September 22nd, 2004

What Happened Today: Rafa kissed Emily. I saw it :P But I wasn't sure so afterwards we embarressed her to tears practically (by accident!) by going "what happened! what'd he say! did he kiss you!" and yes, there were no question marks. just excitement. hehehe.

I found out that my sister made out with Jaime... awww they're so cute together :P. I also told Robbie and Emily N (not the one that Rafa kissed, that one was Emily H ^__^) about how if I went to spain for the exchange student thing, i would "find myself a hot spanish se�or", endquote. Lol. They were like, "we needed to know that" and robbie was like "thanks for that, Gemma." XD I was just kidding, anyways.

On allpoetry I got into a little argument with a person... and then I was just like, you know what, getting all upset over this isn't worth it. So i apologized and such. Waiting for the persons reply. *shrug*

Oh and the spanish kids are leaving... right now, actually. Wow. XD. How cool. Oh and in my livejournal, I posted a little banner that said "For every republican vote, another kitten dies :(", lmao. ^__^.

Applied to get hosted at seqrred, if i spelt it correctly. i love the site so much, and even though i was like "i'm not going to ask someone to host my site, i'm going to buy a domain in a few years," i couldn't resist asking. XP.

Taori @ 3:12 PM EST //

September 21st, 2004

Just wanted to let you know I was still working on the site even though... not really any updates. Hehe ^^.

Spanish kids are leaving tomorrow. I got over having a crush on one of them, so that made me happy. XD.

My bones are just about breaking, though. My back and legs and feet are killing. *grumbles* how annoying >_>

So... don't really know what more to say. I wish I wrote cleverly, then this entry might contain something of *slight* interest. ... Maybe I should make a group blog? Eh.

Taori @ 4:02 PM EST //

September 18th, 2004

*sigh* So bored. Applied for another fanlisting. I realized I'd rather do the REAL fanlisting than just The Nepenthes one (The Nepenthes is a song on REAL), lol. But umm...

Nope, no great self-discoveries or adventurous things have happened lately. *sigh* Connecticut is so boring. The foreign exchange kids are leaving Wednesday... so sad. I had a dream with them in it, heh. But my mom woke me up before I even got to talk to Jaime, or anyone else for that matter (though me and Alexa were talking to each other in spanish! and then alexa sprayed perfume and i was like I want some! and destinee was like 'me too!' so i was like, -_- and gave the thing over to her... and then woke up. >_>). Actually though, I yelled at Destinee before I gave the perfume over (and woke up).. lol. I don't remember what happened in the rest of the dream though. Not much.

See, even my dreams are boring. >_> But anyways, I was going to add a L'Arc section to A Silent Letter- What do you think? I mean, I know I can't do a full-blown fan site, because I don't know so much about them, but i could do a little sub section, i think. :P.

(later) Oh my god... something happened to one of my friends. I was so scared and upset that I started to cry... I hope she's okay! And don't ask me what happened, because I don't know. But there was blood, and there was police... I'm so scared for her. I need to know if she's alright! ... *sigh* I don't know what to do.

Taori @ 8:57 AM EST //

September 15th, 2004

Applied for the official Smile fanlisting (for L'Arc~En~Ciel's album called Smile, XD) a few days ago. ^^. Oh and, I added a page - "icons". there's only like 5 so far, :P. and they aren't very good, but eh, it's okay ^^.

other than that.. nothing is new. at all. *sigh*. my life is boring. i felt sick so i stayed home from school.. mainly to do some make up homework. i don't know how to explain it, but i just can't read that fricking Western Civ book. And I can't take notes because of that. Gah. I'm going to fail the class now >_> Idiot.

Eh... learned how to take screen shots, from asking Lj people from the L'Arc community ^^. So happy :) I might do something with them, XD. Liike, make icons or layouts. :P. Iunno. XD.

Taori @ 10:16 AM EST //

September 11th, 2004

The dance was really fun :). My sister introduced me to him.. and then later I said "Hola" and asked him to dance. He said something in spanish that I couldn't hear because the music was too loud.. but he thought I couldn't understand (spanish) so his friend said "we don't know how to dance". and then goes "well, he knows how to, but i don't." and then Adrian (sp?) said something to the extent of "Later". (this was in english XD.) Which I was thrilled about and told my friends... I figured that Later meant no, but I was proud that I didn't chicken out, and that even though he said no, at least I asked. And I danced with Fran for a little bit. XD.

At the time I was really sad he didn't want to dance, and so i was like, "why don't guys like me? *tear*" and then asked ashley if she would be my gay lover. XD. she was like, "...no." Lol. It seemed like she took it way more seriously than I meant, but it was funny. ^__^. My sister danced with this one really fiiiine spanish exchange student for like the whole time... and they looked so cute together! aww :) i was happy for her, but of course a little jealous. Hehehe :)

In other news, I got approved for the The Nepenthes by Laruku fanlisting, which is called "Seductive Welcoming". :P.

So today I'm in a really good mood. All last night I was obsessing about why don't any guys ever like me, and that got me depressed-ish, but this morning I woke up feeling like "Yay!" so... that's cool. Hehe ^__^.

Taori @ 3:48 PM //

September 10th, 2004

Well... not much is new. The foreign exchange kids are so cool XD ^^ I love their accents too. *nod nod*. Tonight there is a dance, and hopefully I won't be too chicken to ask this certain dude that i may or may not have a minor crush on (seeing as he'll be gone in like a week or so ;_;), and i still havent talked to him. but i can guess what he's like from what i've heard and just how he seems... eh, i have said "hola" to him but that doesnt really count? XD ^^

With S.L. I havent really done anything lately. I plan on adding opinions and some more reviews (like i promised) soon, but for some reason I *need* to know if I got accepted for The Nepenthes fanlisting or not (and then make the fanlisting if i'^m in ^^) before i feel i can do anything here. Except, well, blog. ^^

I'm thinking about putting up a commenting system-y thing here, but I think I need PHP, eeeh. So I need to either find a new host, or... eh, I don't really know. I'm too lazy to move all my files AGAIN (even though there arent really that many XD). Well, I'm going to go. Maybe write? I don't know. Later ^^.

Taori @ 3:00 PM EST //

September 7th, 2004

I am so, so stupid. Everytime I'm around people who are from Spain and speaking spanish, I feel like such a loser. Like I'm the hugest idiot in the world because I don't understand them. Spanish was my first language! I should be like them! Not some stupid girl that I turned out as. I should know the language, be able to laugh and talk with them, sing spanish songs. I am SPANISH and I don't even know my language? *sigh* I get so depressed and angry when I think about it. It's my fault I don't know it, I'm just a moron. I feel so pathetic and useless. And instead of doing something useful, like trying to use my experiences to LEARN the beautiful language, I just sit there and feel sorry for and angry at myself.

See how stupid I am?

Taori at 2:50 PM EST //

September 6th, 2004

Added a "review" on a book ("Basilisk")... soon I will add a review for the book "Aimee" and also for the book "Zazoo", both of which have high ratings by me. :)

In my life, nothing much is new. I have loads of homework but I'm feeling too lazy to do it...and I have a test on Tuesday which I honestly know NO material on. *sigh* I'm such a moron.

Going to, perhaps, write a story soon. I'm so angry about Tr�s Bien, so I don't know if that's going to go anywhere.. it's just as well that I took the link out of the "writings" section. I wish I wasn't such an ass sometimes. *grumbles*

Taori @ 10:08 AM //

September 5th, 2004

Spent the day at Tara's... it was really fun :D I heard this awesome song by a romanian band called O-Zone, which is my new favorite song! Yay for that! :D. I have to find somewhere to download it, or buy it... MUWAHAHA. XD

I'm also joining a roleplay. Yay for me :) Rping is so much fun, so i'm happy. :D. Nothing much else to say, so Ja. :)

Taori @ 6:51 PM //

September 4th, 2004

I shouldn't have slept over. Her dad scared me majorly, lol. But I don't feel like going into it. I redid the whole site... well by that I mean I changed all the HTML so it all fit the same layout. Hehe. Took me less time than I thought, *shrug*

Anyways. Nothing much is new. Friends are kind of... annoying. And I got homesick at the party, which is something that's NEVER happened to me before so it was kind of weird. XD. I don't want to go back to school next week. At least we get monday off for some holiday or another (the only holiday i know the date of is christmas, hahaha ^^). School bus and the people just wear me out so fast. There's not really any "drama" yet, though I have been getting "edgy" a bit lately. As in bitchy. o_O. And I don't want to even be near a certain person anymore. She just has a way of grating on my nerves so horribly. I don't think she knows at all, even though I kind of bitch at her at school when I see her. XD. Oh well.

I wrote some more crappy poems yesterday. One or two, I think. I hate them, but it'd be nice if you went to allpoetry and commented :) . In any case, though, I'm... bored. Sick of "blogging". Maybe I'll go take some quizzes and post them in my lj.

Taori @ 11:32 AM EST //

September 3rd, 2004

My mom doesnt want me to sleep over emily's cause of all the catheters and because i am "tired". *grumbles* But i think I convinced her that I'll be able to handle it.. I dunno. XD

On the bus, something really weird happened. I didn't notice that I felt that way, but as soon as two certain people got off the bus, I felt like I had been suffocated and now I could breath again. Like one of them was feeling a really intense emotion, or something. It was weird...

I'm going to go on a bike ride, wonderful eh? I really miss this certain spot I used to *love* riding through. It was so peaceful and cool (as in temperature), and I felt so safe and sure of everything there. It wasn't far then, but it might seem a bit far to me now seeing as I've practically been laying down the whole summer.

Today I was super bitchy. I don't know why but I wanted to seriously hurt Amy and MK. I told MK her outfit looked like she was an ice skater, and that next time she shouldnt wear white boots. Duh, I wasn't being serious. Who am I to give fashion advice? (I have the *worst* fashion sense.) Seriously. When she told me "You know what Gemma, fuck you. Seriously," rudely I wanted to yell at her to not take herself so seriously, Jesus. >_>. I wanted to say, get a hold on yourself. You know just as well as I do that there's nothing wrong your outfit, idiot. *sighs*. And Amy was being especially "know-it-all"y. >_>. So I was just being curt to her for a while, but then she stopped and I laid off.

I surprised myself too. I've never told anyone exactly what my birth defect was, just little bits of info and usually lies, but today I told Alexa. And I was like "eww isn't that freaky?" and she just said "no, not really." I was like, "*inhale* yay someone doesnt think i'm a freak!" (in my head). I can't believe it made me so happy. XD

Anyways, time for my bike ride. They always used to calm me down when I was upset and stuff... maybe this will work today too, and I won't get too tired. Hmm... :)

Taori at 4:02 PM EST //

September 2nd, 2004

Eeh, school was kind of sucky today. *grumbles* When i tried to stand up to get off the bus, I started to freak out because I couldn't stand. My arms and backpack were loaded with books, and I guess it was too much weight because it was really, really hard for me to get up. Really. Walking was easier, but... *sigh* I'm so tired.... School is stinkier than I thought. XD

Nothing particularly exciting happened today. Lex and I were talking about what to get Em for her birthday... and I thought of jewelry so I said "maybe i'll get her a ring." Alexa stared at me. And then I was like-- OMG! That's not what I meant! Lol it was funny, even though now it's quite stupid sounding, to be honest. Lol.

School pictures were today. The guy had to keep redoing the photo for me cause I kept screwing it up. Hahaha. (Not on purpose!) Finally we all were satisfied and so... I kept the picture. It was okay... better than both last years, and the year before that's. *shrug*.

Taori @ 3:07 PM EST //

[ mood | better ]
[music | You Are by LeAnn Rimes ]
Questions and answers. Fun. If you have a question for me, email it to [email protected] . yum yum. ^^

• What's with the "m"'s?
  I like them. No actually, it's because they are wider and therefore easier to click. Woo.
And the "x"'s in your geocities name?
Solely because "a silent letter" was already taken, so add the x's and there you are. :)
• Why do you have a different layout for the content?

Ugh that really annoys me. I like the other layout but it... doesnt fit with this one. *grumble*. To actually answer the question though: It's because I'm too lazy ^^.
• Did you write these questions yourself?

Unfortunately, yes. I figured some people might be wondering though, XD.

Taori at 5:23 PM //

September 1st, 2004

Changed the layout for the blog. Because TofuRecords came out with some stellar pictures of L'arc, and I decided to keep with the theme. Which is why this only v1.2... i plan on giving each of the members their own layout, plus v1.0 which had all of them :D.

But enough about the site. My day was alright... we had a math quiz today, which was pretty easy. Tomorrow I have a spanish quiz, which is just a review of the last 2 years of spanish so i'm pretty sure I'll do fine. :)

Taori @ 5:21 PM EST //