"You'll always have me.
"Be it as a friend,
"Be it as a lover,
"Or be it as my wife,"
Is what he's told me.
I know this.
And I understand this.
But I don't want to be just friends.
I don't want to remain just lovers.
I want to be his wife.
I want him to be my husband.
I want to fall asleep,
Every night, for the rest of our lives,
Curled up in each other's arms.
I want him to be the father of my children.
And I want to be the mother of his.
He once said to me,
"It's not that you're not good enough,
"Or that you're missing something.
"It's that you're too good.
"You are a forever decision."
He's not ready for that yet,
I guess I'm not either.
But everytime I see him with another girl,
It scares me.
I'm afraid I'll lose him,
Afraid he'll find someone better than me.
I'm trying so hard to be patient,
But it gets tougher each day.
I just want to jump time,
Just a year or two,
To where we're both ready,
So I can have him forever.
I want to be his forever.
Kristin Tone
3-6-01
3:11 AM
