The past week or so that I have been here has been awesome. I have gotten to realize what its like to have someone who cares about you, just as much as you care about them. I really thought that I would never find anyone, neverthe less anyone as great as Morgan is. I arrived in Chattanoga - scared. I did not know what her reaction would be when she saw me, or what her friends would think of me. I have met three of her best friends. MPP, James, and JD, and also Eva. All are great people.

JD came down to Chattanoga on Thursday. Last Friday was his birthday so to celebrate we went have dinner at some fancy restaurant. We had about a 20 minute wait. While we were waiting outside, Me and Morgan were sitting on the bench. James and JD were across from us. This couple walked passed us and gave me and Morgan evil looks. James was ready to go talk to the couple. I thought that was great of James to want to do that for us. But wasn't worth the trouble. Some people just aren't as opened minded as others. Instead of being mad and upset about it, I felt sorry for them. As I passed by their table, walking to ours - The woman just kinda laughed and pointed.

Dinner was nice. It was JD, Morgan, James, Eva - JD's friends Hal and his boyfriend Tim - and myself. Tim reminded me of my Stalker back in Louisiana. Except Tim had shorter hair. I was like OMG its a replica of my stalker. I was scurrrrred. I didn't really like Hal, or Tim too much. They just struck me the wrong way. But besides them my dinner was great - well the chicken and mushroom part. The angel hair pasta was just pasta. You think they could have put something over the top of it.

After dinner - I got really sad, because of the whole money situation. I know my money will be in Friday, but it still upset me. I am not used to having to depend on someone to provide me with things - other then my grandma. We fight over bills already lol. I want to help her with her best buy card. I know I don't have to, but I want to. After dinner, we went pick up old school. Everyone came back to Morgan's and we watched the movie.

Friday we went have breakfast at mcdonalds Earrrrly in the morning. Morgan went to work and I slept until 2 pm. Woke up talked to Morgan online. I greeted her at the door. Then we talked for a bit. Then we went shopping. She wanted to get a new outfit for Images that night. We went to Best Buy - she went pick up a VCR. They had Hamtaro there! And she got it for me. BUT I am paying her back. Then we went to the mall. She got me a SPONGE BOB sticker for my car. We walked around the mall for a bit and ended up meeting up with James. James admitted to being a closeted homosexual. We went to Old Navy after the mall. She got an outfit for Images and some clothes for work. She even got me an old navy flag shirt.

She does so much for me. I feel like I don't do enough for her

Last night we went to Images - A whole 20 people were there. None of us were impressed. there was this couple in front of us - one had a shaved head. GROSS! So we left after 2 hrs. We went to IHOP after Images. Service was really slow and bad. we waited forever and a day for our drinks. And even longer to order. When the food comes out, my order is wrong. I wanted chicken strips. She brings out Fucking Flapjack sausage things. I was not impressed. Before we went to Images, while everyone was getting ready. I was watching HAMTARO! When we got back home, I watched Hamtaro! Morgan fell asleep. This morning Morgan left for her parents house. She got a speeding ticket in mississippi. She hates MISSISSIPPI - her quote "Mississippi can FUCK themselves- and they are nazis" - well thats it for now because i'm talking to Morgan on the phone - shes rather upset. - laterz

Yesterday, I had another action packed adventure in chattanoga. ME and Morgy went bowling with one of her best friends MPP - Page, Nick - Page's boyfriend, and Dave - Nicks cousin. But before we went bowling, We went to WalMart - to get a couple items. As we were checking out it started to pour down. Lights went out as well. They wern't letting anyone in or out. So eventually the rain let down. Morgan made a run for it, as I merely walked. Flashbacks of my adventure in chattanoga in the rain. Then we made our way to the bowling alley. We bowled 2 games. My first game wasn't that great. A 123. My 2nd game was more like a normal game a 163. I could sit here and make excuses on why i bowled so bad - partially due to my pants wanting to fall down. I thought MPP was cool. So far I like all of Morgy's friends. Hopefully they all like me too. After we finished bowling we went to Applebees. Morgan wanted a mucho mudslide or something. I wanted CHICKEN TENDERS. They were yummy. Then we went rescue james so he could do his spanish homework. Alot of fallen trees were down around campus. James did his homework then we wene Back to walmart because james needed a flash light. I wanted to pierce my ears again. I can't decide if i want my cartlidge or my earlobes pierced. Earlobes are more professional. But i'd like another cartlidge piercing. Then after we dropped off james, we went back to the apartment. I talked to kerri for a bit - then we went to bed. It was a late night. We went to bed late. we were looking at rings. I'm getting her a ring. I let her pick out which one she liked. Its a titanium - blue sapphire ring. Its very cool. She asked what i wanted it to symbolize - I want it to symbolize my love for her - She's she one for me. I don't know, maybe i am scaring her off with it. But I'm sure about this. She's the one I want. Maybe I am scaring her off with all this? Maybe what I feel - isn't exactly what she feels. Thats perfectly fine. But I love her without a doubt.

I didn't mean to appear so distant, but when you have a million things going through your mind - its kinda hard not to be distant. As each day passes, I love Morgan more and more. Its just all new to me - because I never loved someone, and have had them love me in return. This is the girl who I can honestly say I want to spend the rest of my life with. Each day I wake up - I tell myself that this is the person i want to wake up to for the rest of my life. Alright - that is all.... laterz

I am going to give my opinion on the Eager Beaver. It is very fun lol. Friday we got the eager Beaver. It was saturday - early morning, When Little torrie, Wasn't so Little anymore. Mwahaha. We got up at 2 in the afternoon. We went to Panera. Morgan proceeded to fling mayo all over the booth, and herself - as she was trying to open up my mayo packets. Then we went home and cuddled as we "watched" better than chocolate. She then went on to tweeze my eyebrows. Then she picked at my face. Then we went to images to see the drag show. She had to sponser me because i am not 21. So I didn't get any alcohol in that night. While watching the show - she elbowed me in my eye. Then she picked at a hair i had on the side of my face. Then after the show we went outside on the patio. We made everyone jealous for a while. Then we went to IHOP - where I got called a guy. What happened was I asked where the restroom was - the server was like the guys restroom is on the right. But getting called a guy is nothing new - just shocks me everytime. Then we went home to cuddle. She then hit me again with her elbow in bed. That was the 6th time withen 24 hrs that she has hurt me - not intentionally though. Then we woke up at 2 again. I didn't want to get out of bed. But she said if i didn't that she was going to tweeze my eyebrows again. So i got out of bed - watched MTV, the osbournes for about two hours. We went to walmart and went shopping. Then over there she proceeded to shock me not once, but TWICE. so she hurt me 8 times withen the whole WEEKEND. lol. Then we came home and she cooked supper, and it was great. James was over. p.s. Morgan likes to proof read everything in my blog as i type it. Shes looking over my shoulder as we speak. And feeding me ice cream. We went fill up my car with gas because i thought i was going to have to go home for a day. But it turns out that I don't have to go back. Morgan was all upset and crying :( But shes happy again. And she made me an awesome necklace. We went to get an apartment guide because me and kerri will be moving up here. Okay thats all for now. I'm going cuddle with Morgan - laterz

To tell you how great my day went. I woke up at 10:15. Then I went to the library. At first I was watching a dvd, then i was like screw this i'm going on the internet. So thats where i was at for the remainder of the time I was at the library. I talked to Morgan online while she was at work. She gave me excellent directions to her work. I only got lost, stuck in the rain, and got splashed on by on comming cars AND went in the totally wrong direction. I have came to the conclusion no one besides morgan is nice in chattanoogta. Oh and her room mate is cool too. But they don't help a lost stranger thats not from around here. I stopped at the DQ and asked if i could borrow their phone because the payphone was not working. But before that i was walking up and down Central. for at least 15 mins. Then I was like following some lady's directions. She sent me all the way up mccallie ave. I stopped at an insurance angency and asked if i could borrow their phone. the guy was being a real jerk. He dialed the number but wouldn't leave a voice message. So at that point it was pouring down. And some dumbass splashed me with water while driving. I was soaked, not in a good mood, and lugging around a heavy booksack in the rain. Morgan wants everyone to know. She fell in the middle of the street, and hurt herself, including her bad knee. She continues to laugh hysterically in the back ground. I noticed the street that looked familiar and i found my way back to the library. Where i called morgan from the pay phone. Then she came and eventually picked me up. I guess she decided she wanted to see me lol. So she picked me up and we went back to her apt so i could change into dry clothes. BUT when we get there. The door slamed and they leave me outside. But eventually they let me in. I got to meet Morgan's roommate. Shes cool. Although she thinks i'm from Texas and that Morgan is straight. HA HA HA. anyways we eventually leave to go on with our plans. We go to soupersalad. The waitress was a bitch. I didn't tip her, but i don't feel bad about it because she just poured my refil of diet coke in the glass instead of bringing me another drink. The food there wasn't that great. My baked potato was cold. Then we went to Media play where i found the movie i've been looking for Everything Relative its a lesbian movie. Then we go to the mall to see Bruce Almighty. Excellent movie. I reccomend it. it gets two thumbs up. I even cried at the end when i realized that her prayers wasn't answered. The movie kinda hit home. Because i'll have horrible days and i'll question my faith and everything and i'll be like why me, or what did i do to deserve whatever bad comes my way. But it was an excellent movie. Then we went to petsmart and she got a FIGHTING BETA FISH she named it bevo. Then we went back to Media Play. Morgan got the EDITED version of the matrix reloaded soundtrack, and she was overcharged the first time. Then we went on our happy way to find a porn shop. So we could engage in activities you wouldn't tell your mother about. So we found a porn shop, looked around. And we settled on the EAGER BEAVER It rotates, squirms, and vibrates. Has different speeds and everything. Then I came back to the apartment and i was very amused with the whole "eager beaver" Aight I am going watch some TV - laters ;)

i can't sleep again. I didn't take my medication last night. I was too lazy. Yesterday morgan picked me up from the library. We went getmy hair cut. The line was too long at fantastic sams so we went to walmart. my baby got me a penguin! Its so cute. I forgot its name, starts with a b. tonight we are going see bruce almighty. last night was cool. Morgan cooked, then we watched the movie awards and cuddled. today is my last day for hiding out. i don't mind though. I am looking foward to going to the library. maybe i'll read for longer than an hr this time. and definately no walking around the whole city of chatty. my legs are sore from walking. damnit all i wanted was something to drink lol. and i ended up walking for an hr. i have got the best gf in the world. I can not wait until fall of 2004. Hopefully we are still going to austin. If not then i'll be where shes at- definately. I am going through kelly clarkson withdrawals. I usually listen to my cd at night. I left it in the car today, didn't bring it to the library. k i am tired tired. im going back to bed - laterz.

Today I woke up I don't know somewheres around 7. I went to bed at like 4 because i couldn't sleep. I think i kept morgan awake, even if she says that I didn't. I watched cartoons. A show about a hampster, and another show about a penguin!!!Then Morgan went to take her final. I reformatted my computer, put ME back on there Grrrr... I hate ME. absolutely the worst operating system made. So hopefully my computer stops being mean to me. So i can install my dvd software on it and watch dvd's on it. Morgan dropped me off at the library while she went to work. I got bored so i decided I'd go for a walk to try and find a soda machine because I was thirsty! but i didn't find a soda machine. I don't know how far i walked, but i walked pretty damn far. But thats okay because i got some great pictures in the meantime.I found my way back to the library and I went sit down but i was getting sleepy just sitting, so I went on the internet, where I'm at now. I miss morgan, but she gets off in 45 mins so its all good. Then we are going get my hair cut. I can not wait. I need a hair cut. but anyways, thats about all i have to say for now - laterz.

i can not sleep. it is 2 something in the morning. I had a long drive to get to my baby's house. so i should be knocked out cold but im wide awake. I think i am keeping morgan awake by typing. sorry baby. The trip here wasn't so bad. Cept for nothing being on the radio, my cd player not working, and my ac going out, which it works now. i was doing close to ninty the whole trip. only saw three police cars. i thought i was going to get pulled over but luckily the guy infront of me broke. the whole trip here I was just like what if she doesn't like me. what if i'm not the person she thought i was. I made myself a nervous wreck. When I got here we went down to the river. It was nice. And we held hands, that was even nicer. im going to try and go back to sleep - laterz

I am addicted to Kelly Clarkson's cd. /rant heh. Today is my cousin's last dance revue. So I gotta go show my loving support etc etc. She graduates from dancing tonight. But I am only staying until her solo then after I'm leaving. I went see about putting new tires on my car. So I don't get a blow out going see my baby! Then tomorrow i'm going get an oil change. Then the next day is when I leave! yay! I am rather tired. So i think that a nap is in order - laterz

I am still super excited. 4 days!! My apointment isn't for another hour. I am bored Morgan just went to class. I have the damn hiccups- again! I can't drink anything because it'll affect when i weigh in, so i guess these hiccups are just going to have to take its course. I thought that pic I posted on this entry was a cute one of me. Don't I look so innocent. hah yeah right. WILL THESE HICCUPS PLEASE GO AWAY! Anyways I'm off to do something entertaining - like going outside and finding something to take a picture off - laterz

I am super excited! Like way excited! 4 more days. Then i'll get to be with my baby. Soooo excited. YAY!!! anyways its only 2 am my time. So i'm gunna try to find something to occupy my time before i have to call Morgan back yay!

that is all i have to say for now - k bye

I think I had too much sodium today. That damn mcdonalds salad. My fingers look puffy. I feel puffy. I looked in the mirror and this is what I looked like.

Tomorrow I am going to have to do a protein day because of that stupid mcdonalds salad. Protein day consists of egg whites for breakfast, lunch, and supper, with an orange. That is a protein day.

Okay I am pissed. I wrote a whole entry. And stupid me had to go and fool with settings on my computer and it messed it up.

But it basically said that I last talked to morgan at 1. She went to bed, hopefully shes having sweet dreams, and that i wished that I was with her right now. But in 6 days i'll be there! I can't wait. I think shes going to get tired of me and make me go home early.

I told Morgan yesterday. I think I threw her offguard. But I meant it. Anyways she has a busy day tomorrow, so I probably won't get to talk to her. I miss her already. I am going to email her before I go to bed.

Sorry about the last entry. I was really bored tonight, so I did a survey thing. In the morning, or afternoon whichever it is when i wake up. I am going to archive my blog entries. Work on the quote page some more. Send in your quotes either via email or the comments section. But yeah I'm going to go email Morgan now and go to bed - laterz.