| October 10: Argh. I hate boys. Why can't my life be simple? Oh, right. Cuz I'd kill myself. =) Had a strange night last night and had a good, but boring and lazy day today. Did well on my "queeze" and that made my day. I have to find out about my history exam tomorrow. Went to Wal Mart and bought the rest of my Halloween costume, which will cover up my deformed face (that's a reference to Brendan's tendency to stick his foot in his mouth). Watched the rest of Saving Private Ryan and Schindler's List today. So depressing. Now it's bedtime. Need a lot of sleep tonight because I'm going to a concert tomorrow night and Keith'll be there. Long day. Ugh. October 11: Long day today. Had a bit of a revelation. I love Keith and I miss Keith, but I am not in love with Keith nor do I miss being in a relationship with him. The problem is that seeing him makes me sad because it makes me think of all the wasted time and energy, and it makes me think of the good times and that's what I miss; the good aspects of being in a relationship. Time to pack my bags and move on. The concert was great. It was really powerful. I'm glad I shelled out the $30 to go. Got my Drugs and Human Behavior test back, as well as my History one. Apparently my goal in life is to shock myself. I've done really well so far, based entirely on luck, I know. What I need is to use this as motivation to put effort in from now on to maintain these good grades. Hm. This has been such an interesting few days I don't even know what to say next, so I'll just say goodnight, chat online for a while, and read until I fall unconscious. =) October 12: Today's Cherie's B-day. yay Cherie. I have to work at 1:30 and then I'm going back to school after that. I'm really not sure why, but hopefully it'll be more fun than being here. I've been feeling really melancholy the past few days. I think that I have guilt about Pinky, and not wanting to deal with her anymore. But my life has been so peaceful the past few days, so maybe I'm just not used to it and I'm erecting roadblocks in my own way. I'm hoping to finish Hearts in Atlantis this morning, and start the sequel to The Talisman this afternoon. Got some studying to do this weekend, but I'll worry about that later. October 13: Had an interesting night last night. Maybe I don't so much dislike boys as I dislike how I am in relating to them? Who knows, I'm tired! I just got home from work and I'm supposed to be fasting today (actually I am). I don't really like it. Got yet another exam on Tuesday. Will it ever end?? Work was good, my manager is supposed to take me and some of my co workers out to eat for doing a good job. That'll be fun. I should go to bed and read, or take a bubble bath and read or something. October 14, 15: <YAWN> will someone explain to me why I'm awake at 1:40am when I have an 8am class? Oh, ur right it prolly is that obnoxious giddy feeling. Church and work were good on Sunday, then I went to see Bandits with Brendan (I think it's classified as out first date. Oh, don't act surprised. I know u saw it coming way before either of us did). Today I went to all my classes and watched movies. I actually got something out of my Third World Societies Class for once. About time. I have an exam tomorrow night in my Psych of Happiness and Optimal Functioning course. I really need to study, but the prereq for THAT is prolly sleep, especially since I have 6 hours of classes tomorrow. October 16: I really need to be studying, but alas I'm not. Right now I'm trying to figure out who's going to go to the Cake show with me. <sigh> My Melissa can't go, yet again. Jay went with me to Weezer last time and that was really cool. My exam starts in 45 mins and I haven't even started studying yet. I'm such a slacker, but I'm so good at it. I've decided to make a list of funny things that Brendan says to me. I know you all think I'm weird, but after going to this page you may think HE'S the weird one. Cherie encouraged me to do it and he gave me his permission, so here goes: Some things that Brendan has said. October 17: I'm sick. My tummy has hurt all day =( I've done nothing but lay around in bed all day (like I mind!) except that I actually went to my class. Apparently I subscribe to the theory that why be miserable and skip class? Why not go to class since you're already miserable and save your skips for days when you feel great? (Hopefully that'll motivate me into going to class tomorrow) Cherie's busy working on a paper, so I can't chat with her about girl things, the kinds of things I can't talk to you all about. That's no fair. Okay, I'm going to bed. Hope I feel better. October 18: Feel a little better than yesterday. I'm developing cabin fever though. I went to only one of my classes. Bad Michelle. Now I'm waiting for Brendan to get out of class. I hung out with Lauren earlier too. I have nothing interesting to say since I did nothing interesting today. I have a really long weekend (not a lot of days, just really really busy). Working 9 1/2 hours tomorrow, and then I'm going to a luncheon Saturday then working at night, then church at 9:15 on Sunday, then more work. Yuck. Going to watch ER and wait for Brendan. =P Home Next> |