I tried not to cry
It was hard
I failed
I never mean to hurt you
I never mean to upset you
It just kind of happens sometimes
You'll probably get upset over this
But it's the only way I can get release
Release from the pain
Release from the confusion
Release from the love
I love you so much
I have no idea why
You cause me such pain and confusion
But I love you for it
Last night was hard
But I thank you for it
It made me think
Made me remember my place
My status in life with you
I tried so hard not to cry
I thought it would upset you
But I did cry
I cried because I love you
Because I had upset you
And I had no idea how
Because you actually went through with it
You never really have before
But it was good for me
I understand this
And I accept this
I even, on some messed up level, enjoyed it
This is why I cried
Kristin M. Tone
12-22-00
1:30 PM
