Hrm... Haven't posted on my site in a couple days. Its not like it matters, no one reads this anyways. I had hoped that this would turn into a great website. And that Maybe... Just maybe people would look at it. In fact, I wrote a little song about it.

Can you see me going under

Can you see me shutting down

Can you see the least resistance

Giving up all i've found

I have just been in a horrible mood lately. I am not feeling well. Getting shocked yesterday... Then when I go to eat supper I nearly choke so much I can't breathe. But who cares.... No one is interested in this crap. I hang my head in defeat, and raise the white flag....for i surrender

My Live Journal Site

I was just reading blogs on blog.hotornot.com I came across this guy who was getting rid of his Live Journal codes. So i picked one up because I have always wanted a live journal. I know i have this blog, but when i'm at school I can't always edit code for my blog. So I will be updating both blogs... Not sure if i will transfer entrys from one blog to the next. So just check at both places. Both will have the same content. Except I am able to post pictures on my site, which is a plus. So anywho thats the lowdown on that. in0centdr3amer is my handle on LJ.

Well tomorrow is somewhat of an interesting day. I'm going watch my cousin's soccer game. And thats about it Come home, sleep until Monday morning. *sigh* Morgan is at her parents house this weekend. Anyways on that note i'll be going to bed... Laterz.

// series one - facts

-- Name: Torrie

-- Birthdate: March 12th, 1983

-- Birthplace: Lafayette, LA

-- Current Location: Lafayette, LA

-- Eye Color: Dark brown.

-- Hair Color: Blackish brownish

-- Righty or Lefty: ambidexterous

-- Zodiac Sign: pisces

-- Innie or Outtie: Introvert or extrovert? dunno what this means.

// series two - describe

-- Your heritage: Not too sure on that... Never did a back ground check

-- The shoes you wore today: Umm.... My sandals I got from Target

-- Your hair: Short... Shaved... sometimes spiked if cut right

-- Your eyes: Dark brown

-- Your weakness: Food.

-- Your fears: Losing someone I love.

-- Your perfect pizza: Supreme .. minus the anchovies

-- One thing you'd like to achieve: Become a network administrator for a fairly large company.

// series three - what is

-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: Its all good

-- Your thoughts first waking up: I want to go back to bed.... I hit sponge bob on the head a couple times

-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: Well i'll just pretended like this question asked about the same sex beings i'm a lesbian.... Hands and eyes.... Morgan has awesome eyes and very cute hands

-- Your best physical feature: my nose

-- Your bedtime: Varies... i like to be in bed for 11

-- Your greatest accomplishment: Graduating Highschool, Winning the Parish All-Star Championship, Going to my first State Tournament, Passing my first Microsoft Test, becomming an MCP.

-- Your most missed memory: I miss the fact that I never graduated from a normal highschool. I missed out on my junior/senior year in track. A bunch of other stuff I rather not mention because it'll only make me sad.

// series four - you prefer

-- Pepsi or coke: Diet Vanilla Pepsi

-- McDonald's or Burger King: Raising Canes

-- Single or group dates: Single

-- Adidas or Nike: Adidas or Doc Martens

-- Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate

-- Cappuccino or coffee: Cappucino.

-- Bras or Panties: Umm.. what's the question?

// series five - do you

-- Smoke: Negative.

-- Cuss: Yes

-- Take a shower everyday: I try to

-- Have a crush(es): Not any more.

-- Do you think you've been in love: Yes, and still am.

-- Want to go to college: Yes, I miss college

-- Like high school: No, just Sports

-- Want to get married: Yes

-- Believe in yourself: no

-- Think you're attractive: No.

-- Think you're a health freak: Nope.

-- Get along with your parents: Depends on which day it is

-- Like thunderstorms:No they are scary

//series six - in the past month, did/have you

-- Drank alcohol: Had a sip of Morgans Barcadi thing

-- Smoke(d): Nope

-- Done a drug: No, unless prescribed ones counts :D

-- Have Sex: yes

-- Made Out: yes

-- Go on a date: yes

-- Go to the mall: Yep.

-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no

-- Been on stage: no

-- Been dumped: not yet

-- Made homemade cookies: Not in the past month, no.

-- Been in love: Yes.

-- Gone skinny dipping: Nope, and why would I want to?

-- Dyed your hair: Nope.

-- Stolen anything: No.

// series seven - have you ever

-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: No.

-- If so, was it mixed company: No.

-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yes

-- Been caught "doing something": No.

-- Been called a tease: Tease? No.

-- Gotten beaten up: Nope.

-- Shoplifted: No

-- If so, did you get caught: No.

-- Changed who you were to fit in: I think we all did at one point

// series eight - the future

-- Age you hope to be married: in 2005 so i'll be like 22 or so

-- Numbers and Names of Children: ask Morgan

-- Descibe your Dream Wedding: ask JD the wedding planner

-- How do you want to die: I don't want to die

-- Where you want to go to college: Small college

-- What do you want to be when you grow up: Network Administrator

-- What country would you most like to visit: Canaduh

// series nine - same sex

-- Best eye color: blue

-- Best hair color: blonde

-- Short or long hair: long

-- Best height: Taller than me.

-- Best articles of clothing: Umm...

-- Best first date location: Somewhere romantic.

-- Best first kiss location: Hmm...

// series ten - number of

-- Number of Girlfriends you've had: Grand total of ONE! thats serious :D

-- Number of girlfriends: Ahem!

-- Number of people I could trust with my life: Me.

-- Number of CDs that I own: Too many.

-- Number of piercings: 5

-- Number of tattoos: Nada.

-- Number of scars on my body: A few.

-- Number of things in my past that I regret: Yes

//series eleven - the last...

-- Movie you rented? Um... I don't remember

-- Movie you bought? FROM JUSTIN TO KELLY

-- Song you listened to: um... Evanescence - My Immortal

-- Song that was stuck in your head? Random Evanescence songs

-- Song you've downloaded? Got rid of Kazaa

-- CD you bought? Probably Kelly Clarksons Cd

-- CD you listened to? See above.

-- Book you have bought:Oliver Twist

-- Person you've called? Morgan

-- Person that's called you? Morgan

-- TV show you've watched? Um...Survivor

-- Person you were thinking of? Morgan

//series twelve - misc.

-- You have a b/f or g/f: Yep!

-- You have a crush on someone: Nope.

-- You wish you could live somewhere else: Yes and No

-- You think about suicide: I have, but not recently

-- You believe in online dating: *shrugs*

-- Others find you attractive: nope i'm ugly

-- You want more piercings: Nope.

-- You want more tattoos: No.

-- You drink: When given the oppertunity

-- You do drugs: Nope.

-- You smoke: no.

-- You like cleaning: Nope.

-- You like roller coasters: Eeeek. No way!

-- You write in cursive or print: Cursive

-- You carry a donor card: No..

//series thirteen - for or against....

-- Long distance relationships: yeah

-- Using someone: Against.

-- Suicide: dunno

-- Killing people: Against.

-- Teenage smoking: Against.

-- Doing drugs: Against.

-- Premarital sex: um... against

-- Driving drunk: Totally against.

-- Gay/lesbian relationships: Are perfectly fine... now all they need to do is legalize marriage

//series fourteen - favorite...

-- Soap operas? None.

-- Food: Chicken tenders.

-- Song: Too many.

-- Thing to do: Internet

-- Thing to talk about: Depends who I am talking to.

-- Sport: Softball, Bowling, Basketball

-- Drink: Diet Vanilla Pepsi

-- Clothes: Jeans and a polo shirt

-- Favourite shoes: sandles and the docs that morgan gave me

-- Movie: Too many to name.

-- Band: None really.

-- Holiday: march 12th and christmas

-- Cars: Xterras or Jeep Wranglers

//series fifteen - what are you right now....

-- Shampoo do you use: whatever is in the shower

-- Perfume do you use: cool water, adidas or hugo.

-- Shoes do you wear: haven't i covered this already?

-- Are you scared of: Losing someone I love.

//series sixteen - in the past 24 hours have you

-- had a serious talk: Nope.

-- hugged someone: Nope, unless my dog counts

-- fought with a friend: No.

-- cried: No.

-- laughed: Not really.

-- made someone laugh: no

-- bought something: Drink in the vending machine

-- cut your hair: Nope.

-- felt stupid: everyday

-- talked to someone you love: Uh huh.

-- missed someone: Yes.

I left Lafayette, at about 10 till 7. I was on my way to Chattanooga, TN. I needed to see Morgan, and she needed to see me. Main problem is, My rebate wasn't in. Morgan went to check n 2 cash, and borrowed some money. She Knows that i'll pay her back.

Also. I have received this money order as payment for my NES Power Pad. Can you spot the mistakes?

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Well for starters he wrote on the Money order with another money order or something else. Me and Morgan traveled around Chattanooga looking for someone to cash it. They said they can't cash it because it looks like its been fooled with. Then the amount is wrong. It was 15 for Shipping, and 8.50 for the Item itself. He only paid me 15 dollars. So Morgan is going to mail him back his money order, and write him a nice little email.

I got to Chatty at around 5 am eastern time. Then we went to Steak n Shake for food. I got chicken tenders and fries. My fries wern't all that great. They were the shoestring kind. Not really my kinda fry. Then we came home and proceeded to go to bed. I couldn't sleep so I got up and went online. James and JD had came over in my opinion for no apparent reason. They left as quickly as they got here. Morgan offered both to come to Images that night, but at first both declined. My feelings were really hurt, in that James didn't want to go because me and Morgan are so goo-goo-ga-ga over each other. JD and I - is a totally different story. We went to Bilo to get ingredients for Western Potatoes. While we are there, Morgan remembers that her pyrex pan is at James'. We make a run to James and JD's apartment to get the pan. Then realized that we didn't pick up actual potatoes for the potato dish. So Morgan stopped at Pruets and picked up some potatoes.

When Morgan and I got back to the apartment, Morgan began to cook and I proceeded on taking a nap. Miss America was on. Morgan knows Miss Tennessee Personally, shes a KD. Unfortunately Miss Tennessee did not make it to the top 15. We both boycotted the Miss America Pageant. Miss Florida ended up winning. We start getting ready to go out to Images and Morgan does this to her hair.

So we go to James and JD's house in a hurry so JD can get the Hairbrush out. JD eventually gets the brush out and we were on our way to IMAGES. I have never seen Images so packed. Wall to Wall with Dykes and Queers. While at Images i had the sudden urge to get a breast reduction. So i could be more of a Dyke. I think my breasts take away from my dykish image. Bleh... but anyways that was the thought of the night. We just chill out and watch the show. Smoke was getting in my eyes so we went outside. There was this lesbian couple that couldn't keep their hands off each other and were pretending like they were getting it on, on top of the table. Then I got to see the big fat girl who says I want some Pussssay Freakin fat thing she is. Then I got to see some of the drag queens up close. That was really cool. Everyone knows Images has the best shows. Freakin Sound Factory Sucks. The Draq Queens there aren't worthy of the title. There was just some annoying people there. The girl named Amy who was following JD around like a puppy dog was getting on my nerves. WE could have given him his PEN because Morgan was sponsering him. The crowd people that we had to get through to get outside sucked! I later on found out that I passed about 4 Moc Softball players. After JD got his little phone numbers then we left. We took him to Krispy Kreme, but they didn't have the doughnuts he wanted. So we went to Krystal Burger to get him food. Then me and Morgan came back to her apartment and ate the rest of the Potatoes. Sunday we hung out at the apartment and after Morgan was finished with her KD stuff we went to a Chinese Buffet. Where we were both full afterwards. And we tried to get my money order cashed but no one would cash it. We figured we'd try the next day. Well I slept the majority of the day today, just because I was catching up on sleep i guess. Then me and Morgan went to the check cashing place to try and get my money order cashed. That is when the lady said she or anyone else could cash it because it looks as though its been tampered with. So Morgan is emailing the guy. After wards we went to Barnhills for supper. Again we stuffed ourselves silly. Ohhh we got the Necklaces that Morgan won off ebay. The sender was a Megan Ploof. Ploof be gone! That was what I was saying in the car the whole time, along with making farting noises. Here is a picture of the necklaces.

Confusion still exists, but let me start off with a quote. "Tomorrow becomes today, Today becomes yesterday, Yesterday becomes last week, last week becomes last month, and last month becomes last year.......then the last years become your life."

That was the only advice my dad gave me in 20 years. He was quite drunk when he said that. Alot of unneccessary drama last night/this morning. To make a long story short... My dad said he talked with my grandma. And supposidly she said that I am a burden, and she was tired of providing for me. This was all said over dinner at Mel's Diner. Well my dad was like sleep at my house and we will talk. So I fell for the trap. Just like I did when i was 5 years old. I'd wait and wait by the door in hopes that my dad would come like he said he would. He keeps on saying that things will change, and that life is getting shorter. It never changes.

One set of stickers from Ebay had came in. These are them...

I am still getting stalked. One of my 4 stalkers left a message on my answering machine saying "get back, its urgent."

It has been awhile since I have done anything to my page. I haven't been feeling all that well lately. Lots of confusion and mild withdrawals have been taken place. I tried to go back to school, but there will always be that feeling of emptyness knowing I left ULL. I feel so stupid. Now i'm forced to go to new horizons. Part of me wants to go back to a Normal college. If I have learned anything from my family it is to, Never Settle until you are absolutely satisfied. I am not satisfied with New Horizons. I miss Homework, Tests, having to study.

All I want to do is go see Morgan. But with the luck that I have, I am facing obstacles at the moment. My Dad came in today. I picked him up. We talked about the shed.

My shed which still after many months isn't finished.

My dad talked about finishing the shed instead of giving me money for school. I was going to take the money my dad gave and go see Morgan.

Robert has been coming over after class everyday. I have been enjoying his visits. He tries to make me feel better about myself, but it doesn't work. I still think i'm stupid. He talked me into reading Oliver Twist I think that the book is above my level, which depresses me even more.