| October 19: <chirp, chirp, chirp> Hear that? I consider that the sound of silence. Nothing interesting has happened today really. I had a nice night last night, woke up, went to work, came home from work... Right now I feel kinda confused, frustrated and scared that I'm going to do something stupid. I think it's just a form of crashing though. I was in a great mood today, probably the best I've been in in months and now that the day is over, my good mood had to be over. I think. Or maybe it's just me. I really need to get some sleep since I have to wake up early and go out with my mother and some people from church. Yay. Hopefully I'll be happier at the end of tomorrow October 21: Watching "Who's Line is it Anyway?" What a classy show! I ended up having a pretty good weekend, and now it's time to buckle down and do my schoolwork (feel free to laugh), since I have Mid Terms and papers due. I know you're all wondering how Brendan and I are doing. My answer: good, but better if we were capable of relaxing. Well, I seem capable of talking about is Brendan, and I'm not going to do that here, so there =) October 25: Wow, it's been a while. I had a few panic attacks recently. They went a little something like this: "Wow, I think I have a lot of work to do this semester. Let's see how much. Wow, between exams and papers I have 21 things due. Oh no, I've stopped breathing. Okay, okay, we can do this. Just think only one semester left after this. DEEP BREATH. OHMYGOD! ONLY ONE SEMESTER! HOW WILL I GET MY INTERNSHIP IN? I NEED TO TAKE THE GRE! I NEED TO APPLY TO GRAD SCHOOL! I NEED TO BUY TICKETS TO EUROPE! I NEED TO BUY A CAR IN A YEAR! WHERE AM I GOING TO WORK NEXT FALL? I'M NOT OLD ENOUGH TO BE AN ADULT!! ACK! I STILL NEED TO GET THROUGH THIS SEMESTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Then apparently I had a guilt complex because I feel really content with things (even school. it'll get done! It has to!) for the first time in a really long time, with the excpetion of this little black rain cloud that follows me everywhere. My desire to rid myself of this atrocity is obviously a horrid malignancy. Off to study! Got 4 exams next week. =) October 29: I haven't gotten any more studying done. =( I spent the weekend with Brendan, I usually don't feel guilty not studying if I'm having fun instead. Isn't it crazy that I don't consider watching Brendan watch Harry and the Hendersons fun? I find myself acting like such a girl around Brendan, but I think I need to remember that Brendan isn't such a boy. This line of thinking "Jeez! Is he EVER going to pay attention to me? I've tried everything short of setting myself on fire to get his attention!" is generally a bad one to follow because he's actually hopeless enough to get someone to honestly consider setting themselves on fire. I give up! I should anyways because I have to worry about how I'm going to get this dirt out of my nose. I went on a "hayride" last night, which would be more aptly named "Hurtling through a dusty, bumpy, hilly trail at 45 mph while laying next to a bale of hay wimpering for your life ride"... I had dust in everything last night, but it seems that it's only left in my nose. Ugh Home Next> |