.m. 0:05 Instructions
to father on surfing web; to
room; lock door
0200 p.m. - 0205 p.m. 0:05 Prostrate to the omnipresent
invisible Lord; lay
down on mat to sleep; cover with white blanket
0205 p.m. ~
0500 p.m. 2:55 Sleep
Some vague dream was noted...I forgot its details...
No carnal/erotic thoughts
noted...
No images of women noted
either...
Did my penis...get
erect...while sleeping...I can’t remember...was there a conversation
about it...between my monitors...on the likely reasons behind the erection...as
if it was a matter of serious concern to them...
Written around 1000 a.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
Revised around 0452 a.m. Thursday,
November 30, 2006
0500 p.m.
– 0600 p.m. 1:00 Lay on mat, not sleepy
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...monitoring...talking...
Written around 1002 a.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
0600 p.m.
– 0610 p.m. 0:10 Sit on mat, not sleepy
0610 p.m.
– 0613 p.m. 0:03 Prostrate to the omnipresent
invisible Lord; stand
up; manual emission check; to toilet
Emission check: No emission stains noted...
Written around 1004 a.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
0613 p.m.
– 0705 p.m. 0:52 Undressº, emission
check¹, urinal², brush teeth, jala neti, thread neti, anoint head
with ayurvedic oil, prayer, shower, wipe the body dry with a towel, prayer,
apply a pinch of ayurvedic powder Rasnadi to head, apply Nycil powder to the arm
pit and pubic itchy areas, dress in blood red underwear
º Listen to the
voices of my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...talking...
Written around 1005 a.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
¹ Emission
check: No emission stains noted...
Written around 1005 a.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
² Urinal: Some bubbles in urine...most of them
vanish in 3-5 minutes...leaving clear water...behind...
No physical
tiredness...to the body...noted...
I thus classify this
instance of sleeping as...No emission...
May the Lord be praised...
Inshallah!
Written around 1007 a.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
Emission Nil
How do I feel?
Around 0633 p.m. Monday, November 27, 2006
To continue
0705 p.m. - 0712
p.m. 0:07 Dress
in outdoor cloths: Brown pants,
green handkerchief, white banian, green checkered full-sleeves shirt
0712 p.m. - 0725
p.m. 0:13 Sprinkle
water in the 3 upstairs rooms, offer water to the Lord, wash the idol of Lord
Buddha, burn incense, camphor, ring bell, prostrate to the Lord, brief prayer
0725 p.m. - 0733
p.m. 0:08 Tidy
personal things; look for some missing scribbled paper bits
To continue
Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
To continue
0834 a.m. - 0845 a.m. 0:11 Diary notes on paper
0845 a.m. - 0858 a.m. 0:13 Food: Rice, pachatheyal, tapioca puyuku, a
quarter glass of water, one Rasakatali banana
0858 a.m. - 0907 a.m. 0:09 Muruku, a handful of
channa and groundnut
Strange...are those women...who undergo
sex...
It is immaterial...whether it is with
one man...or many...
To have that extra happiness...the man
will want his penis...sucked by the woman’s lips...licked by her
tongue...and in a heated frenzy...he sprays...onto her
face...breasts...hair...and so on...as those male cats and dogs which
spray...to demarcate their territory...
After all the frenzy has ebbed
away...after a good shower...it is THAT face...it is THAT hair...that woman
keep so tidy...to look so beautiful...to sport around...to captivate...
The hair...someone sprayed onto...the
face someone ejected onto... squirted without any control...
And such faces...of women who had sex
before...maybe with their husband...maybe with someone else...that many men so
admire...dream about...
Won’t...the
urinal...you urinate onto everyday...be more beautiful...than that face...
For in majority of urinals...you only
urinate...whereas in the other one...that sticky glue is also
sprayed at...and some urinate too...to have the feel of it...of having
conquered a woman...of having made a slave...
In spite of all this...practical
realities...women are considered beautiful...as the poets say...What a
beautiful face!...what a voluptuous woman...will the
moonº be more beautiful than this face...
Maybe...man should be considered...more
beautiful...than women...for women don’t have anything much...to spray
onto a man...unless and until...it is a breast feeding woman...who takes
pleasure...in squeezing her huge round water bottles...about...onto whoever is
nearby...as those kids who play with...squeezing water from water
bottles...onto each other...
Written around 0918 a.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
Revised around 0411 a.m. Thursday,
November 30, 2006
º Is there any man...who ever
urinated...onto the moon...onto Chandra?...
If at all...something similar was
there...it was at a pool of water...onto the reflection of the moon...
But here the poets forgot...in their
adoration of beauty...that some man or men may have sprayed onto that pretty
face...not by looking at a pool of water...but at those voluptuous parts...of
the whole...which may be...that hole...or those innocent looking...bunch of
grapes...hanging down...ever shy...to look up...
Written around 0947 a.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
Revised around 0416 a.m. Thursday,
November 30, 2006
0907 a.m. - 0920
a.m. 0:13 Diary
notes on paper
0920 a.m. - 0935
a.m. 0:15 Defecate: Loose pasty, churdy motion...dark
yellow...as noted by the angryº old whore...from a far away distance...
This woman may not have ever looked at
the fecal matter...at the urine of her children...once they were above a
certain age...
Such a woman showed exception...to a
stranger like me...by monitoring my urine...fecal matter...and that
liquid...for the last 6+ years...
How kind is this old woman...for doing
something...even my old mother doesn’t do...
Written around 0954 a.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
º Angry...on reading my above
diary notes...zooming from a far away distance...about women in general...women
who have have sex...and do a lot of makeup on that face...as if putting a
mask...to cover the reality...of sporting around a urinal...the so-called
face...as if nothing ever happened!...
Written around 0352 a.m. Thursday,
November 30, 2006
Revised around 0421 a.m. Thursday,
November 30, 2006
0935 a.m. - 1052
a.m. 1:17 Diary notes on paper
1052 a.m. - 1055 a.m. 0:03 Urinal, wash hands
1055 a.m. - 1100
a.m. 0:05 Sort
notes to read and study
1100 a.m. - 1105 a.m. 0:05 To room; lock door, prostrate to the omnipresent
invisible Lord; lay
down on mat to sleep; cover with white blanket
1105 a.m. ~ 0400 p.m. 4:55 Sleep
No dreams noted...
No carnal/erotic thoughts
noted...
No images of women noted
either...
Written around 1000 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
0400 p.m. – 0500
p.m. 1:00 Lay on mat, not sleepy
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...monitoring...talking...
Written around 1001 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
0500 p.m. – 0510
p.m. 0:10 Sit on mat, not sleepy
0510 p.m. – 0515
p.m. 0:05 Prostrate to the omnipresent
invisible Lord; stand
up; manual emission check; partially untie mosquito net, fold net, blanket,
mat; to toilet
Emission check: No emission stains noted...
Written around 1024 p.m. Tuesday, November
28, 2006
0515 p.m. – 0614
p.m. 0:59 Undress, emission
checkº, urinal¹, brush teeth², jala neti, thread neti, anoint
head with ayurvedic oil, clean wash basin area, prayer, shower, wipe the body
dry with a towel, prayer, apply a pinch of ayurvedic powder Rasnadi to head,
apply Surfaz to the arm pit and pubic³ itchy areas, dress in towel
º Emission
check: No emission stains noted...
Written around 1024 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
¹ Urinal: Some bubbles in urine...most of them
vanish in 3-5 minutes...leaving clear water...behind...
No physical
tiredness...to the body...noted...
I thus classify this
instance of sleeping as...No emission...
May the Lord be
praised...
Inshallah!
Written around 1025 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
Emission Nil
How do I feel?
² Listen to the
voices of my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...talking...
Written around 1025 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
³ Voices of couple
of local men...along with the medical representative family...
Va-li-ya e-tu
a-ki-ka-la-nu...he made that a big matter...a big show off...
- A local man...in envy...watching the
man...massaging his penis...and the surrounding area...with the
antifungal...antibacterial...ointment...Surfaz...
As if the man...is
showing off...his penis matters...to women...in purpose...to excite
them...while few women...care for the penis of them...the other men...as this
ongoing voyeurism...
In short...women spend a
lot of time...keeping track of his penis...while no one watches the penis of
other men...though penis is the same...for every man...
Written around 1036 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
Revised
around 1054 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
At that time...that
man’s comment irritated me...for a different reason...
Written around 1041 p.m.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Revised
around 1046 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
All these voices...the
regular monitors...the new ones...are all watching my very personal
things...within the privacy of my house...
That envy that comes to a
monitor...seeing the stubbornness of his/her victim to bent...that
psychological throb...that feeds him/her...to rape his/her victim further...to
break the other one...who seems to remain fresh...in spite of repeated rapes...
I leave to the council to
ponder...on this...the machismo of the big brother...the overall monitor...
Written around 0628 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
Revised
around 1051 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
I always minded my own
business...my personal matters are never discussed in public by me...to
others...
And there comes the
voyeurs...monitoring each and everything of my private life...and gossiping
around...
I who live in
privacy...seclusion...is made into some kind of playboy...someone oozing with
sex...for the sole reason...I rarely deal with women...
And look at the
comment...of envy...of that man...
I don’t want to be
a playboy...I just want to be left alone...but those women gossipied whatever
they covertly watch...and the men are too jealous...
And now we have a
scenario...of a hot man...among both men and women...as some one too hot...to
go near...
There are men who want to
break him...rape him...just to remove his playboy status...of being
women’s hero...
There are women who want
to break him...rape him...just to remove his playboy status...to get even with
him...for his humiliating writings on their voyeurism...
Both sexes after
him...for their own reasons...
All...in spite of their
daily voyeurism...visual rape...of the victim...
And when 24 hour monitoring
is in place...that comment is a very serious security problem...
Written around 1104 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
Revised
around 1157 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
In the future...when
similar monitoring by neighbours...and far away people...become very
common...this scenario...is very dangerous...
If you don’t submit
yourself...to the whims and fancies of your monitors...you can expect...a gang
rape...at some vulnerable point of time...
That is all...
Written around 1106 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
Revised
around 1110 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
For some of the monitors
can develop that aggressive feeling...that you are too much...too
unbenting...and need to be brokenº...need to be cut down to size...as that
tree overgrown...beyond its permissible limits...
Written around 1113 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
Revised
around 1139 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
º brought down to
their level...their way of life...
Written around 1139 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
The state of a
woman...spurning off all sexual advances...and remains chaste...I pity her
state of being...under such monitoring circumstances...
Written around 1115 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
For the machismo of the
big brother...the overall monitor...comes into play...spurring them to commit
various things...on such unbenting victims of surveillance...
Written around 1124 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
Now re-read that above
passage...my writings of pain...written around 0628 p.m. Tuesday, November 28,
2006...again...
Written around 1104 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
Revised
around 1157 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
0614 p.m. - 0620 p.m. 0:06 Dress in outdoor
cloths: Dark blue underwear, brown
pants, white multicolored handkerchief, white banian, white full-sleeves shirt
0620 p.m. - 0628 p.m. 0:08 Diary notes on paper
Around
0621 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Va-li-ya u-cha-li aa-ki ka-la-nu...he
made himself into a big ruffian...a big rowdy...
-
The sucker...to her family...on reading my hastily scribbled diary notes on
paper...from a far away distance...
Written around 0625 p.m. Tuesday,
November 28, 2006
Revised
around 1152 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
0628 p.m. - 0645 p.m. 0:17 Sprinkle water in the 3
upstairs rooms, offer water to the Lord, wash the idol of Lord Buddha, collect
fresh water from downstairs; burn incense, camphor, ring bell, prostrate to the
Lord, brief prayer
The thought to resign my job...and bring
my diary notes to the web...as soon as possible...
The earlier the world knows...the
better...
Written
around 0646 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
0645 p.m. - 0650 p.m. 0:05 Diary notes on paper;
to downstairs; talk to mother about the persistent voices being unbearable
They came to destroy me...they set off
on a journey...ei-ra-gi ti-ri-cha-tu...the sole purpose of it...is to destroy
this body...
And the only option I have...is to
destroy myself...before they destroy me...
And when I destroy myself...that which
came to destroy me...will be destroyed...by itself...
May my Lord be praised...
Written
around 0810 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
That sums up...the art of war...in a few
words...
My interpretation...of solipsism...and
warfare...combined...
Written
around 0940 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Revised
around 0941 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Therefore, I say:
Know your
enemy and know yourself;
in a
hundred battles, you will never be defeated.
When you
are ignorant of the enemy but know yourself,
your chances
of winning or losing are equal.
If ignorant both of your
enemy and of yourself,
you are sure to be
defeated in every battle.
-- Sun Tzu, The Art of War, c. 500bc
In the above passage...the word
destroy...takes two opposing meanings...in each phrase...
One deals with...abstaining...and its
associated measures...
The other deals with...indulgence...and
its associated measures...
Written
around 0944 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Revised
around 0946 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Ponder...on the capillary principle...I
wrote before...
Written
around 0954 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
0650 p.m. - 0704 p.m. 0:14 Food: Fried rice, potatoe murukuvatti,
vegetable salad, a glass of water
0704 p.m. - 0720 p.m. 0:16 Loud flare up abusing
the medical representative family...for all the neighbors to hear...Some of the
finest abuses...ever spoken by me...something which I always believe...is just
not enough...even if I scream out aloud...in a crowded court room...or a busy
highway...in front of...face to face...that voyeur family...for what they have
monitored so far...the last 6+ years...whatever they looked at...whatever they
talked about...teased about...whatever sexual baiting was done...
Written
around 0736 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Revised
around 0739 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
There
are laws written down...for those living in society...to follow...And thus
I...a victim...is not allowed to take law unto my own hands...I am not allowed
to take a hatchet...and chop each of those monitors into a thousand
pieces...WHICH I VERY BADLY YEARN TO...to stop violating me further...
To
save me from madness...from this repeated violation...the only recourse I
have...then...when I am weak...is this loud abuses...some spoken
verbally...some written down...
I
expect the court to understand...
For
I am a man...of flesh and blood...of emotion...of passion...not a monk...nor a
god...
And
such a entity...was repeatedly violated...
Written
around 0747 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Revised
around 0749 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
0720 p.m. - 0725 p.m. 0:05 Collect tea from
downstairs; during the above flare up...my old father and mother tried to stop
me...from screaming out vulgar abuses...for before the neighbours...it is the
family honor that is at stake...people will easily understand...a mad man is
living next door...so they tried to force me to stop screaming...I in my
madness...of mental elevation...threatened to beat them up...asked them to get
lost...
My poor parents...cowered...and
retreated to a corner...leaving me to scream...until I got tired...
This was the usual scenario...as in many
a past flare ups...
They are just resigned...to the
acceptance...of having a mad son...
For they don’t know about the
reality behind...why I scream...those ongoing monitoring...is unknown to
them...they never saw anything...they never heard anything...of being
watched...day and night...
Written
around 0757 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
0725 p.m. - 0817 p.m. 0:52 Diary notes on computer
0817 p.m. - 0832 p.m. 0:15 To downstairs; mother
reboils tea; inform mother that I am resigning...from my current medical
transcription job...with this persistent voices 24 hours a day...the appearance
of strange women...at unearthly hours at the work place...at night...between
around 0900 p.m. to 0700 a.m...the voices which claim those women as the
stalkers...my security is at stake...I have to retreat...stay at home...locked
in some time...and bring out all those pending diary notes written in
paper...the notes from year 2004 onwards...running over thousands of pages when
typed out...
Written
around 0930 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Revised
around 0938 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
0832 p.m. - 0838 p.m. 0:06 Arrange diary notes to
be published in the next few days...from now on...I am free...from the
pressures of workº...and can devote more time...to typing out...the
pending notes...and there will be daily updates...to my test diary...both the
latest news...and well as past history...the old diary notes...about me...
Written
around 0934 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Revised
around 0010 a.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
º those 10+ hours spent daily...for
work and...travel to work...
Written
around 0001 a.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
0838 p.m. - 0856 p.m. 0:18 Defecate: Loose motion
0856 p.m. - 0920 p.m. 0:24 Loiter around; mother
reboils tea; kisses to parents, for I am now a sort of calmed down...after that
mad frenzy...of abusing...
Around
0858 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
o-re o-ru va-yi-ye ul-lu...ko-nnu
ka-la-ya-nam...there is only one way remaining...kill him off...
-
The sucker to her mother...with the tone of a defeated woman...unable to have
that penis inserted...after repeated attempts...in distress...and
humiliation...
Written
around 1022 p.m. Tuesday, November 28, 2006
0915 p.m. - 0918 p.m. 0:03 Call workplace to
inform that I am on leave today and tomorrow
0920 p.m. - 1130 p.m. 2:10 Daily diary notes on computer; a cup of tea
1005 p.m. - 1010 p.m. 0:05 Mother brings medicine
upstairs; ayurvedic
medicine for Schizophrenia – kashayam and medicine with honey
1130 p.m. - 1135 p.m. 0:05 Call workplace to
inform a colleague about yesterday’s linecount, for the company
statistics
1135 p.m. - 1200 a.m. 0:25 Daily diary notes on computer; a cup of tea
Insert the daily overall monitoring template here
Wednesday, November 29,
2006
0000 a.m. - 0023 a.m. 0:23 Daily diary notes on computer
0023 a.m. - 0032 a.m. 0:09 Internet surfing
Listen to the voices of my
beloved monitors...especially the medical representative family...talking...
Written around 1038 a.m.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
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IP Address: 59.91.241.111
Wednesday, November 29, 2006 0023 a.m.
– 0032 a.m. IST
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0032 a.m. - 0035 a.m. 0:03 Shut down computer terminal
0035
a.m. - 0040 a.m. 0:05 To toilet, urinal, wash hands, to room; lock
door, prostrate to the omnipresent invisible Lord; wear blue socks; lay down on mat to sleep
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative family...talking...
Written around 1032 a.m.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
0040 a.m. ~ 0330 a.m. 2:50 Sleep
A vague dream noted...I
forgot its details...
No carnal/erotic thoughts
noted...
No images of women noted
either...
Written around 1122 a.m.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
0330 a.m. – 0350
a.m. 0:20 Lay on mat, not sleepy
Listen to the voices of
my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...monitoring...talking...
Written around 1124 a.m.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
0350 a.m. – 0400
p.m. 0:10 Sit on mat, not sleepy
0400 a.m. – 0405
a.m. 0:05 Prostrate to the omnipresent
invisible Lord; stand
up; manual emission check; to toilet
Emission check: No emission stains noted...
Written around 1126 a.m.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
0405 a.m. – 0420
a.m. 0:15 Undressº, emission
check¹, urinal², brush teeth, dress in the same dress: blue/green dhoti, purple full sleeves
shirt
º Listen to the
voices of my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...talking...
Written around 1133 a.m.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
¹ Emission check: No emission stains noted...
Written around 1133 a.m.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
² Urinal: Some bubbles in urine...most of them
vanish in 1-3 minutes...leaving clear water...behind...
No physical
tiredness...to the body...noted...
I thus classify this
instance of sleeping as...No emission...
May the Lord be
praised...
Inshallah!
Written around 1133 a.m.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Emission Nil
How do I feel?
0420 a.m. - 0500 a.m. 0:40 To room; prostrate to the omnipresent
invisible Lord; to
downstairs, wake up mother, mother serves food: Half of dosa x3, potatoe murukuvatti,
muruku x3, a glass of water; talk to mother
0500 a.m. - 0505 a.m. 0:05 To upstairs, wear blue
socks, change dhoti to black track suit
0505 a.m. - 0528 a.m. 0:23 A cup of tea, just
sitting in the arm chair in my room before the portraits of the Lord
0528 a.m. - 0739 a.m. 2:11 Lay on mat, sleepy;
sleep
No dreams noted...
No carnal/erotic thoughts
noted...
No images of women noted either...
Written around 1151 a.m.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
0739
a.m. - 0748 a.m. 0:09 Sit up; prostrate to the omnipresent invisible Lord; stand up; manual emission check; to
toilet, undressº, emission check¹, urinal², dress in indoor
cloths: blue/green dhoti, purple
full sleeves shirt
º Listen to the
voices of my beloved monitors...especially the medical representative
family...talking...
Written around 1154 a.m.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
¹ Emission
check: No emission stains noted...
Written around 1154 a.m.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
² Urinal: Some bubbles in urine...most of them
vanish in 1-3 minutes...leaving clear water...behind...
No physical
tiredness...to the body...noted...
I thus classify this
instance of sleeping as...No emission...
May the Lord be
praised...
Inshallah!
Written around 1154 a.m.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Emission Nil
How do I feel?
0748 a.m. - 0752 a.m. 0:04 Diary notes on paper
0752 a.m. - 0813 a.m. 0:21 Loiter around
0813 a.m. - 0816 a.m. 0:03 Fried rice and water
for birds
0816 a.m. - 0818 a.m. 0:02 Tidy personal things
0818
a.m. - 0820 a.m. 0:02 Ayurvedic medicine for Schizophrenia –
lehiyam, kashayam, laxative
0820 a.m. - 0837 a.m. 0:17 Wait for food to be
served
0837 a.m. - 0900 a.m. 0:23 Food: Dosa x2, mulaku char, potatoe
murukuvatti, steamed tapioca, a glass of water, muruku x2, a bit of water
0820 a.m. - 0907 a.m. 0:47 Read pages 22-42 of Brian Austin. (2000) Using the Internet in easy
steps .compact. (1/e)
0907 a.m. - 0910 a.m. 0:03 To upstairs room, diary
notes on paper
0910 a.m. - 0934 a.m. 0:24 Read pages 43-54 of Brian Austin. (2000) Using the Internet in easy
steps .compact. (1/e)
0934 a.m. - 0940 a.m. 0:06 Loiter around while
mother reboils tea
0940
a.m. - 0958 a.m. 0:18 Relax; browse Dr. S.
Chidambarathanu Pillai. (1991)
Siddha System of Life. (1/e)
Reference
Dr.
S. Chidambarathanu Pillai. (1991) Siddha System of Life. (1/e)
Kayakalpam
In Siddha
medicine, to preserve the body of human-being without being destroyed or
attacked by diseases,
Kayakalpam (like Stone)
is in practice. It would be of three types:
(1) Mani: It
conveys various meanings viz. grain, pearl etc.
Here anyone of
the mercury, sulphur, paadaanam and salt is converted into MANI (Rasamani)
How far semen is vital-thadu to man, so
also mercury is vital substance in the
earth. It has the character of running; it will be burnt in the fire and it
mixes with all metals and arsenic matters.
If it can be
converted into Mani, without running and being burnt, it acquires great power. It is called ‘Kanaga
kulikai’, ‘Soothagakulikai’ or ‘Rasa Kulikai’. It
is considered as the super medicine. In the world, Siddhas found at first ‘Rasa
Mani’.
0958 a.m. - 1042 a.m. 0:44 Daily diary notes on
computer
1042 a.m. - 1049 a.m. 0:07 Tidy personal things;
notes
1049 a.m. - 1101 a.m. 0:12 Loiter around while
mother boils tea
1101
a.m. - 1103 a.m. 0:02 Urinal, wash hands
Ne-ri-tu kan-dal u-lla
pra-sa-nam e-ta-nu...this is the problem if seen face to face...
- An excited medical representative to his
family...at the website material...written slowly...revealing the extent of
stalking...
According to the voices,
this is further confirmation...that the dark woman...who opened the toilet door
from inside...at the exact moment...the man was about to enter...the adjacent men’s
toilet...was indeed the whore...the
That sort of precise
coincidence...you can stage...only when overall monitoring and mobile phones
are involved...
A group of monitors
monitor from a far away distance...the stalker moves into the pre-planned
location...and waits...patiently...for its prey to walk in/by...
When the victim nears the
location...the monitors inform the stalker...through the mobile phone...text
message...to walk out of hiding...to show herself...and is what...that must
have happened yesterday...
And it all looks...as if
by accident...but very carefully pre-planned...
If it was the sucker...I
cite the Brahmin family...the Australian monitors...as some of the
witnesses...to this run-in...at the workplace...watching silently...from a far
away distance...
I pity the stalkers...for
they just created a major stalking case...by complicating it further...which in
the beginning days of stalking...was just confined...in and around my house...
If it was indeed the
sucker...see the whore’s courage...to show off that face...urinated by
many...as the beautiful...
A woman whom I have
pelted abuses...for years...for the world to hear...
Such are women...when
obsessed to lick...and suck a penis...
Any woman...will be
likewise...
Written
around 1116 a.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Revised
around 0316 p.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Back in 1998-1999, there was
a time...when I used to study in the RMIT computer lab...in
The then monitor...the
Australian woman stalker...in her fit of obsession...also tried...many
ways...to enter the building...to get to that computer lab...to have a good
time...with her obsession...all night...with no one else around...other than
the occasional cleaner...or the security guard...doing their rounds...
That is why...from
experience...I say...when heated up...any woman...will repeat the same story...
Written
around 0326 p.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Reverse...turn
around...the scenario...
I...a beautiful,
voluptuous woman...who spurned off many a sexual advance...
And a group of men
hunting me...monitoring me day and night...
In an instance like
yesterday...with no one around at that time...the stalker opens the adjacent
door...graps me suddenly...drags into the toilet...and locks the door from
within...and in 5-10 minutes...the whole world...of the victim...caves
in...breaks before her...
No one is going to
know...what is going on...other than the other monitors...who are given a
sumptuous feast...on sexual violence...
There in the lab...many
sleep...nod...and work...ignorant of what is going on within the toilet...
After doing what he
wanted to do...the rapist flees away...disappears into darkness...
The situation may look
imaginary...but the circumstances are very similar...and thus can happen to any
woman...out there...
May be different
place...different time...different circumstances...
Written
around 0337 p.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Revised
around 0302 a.m. Thursday, November 30, 2006
I mentioned that...after
the time noted...of going to the toilet...yesterday morning...the monitors
talked and talked...the various aspects of the run-in...as if to create a smoke
screen...to create a confusion in the victim...was it the stalker...or was it
not...
They talked...as if
deliberate...to imply it was indeed the sucker...
And the sucker
mentioned...that I usually come out only when few people are around...I
don’t come out of the lab during the usual allotted break
times...interval times...
For at that time...a
crowd will be there...at the toilet area...at tea lounge...
And if the stalker moves
in...who along with her family are camping in the vicinity...all
night...watching...studying the daily pattern of the victim...she can mingle
with the crowd...and stage a run-in...for I don’t look at the face of
each and every woman standing there...
But in the scenario...of
no one around...staging a run-in is risky...and can easily be
spotted...detected...and that is what happened...opening of the toilet
door...at the exact moment...the victim approached the toilet...
Such a probability...of
the ladies toilet door opening...when you approach...in normal circumstances...is
very less...if it is natural...without any pre-plan...
And that is what evoked
my curiosity...how come the door open immediately...that too when few are the
people around...
Around 12 hours or so
before the incident...I noted the bastard speaking to the sucker...you can
accuse him of raping you...
Yes...if I have had
looked at that shit face...and immediate recognize the stalker...in a fit of
rage...if I verbally berate...or even slap the face of the vampire...she gets
the upper hand...
No one is around...and
she can claim...that I tried to rape her...
With no witness...I will
find it hard...to prove that I am innocent...where as many believe a
woman’s story...when acted...spoken with all the innocence...of a
victim...violated...
For in this world...man
is always looked upon as the aggressive one...the rapist...and woman as the
victim...
This world today...never
accept the opposite side of the coin...woman as the aggressive one...the
rapist...and man as the victim...
Written
around 0358 p.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
If that woman was indeed
the sucker...the question is...why she came there?...
6+ years of
monitoring...my diary notes...my loud abuses...bring out one fact...I
DON’T WISH TO FUCK THAT BASTARD!!!...
Does’t the fuck of
a woman...know that...
Doesn’t the fuck of
the woman’s mother know that...
Doesn’t the fuck of
the medical representative know that...after all these years of monitoring...
Sucker...go and fuck that
medical representative...
I believe...that is what
a good police officer ought to do...make the medical representative fuck the
sucker...repeatedly...in the presence of her mother...
Written
around 0403 p.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Yes...the stalkers can
always say...a physical run-in was not staged...they only talked
purposely...deliberately...based on an innocent situation...an innocent
coworker came out of the toilet...
But don’t they
know...after 6+ years of monitoring...that the victim got a problem with
voices...audio hallucination...and that is what his parents are treating him
for...as a schizophrenic...
Knowing this fact...why
do they talk deliberately...purposely?...
Don’t they know the
victim is chicken-hearted...worries too much...get depressed...gets agitated
very fast...becomes very violent...
In spite of this
knowledge...what they did they do?...
With the help of their
monitoring devices...they purposely talk...to make the victim...more mad...make
him violent...
In other words...constant
mental harassment...with the help of spy devices...talks which oriented towards
sexual abuse...in other words...sexual harassment...
Isn’t this the
ongoing fact?...
Don’t you
know...now...why my petition is named...misuse of spy devices...
Yes...you can always
say...nothing was done face to face...
But when an investigation
is done...into this stalking case...what you have done...is something more
violent what anyone can do physically...
For you repeated tried to
make a healthy man...mad for life...break his mind...for ever...
Any injury to the body can
be cured with medicines...to a certain extent...
What about the
mind?...the daily mental abuse....ongoing...
Mental pain is far severe
than bodily pain...
So bastards...do what you
like...try more...to suck this penis...for that might come as an excuse...to
escape any punishment from the courts...Just claim the other way around...he
requested his penis to be sucked...so I, an innocent woman helped him...
And maybe if I get
completely mad...maybe it might be easy to suck more freely...as in many mental
hospitals...the victim doesn’t even know if he or she is raped or
not...repeatedly gangraped or not...for he or she is totally unaware of any
bodily violation...all he or she can do is scream...when it pains...
Rotten bastards!!...
Written
around 0428 p.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Revised
around 0436 p.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
1103 a.m. - 1107 a.m. 0:04 Diary notes on paper
1117 a.m. - 1221 p.m. 1:04 Daily dairy notes on
computer
1221 p.m. - 1225 p.m. 0:04 Power failure, shut
down the computer
1225 p.m. - 1245 p.m. 0:20 Loiter around; talk to
parents about homeo studies; they advise to take long leave from work instead
of resigning straight away...for I don’t want to work in a place...where
it is so easy for the stalkers to do whatever they want to do...
One of the many reasons, for shifting to
night shift...was that there will be less interference from others...
Other company personnel will be
around...a lot of people in the surroundings during the day time...and the
stalkers will have a heyday...staging many a runin everyday...by mingling with
them...
At night...few are the people
around...and thus hard to avoid detection...if at all...an attack is
staged...from their camp...somewhere near or in the building...
Written
around 0416 p.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
1245 p.m. - 0106 p.m. 0:21 Food: Fried rice, steamed tapioca, lemon
pickle, vegetable raita, tomato sauce, a glass of water, a glass of yoghurt and
water
0106 p.m. - 0115 p.m. 0:09 Relax, power returns;
diary notes on paper
Na-ta-na-tu a-tu po-le
e-yu-ti...whatever happened...is written...as it is...(without seeing)...
-
The Brahmin man...
Written
around 0120 p.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Revised
around 0443 p.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
0115
p.m. - 0119 p.m. 0:04 Ayurvedic medicine for Schizophrenia –
kashayam; to upstairs, turn ON computer
0119 p.m. - 0123 p.m. 0:04 Diary notes on paper
Around
0128 p.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Pi-ya-pi-chu
koo-da...should not deflower him... should not rape him... should not make him
impure... should not make him dirty...
- The bastard medical
representative to his family...
The
big brother discussing...should the victim be raped...or not...
Written
around 0130 p.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Revised
around 0450 p.m. Wednesday, November 29, 2006
0123 p.m. - 0203 p.m. 0:40 Diary notes on paper;
revise stalking webpage in a sister website http://in.geocities.com/anindianyogi/stalking.html
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Reference
Shaya
Tayefe Mohajer. (Sunday, November 12, 2006)
Photo technology to aid in search for abducted children.
http://www.timeswv.com/westvirginia/local_story_316002308.html?keyword=secondarystory
Published: November 12, 2006 12:23 am
Photo technology to aid in search for abducted children
By Shaya Tayefe Mohajer
Associated Press Writer
CHARLESTON — The nightmare of every parent became all too real for Michelle Riggs two years ago when a man broke into her home late at night, assaulted her daughter and then tried to drag the child through a bedroom window to his waiting car.
“God forbid, if she had been taken, I don’t know what I would have done,” Riggs said. “I wasn’t in my right mind that night to go find a picture or give the police a description.”
...
Initially, parents were wary that
putting personal information about their children into a centralized
database
would leave it vulnerable to hacking, said
“We know we can never guarantee the safety of a child, but the idea is that we want to stack the deck in our favor if there is an incident of any kind,” Friebel said.
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Personal Note
If my stalking case is true...where you
can zoom in...from a far away distance...using high tech thermal sensor type
devices...where you don’t even have to enter INTO (hack) any network to
access any information...where whatever information that appears on the
computer screen...is readable...then the same information will also be
available to the sex predators...instantaneously...whenever those who have
legal access to the data read the data...from the computer screen/monitor...
Written around 0148 p.m. Wednesday,
November 29, 2006
Revised around 0200 p.m. Wednesday,
November 29, 2006
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0203 p.m. - 0235 p.m. 0:32 Daily diary notes on
computer
0235
p.m. - 0237 p.m. 0:02 Urinal, wash hands
0237 p.m. - 0255 p.m. 0:18 Loiter around while
mother boils tea; kisses to mother
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p.m. 0:00
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“Thou belongest to That Which
Is Undying, and not merely to time alone,” murmured the Sphinx, breaking its muteness at last. “Thou art eternal, and not merely of the vanishing flesh. The soul in
man cannot be killed, cannot die. It waits, shroud-wrapped, in thy heart, as I waited, sand-wrapped,
in thy world. Know
thyself, O mortal! For there is One within thee, as in all men, that
comes and stands at the bar and bears
witness that there IS a God!”
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